d r e a m s
2005
monday: 11 21 05
i'm in this school auditorium towards the back of this group of people. lenny is there too, only he is at the front of the room with some other random people while i'm with these lesbian girls. three of them are all over each other, groping each other and stuff... one to my left... i don't remember, but i somehow think she was a lesbian too. at some point i stand up and i'm in between this hispanic guy and this black guy and they get into a fight. the black guy takes out a gun and at that time everyone starts running out of the room. i run, too. when i get to the door of the auditorium / cafeteria, i look back and look for lenny, but i don't see him, so i keep running. somehow the black guy teleports in front of me and pretty much shoos me in the face. i THINK i die... or at least i woke up right when i thought he shot me in the face.
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wednesday: 11 09 05
ummm i'm at home and dahye comes over. she steals files from my computer... downloads an entire list of my press contacts and stuff. i walk into the computer room where she is sitting and i see it and she immediately closes it, but i see the file name, which is "values." however, she's convinced that because she did all of these things to hide it, i won't find it. then she left. i went back to the computer and did a search for the folder and came up with this "proposal.doc" document. it was a letter she had written proposing some shit about "the o.c." -- i don't remember the details, but all i know is she was exploiting my contacts to be pretend to be me X: and so i went downstairs to show my parents what she'd done. don't remember the rest.
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monday: 11 07 05
probably the longest dream in the history of man. in a car, in the passenger's seat. driver's side window is rolled down and we're talking to these three guys in the van next to us. don't remember about what. turns out smeone is sitting to the right of me when all these werewolves come out of nowhere. i think it was even daytime, so me and the girl sitting next to me freak out because werewolves are smashing all these cars in front of us. i tell her to open the door, and she does and we run out. fast-forward and we're outside these big condos or something and we're running to it when someone is telling me that, "just stay outside; they'll knock down your door." so i stop running and a werewolf catches me and breathes down my neck and shit. it feels so real -- the shivering and sensitivity of that region. but i guess werewolves don't like eating people unless they freak out or something. so it left me alone. then i went into the house living with a bunch of people (i only remember the three guys from the van, emily [chen], andy [chen], and john [gillanders]). living in these huge ass three-story condos or something. we start using weird ass stuff... not really using electricity, barely making phone calls, using remote controlled cars to transport people around outside, etc. we just hang out in the house thinking that no werewolves will do anything. at some point i get to this room on the top floor with a giant window. there are all these switches on the left wall (when you first enter) and i for some reason keep flipping them. one opens a spotlight, one a projector or something, and a few do nothing noticeable. but then one of the switches freaking puts out this giant spotlight and controlls this building across the way. it plays some weird music and makes the shroom-like looking house fly around (shroom-like looking house like the one found in "katamari damacy"_. and i guess when this happened, some of the remote-controlled cars we use to transport people get destroyed (one remote-controlled car which looks like the pink giant bear bus in "katamari"). john talks about how he needs to go out and replace it. i think john makes himself my boyfriend for the time-being or something because lenny is nowhere to be found. at some point, john like steals a hug from me or something and someone says he's there if i want (or something along those lines, but not exactly). i wonder about lenny a little and wonder if people in lynnwood (even though he lives in kirkland) are having a werewolf problem also. i don't think of calling him, though, and think that without the internet, he is unreachable. anyway, andy and emily are on the bottom floor by themselves and not hanging out with everyone else on the top floor. they're sitting in seperate rooms for some reason. at some point i walk by them and tell andy that they need to come upstairs with us. i'm on my way to the bathroom which is in the basement and through this dimly-lit wine cellar and stuff. suddenly, three of the girls in the household pop out of nowhere because they're in the wine cellar (which now looks like a supermarket) making food or something. don't remember who they were because i don't know them; i only remember one girl with extremely short, blonde hair. so they kind of go off about food and i just continue walking past them to the bathroom. fast-forward and as i'm walking back up the stairs out of the bathroom area, we all hear andy and emily screaming that the werewolves have broken in. we all start yelling that the werewolves have broken in and i sprint upstairs, not even checking to see how emily and andy were. on my way up the second flight of stairs (that leads to the first floor and the door), someone opens the door, throws out this beef roll thing (that is also found in "katamari") and as it goes out, i see it exit through a first-person perspective, as if i were the one throwing it, even though i wasn't. it was like if you were playing "doom" and throwing something in the game. anyway, initially nothing responds but then a hoard of werewolves just ambush the meat we threw out, and we immediately close the door. i continue up the third flight of stairs and on the way grab everything that we have that can possibly be used as a weapon. i grab scissors, cinnamon powder, and some other powder with the intention of throwing it in their eyes. i was screaming to everyone to grab whatever weapons they could find. i went to grab my cell phone which was on the floor of a giant room and i think about calling lenny, although i don't know if i actually did since i don' remember a phone call. and then i guess we exited at some point and got away alright. cept as our car was driving away, there was all of this traffic. again, the giant white van with three guys in it was to our left, and despite the fact that they had lived with us in the house, i was like, "you guys were next to us on the way in," and yeah. more werewolves came, and again they were smashing cars, although with a more rapid speed this time. oh yeah, turns out at this point (but not previously), all of the werewolves were wearing blue jackets. so once again i tell the lady next to me to get out of the car, and i follow. a werewolf is about to pounce on me when some guy comes rescue me. he's not a werewolf, but he's dressed in a blue jacket with his female friend, and it seems that just because he's wearing a blue jacket, the werewolves can't tell that he's not one of them. so he puts his arm around me and tells another werewolf that he is saving me for being eaten. i remember wondering what these werewolves were like during the daytime, although once again, i think it is daytime again. i wonder when the infestation will stop and how come the military hasn't really done anythinsg about it yet. i also remember climbing up this giant hill at one point and having an extremely difficult time with it. it's like basically a 90 degree-angled wall, and it is just impossible to get a grip on everything. the grip consists of like snow and glasses and weird-ass shit. at some point some middle-aged man helps me up and that's how i even manage to make it to the top, but i don't remember where that particular part comes in...
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sunday: 10 30 05
(lenny dream): i eat fetus-stuffed dumplings that he doesn't want me to eat, and in order to get him back for his not wanting me to eat them, i attack a man with a sword who ultimately kills me.
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saturday: 10 29 05
was with somewhere with lenny and then we decided to get on the bus. for some reason, i sat in the back and he sat in the front of the bus. it was packed. for some reason. it felt like one of the guys in the back of the bus was about to go crazy, so i just calmly walked to the front of the bus where lenny was, and as i was doing this, i heard him say to people around him to get me over there. and i think he took out a gun, and people on the bus started freaking out, so lenny and i ran out of the emergency exit door (which, in retrospect, was just the door you use to get on the bus, but there was no vision of a bus driver or anything other than an emergency exit door that was solid and not even clear glass). we just ran and ran and i had flip-flops off so i took them off and ditched them. we started to run to the right of the bus and then realized there was nothing much there, so we backtracked across where the bus was and crossed this street (the bus had stopped on a road leading to parking lots), and started running across some grass and through some areas that were heavily lined with trees. at some point we approached a fork in the road and one side was open with a lot of people (it felt like we were at a zoo but there was no mention of animals), and the other side was some corridor with fenced walls on either side of it. sanding between the corridor and us were three vicious ass doggies. so they completely ignored lenny but i freaked out and thought they'd bite me and i took off one sandle (hey, they magically reappeared) and threw it off to the right side... and the first dog, the biggest dog, went for it... but then i through the second one and they started coming after me. some person in the background was saying all you had to do was pet it and it'd be alright, and so i did, and it was ok. ran through the corridor and on the other side, the doggies reappeared again. pet em again. don't remember what else happened.
i was raiding through my dad's closet because i was convinced he was part of some conspiracy or something. we were in a foreign building, and it felt like a videogame checking all these corridors where i had no idea what everything was. so i thought he was in some other room taking a shower because i heard the water running through the wall, but turns out that he was actually in the room i was in. so i was digging through this giant closet and i found a videocamera with nothing really on them except for some maps, and i discovered that there was nothing suspicious. so i was gonna leave the closet because i thought dad was in a different room, when he had his back turned towards me outside the door. i saw him, freaked out, and kind of crashed back down in the closet but i was so loud that he noticed me, so i pretended i only went in there to get a camera. and he was okay with that. later there was some mention of flying swan boatplanes (the kind that can fly and land on water) because i think my dad had a tour company or something... and then i had the thought that, "hey, can those land anywhere?" (since irl i always see them landing in the weirdest places)... and that's all, really.
(lenny's dream): lenny dreams that i eat fetus-stuffed dumplings that he doesn't want me to eat, and in order to get him back for his not wanting me to eat them, i attack a man with a sword who ultimately kills me.
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sunday: 10 23 05
hanging out at home with andy [crossett] and some of his friends. don't remember details. later, went to this office building or school or something. people were chasing me so i ran out of these sliding glass doors into a lawn... other people followed, but i don't know why they were running away too... don't remember too much anymore.
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saturday: 10 22 05
cynthia is jealous of lenny and i.
i remember going to home or something and lenny was there and we kept hiding from parents when we wanted to make out or do it or something. dad got mad cause i won't come home to live. we were gonna eat at a hot dog stand and i couldn't decide fast enough what i wanted to eat, so he started yelling at me. it was really kind of scary. and then i guess the hot dog stand was in a building so i went outside to find sherry and complain to her because she was there. i don't remember for certain. and then uhhh i don't remember but lenny went home and i couldn't find him and he had an away msg saying he got locked out and he was doing what he always does when he gets locked out: eat. which makes no sense because if he was locked out, he wouldn't have internet, but nonetheless... etc. woke up with some kind of hot fever.
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wednesday: 09 28 05
i'm at an arcade. trapped there or something. playing all sorts of games. it's like an arcade / mall or something? i think i then get a phone call and someone tells me to go to this place for jim's birthday. i go to someone's loft. tim [kha] and dan [cho] are there. a very strange combination of people, that's for sure. when i get there, jim (if it really is jim - it might be someone else - it's hazy) is hella drunk and puking a little. and they are still planning on going to eat dinner. it's about 10 o'clock almost and they still haven't gone anywhere, so i'm like, "umm, i gotta go home." so i went home but before i left dan was like, "give me a hug," and he totally grabbed me and he had a boner, and i was like, "ick." and he was lying on tim, so it was like three people lying on each other, so i gave tim a high-five / handshake and started making my way for the door. but then birthday drunkard man got up or something near the doorway and started puking, so i had to get something to catch it in. for some reason. i only had a half-ripped bag and someone else put his mouth over it but i ended up bringing it to throw away. except since it was half-ripped, it started leaking and leaked all over my leg, and as it did that, birthday boy started puking even more. and i went over to the sink and i started puking cause it was disgusting. good thing i didn't ACTUALLY puke, cause that would have really been disgusting.
something about swimming in water. and then talking to someone (it might've been andy [crossett]) about wanting these salmon that were jumping out of the water to freeze in the air. and it made no sense when i said it, but when it happened along the side of this dock, it made sense. they were frozen in mid-air and just hanging there, and slowly defroosted and fell on the dock. one shattered. some others survived and either helped push other salmon off the dock into the water or just jumped in themselves. i was in the water at some point and saw a salmon swimming towards me but it was the most horrific thing ever. it was like all the other salmon in size -- about three time the length and width of my arm -- but it had no eyes and it only had a huge mouth. it was seriously horrific. it started sucking onto my arm and i don't think i've felt so much fear in a dream since dying in one or something roofls. as i was leaving, there were all these people smoothing out the snow like it was a ski resort, and all these people coming with skiis. that was when i realized, holy shit, it's snowing! even though it had been for a long time. so i found a mound of snow and kind of skiied with my shoes over it and then i started talking to this one skiier chick. and i was like, "damn, i wish i had my skiis," and she said something or other. and then i went on my way. and that's all.
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saturday: 09 24 05
end of the world or something. some guy was putting nuts into a jukebox and somehow it worked like a quarter and played a song. we were int he middle of a field or something, and then from far away it was like "War of the worlds" and something was coming to us from far away and things were exploding and shooting up into the air and stuff. so everyone started running away and we were kinda on a hill - i was with my mom, and i don't know who else. then, during the mass exodus, i was like, "lenny's still sleeping at home!!!!" since for some reason i thought the dream was taking place during that same morning and i had just stepped outside shortly. and i surprised myself by calling for lenny, and i think in my dream i was thinking, maybe this means i'm in love with him.
i told lenny this because he asked what happened but he just fell asleep as i was telling him +__+
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saturday: 09 20 05
farm and arlen. chasing demons. i seperate from them and they ask me where i'm going. i walk down the street, pretending to read from a chinese book but glancing over periodically to look at the demons/satanic people. they notice me. i notice tahtt hey notice me and i walk calmly into a building. once i get in, i run and run to my apartment. i get into the elevator to my apartment and the demon appears out of nowhere. tries attacking me. i kill him with my MIND and psychic powers. well, i don't kill him, but i fight him. and by thinking of countering his moves, i do and he seems to move in slow-motion.
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monday: 09 05 05
cynthia and i were characters in a video game kind of like "god of war." hmmmm there was this entrance to a castle or something that was guarded by these skeleton-like creatures with HUGE teeth (they were kind of cute in a weird way) and a couple of them had these huge viking helmets on. anyway we went back to the castle at least a few times. every time i went alone no one really noticed. when cynthia went, they all wanted to kill her (she must have been the ultimate warrior). at one point i think i went by myself and i rolled through the entrance (with all the monsters) and rolled into this one door. took this little wooden cart up with a couple of enemies with me, because like i said, they didn't care about me. when we reached the top of this slope, however, i saw that there was a machete and a couple of other knives on the floor, so i grabbed em and killed 3 at the same time with a downwards slash through their heads. and then i grabbed the machete BLADE and bottom seperately which was retarded, because you had to assemble it yourself. i ran through this door off to the right and tried to lock it, but found that it could not lock. there was no lock. so i furiously tried putting together the machete handle (which was a thin piece of metal) and the blade. put it in the wrong way originally, since you had to insert the thin piece of metal into a small slit on the bottom of the blade. i had no idea how. so i turned it around again, and it worked this time. surprisingly, the big orc guy who was trying to get everyone to kill me had not burst into the room or even attempted to. i just heard him talking outside a little bit is all. anyway, saw this one door ahead of me that was wooden and had words pop up when i looked at it or something, asking me if i wanted to go through it. i decided to, and there was this like, animated door-opening sequence that happened using the handle of my sword or machete or something. weird.
i had woken up numerous times before having this dream (and i had other dreams which i don't remember), so i was thinking bout videogames before having this dream. wewt.
i have come to the conclusion that perhaps dreams come about often when you spend the previous day not using your mind much. this is just a theory. i've no idea if it is true or not.
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saturday: 09 03 05
i forgot. i told lenny, though. so hopefully he remembers...
a talking parrot in a bathroom or something? X:
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friday: 08 26 05
took a tram like bart from san francisco to new york or something. i don't know. remember going up a hill in it, though, like it was a rollercoaster or something (this was towards the end of the dream) and thinking it'd be scary and fall backwards, but it ended up just going over the hill okay. we did at some point go off and hang around the city of new york, but i don't rememer what happened...
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sunday: 08 07 05
in a huge communal bathroom like clubsport's old one, but more open, even though there were curtains separating each stall. couldn't find a clean stall for the life of me. saw leela, and some other high school people. leela was sitting in a stall. there were about five open, all of which had disgusting shit in it. one had like pasta sauce or something someone had puked up. another one had this giant white foamy crap with debris in it, and i tried to move it with a piece of paper, but it kept resurfacing. sick.
the world flooded. someone told us to go to a certain area. we had an SUV that floated, and we drove it around on top of the water. all cars floated, actually. because of the tires, i think. while driving around, we were speeding, and we almost got pulled over by pedestrian cops in an intersection. we ended up somewhere like chinatown, and i was with my family. we went to this old restaurant where poeple were dressed up in white shirts and black ties, and at first they didn't want to serve us, but then they decided that with the weather like it was, they might as well (i think we weren't POOR enough or RICH enough for them - i'm not sure which one it was). they gave us dim sum, and it was good, i guess.
chick made me these awesome clothes and gave me a haircut. she cut the sleeve of the shirt with scissors, and it was this black sleeve that was tapered on the end like my old maroon vampire shirt. anyway, she cut slits into it that pulled larger when they were worn, and it basically looked cool.
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tuesday: 08 02 05
i don't remember the exact anything, but i know i had a dream about a ghost.
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monday: 08 01 05
was in a car, sleeping. i assumed that instead of sleeping on my bed like i was, i was sleeping in this car, dreaming about lord knows what. somewhere through then i got really aware of the fact that it was a dream, and i was like, "hmm now is a good time to try the lucid dreaming thing," so i thought about flying, and felt myself getting really light, but asides from that i decided to try something else and then none of them worked.
bit chol's roommate david and his gf got mad.
were with a tour group made up of a bunch of church people or something, living in a hotel in the cascade mountains. remember that ron was there in the beginning. i don't remember who else... but ummm we went around the hotel up stairs and stuff, and it was like the most confusing hotel ever. you had to go down to reach the elevator to go up or something... or at least that's what i did. and the stairs down were so needlessly directed... excessive, if you will! anyway, i just remember ron being there because he lived on the first floor or something. another guy lived on my floor, but i didn't know him. me and random man took the elevator upstairs, and the elevator was weird, cause i guess a bunch of snow got into the shaft and was spilling into the elevator which i guess had no walls. anyway fast-forward, and i was sharing a room with josh [wu]. weird. he was talking about tiger ants, and how huge they were. i don't know if tiger ants even really exist. also, he was like, "you guys are so big now," and started poking my stomach. i guess how the scheduling went is we would wake up whenever we woke up, because as soon as we woke up, we got ready, went outside, and everyone else was ready. there was a helicopter waiting for all of us to take us into the city. it was snowing. we just really got close down to the street and flew to a restaurant or something. remember sherry and carolyn and little andy [chen] were there. it was country music night, but they played a 70s song, and i was like, "sherry, why aren't you into this song?" and i guess she didn't know it, and i just thought it was so weird that she didn't know the song because it was one that was so well-known.
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wednesday: 07 27 05
whoa... crazy ass dream. i've probably forgotten a lot of it, but i'll try to remember. it was basically like one catastrophe after another. i forgot the initial ones, but at some point me and some people went outside, and it started raining... it wasn't really heavy though. then it got huge, and thunder and sideways rain, and metal would bend and stuff, and it just felt like a whole giant hurricane or something was coming. then at some point i saw lenny go inside the building and i decided to go inside too because feelings outside were getting way too unpredictable. when we went inside, he disappeared. walked through this kitchen and a girl who was washing dishes next to her mom opened the side door of the place after looking through the peephole. i went upstairs. a bunch of people were sitting on a couch watching tv. a bunch of dudes. i said hi to them blahblah. then i went to the kitchen. there was a pot cooking on the stove or something. i think it was gumbo. it looked absolutely disgusting, though, and everyone kept commenting on how it was jambalaya and stuff, and essentially, on how it was disgusting. all of a sudden, the lobster in it starts coming to life, and it flies into the air and then starts running around the kitchen. it went beneath this kitchen countertop or something, and i guess there were all of these bugs and little scorpions or something underneath there, and it basically started pushing them all out. mass exodus of bugs and gross things. so i was like freaking out, wondering what i should do about them, but bugs gross the fuck out of me, so i didn't really want to touch them at all (little bugs are okay, but these were huge, and they had hard shells, and i don't think there was any large pieces of paper around, and i didn't have shoes on). so i started talking to the people on the couch, asking them what i should do. none of them were helpful at all. most of them ignored me. one guy had a bottle of pringles and he lifted them up and said, "you can put them in this pringle can," but didn't get up to give it to me or anything. finally, i think i ran away... or fast-forward, and either i was with my mom and i was a little kid, or i was watching a mom and a little kid from third-person perspective very closely. they were running through the house and all these kids had nail guns and shit, and were just killing people. at first the two were trying to dodge all of the kids, but when they saw someone getting shot, the mom decided to fight back... since they were all little kids, she just started taking the nail guns out of their hands and other stuff, and somehow the two made it out the side entrance without getting hurt at all. hmm... yeah i think i was the kid. but the mom was a mom that wasn't necessarily my mom. it wasn't until i got to the end that i saw that you have to be unpredictable in dealing with all of the little bitches to win. this dream took in within a 15 minute timespan, i think!
i had a dream about my parents coming to seattle, and they found a condom on the table. my mom asked me dad why he left it there, and he said he didn't leave it there. so they both looked to me, then came into my room and found lube and a cock ring. and then the dream ended!
don't remember much other than i think i walked through some spiderwebs or something.
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tuessday: 07 26 05
don't remember much, but i was following around this persian guy with this really hot rich wife.
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thursday: 07 21 05
what a fatty dream. hope i remember quite a bit. okay... starting off, i'm at some huge ass dining hall or restaurant or something. everyone decides to leave. tons of old school church people like josh, ellen, rex... don't remember who else. as i'm leaving, i see ellen and rex and say bye to them and rex says, "bye sherry," and me and josh were just like, "dude, it's vivian." and then we leave. and we're bumming outside for a while... i think it's me, josh, and nancy [yu], although i can't be sure. i think i left my wallet in the building so i go back in to grab it, and i see one sitting on the table, so i pick it up and find out it's not mine, and i put it back down. some dude comes running over and is like, "that's mine! don't touch it!" and i was like, "i'm putting it down," and i walk away to find my stuff... and then i see my dickies bag and walk over to grab it, and right when i'm about to get it, i discover i'm wearing it on my shoulder. wtf? then we leave... me, josh, and i think nancy, and we drive to some weird mountain or something. not sure. don't know. we hang around for a while and then i'm going to go home, so i start driving, but since i'm in the middle of nowhere, i don't really know how to get to i-5. so i follow these signs that go through a part of the city that doesn't really exist. i'm driving on this bridge that is up and down like a rollercoaster. i didn't even have to accelerate when going up the hill because it built so much momentum when it went down. after a while i floated out of my car and was following along on the ride with a string connected to my car (i don't know, it was weird). all of a sudden, though, people started floating into water and shit, at the bottom of one of the curves. i didn't know what was going on, but there was a bunch of people with a net connected to a helicopter, and a guy with an "anti-piracy" fbi jacket. so i just grabbed onto the net. there were only i think four people on it... including fbi man, and the other three people were naked. so they start going to the area where the bridge is not, and i check my pockets for what i stil have, and i have my bag and my phone. i freak out because i don't have my laptop and everything is gone, but what can you do!!! so i pull out my phone, and fbi man tells me to call someone or something, and as i'm dialing, i drop the phone into the grass. so i hit him (although i'm joking). and he tells the plane or helicopter or whatever to lower a bit and we yell at some random dudes and they throw me my phone. and then off we go. we get to some place and this is when it's really weird. we go to this glass store, and we all have like pieces of metal or something shaped in weird shapes. it's like a game. you use the metal to deflect the glass creations instead of using your hand. it really made no sense, but it's like if you used metal it'd bounce back right away, and if you used your hand, it'd just break it and knock it off its pedestal. yeah. and this whole time you're connected to a giant balloon or something, and you can't move without floating. so i was playing this game while floating towards the ceiling where there were glass melded into the walls and stuff, and yeah. now everyone in the group is dressed, and after we cross this threshold, the balloons are gone and everyone is walking out. there is less glass here, and more open space. all of a sudden, we see a woman, and we're trying to stealthily walk out without her seeing us, but there's this hole in the wall between where we've walked to and where she is, and so she sees us. our leader is this lady with pearls and looks really rich, and they started talking, and glass shop lady is like, "what're you doing here?" and the rich lady has nothing much to say and asks glass shop lady why she is there, and she's there early to promote something i guess. we just thought we had taken so long to play the game and get through the room that it was daylight already, but i guess not. confr00ze. what a weird dream.
my second dream had to do with the first. basically, i wanted to sleep more but kept telling myself not to forget the dream. so i kept telling myself that, and it was like real life (although not much sense-making), but with the idea of telling people my dreams. it's happened before, but yeah. and i guess in this dream farm asked me if i was going to go to both days of warped tour, and i said i was definitely going on monday, but probably both, but that's just weird, cause warped tour is never on sunday and monday. but whatever.
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wednesday: 07 20 05
teeth falling out. one was chipped, and the others kept wiggling out. remember staring at myself in the mirror while this was happening.
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saturday: 07 16 05
really long dream, but i remember very little from it. was hanging out with a buttload of people on a vacation or something... i only remember for sure sherry and bryce from the rocket summer being there though. but uhh... yeah. i guess on the way back to the states or whatever, i got seperated from the rest of the people by going on a different plane or something. so i guess right after we touched down we were supposed to go to see bryce play the rocket summer's show with hellogoodbye and jamisonparker (which is a show that is happening on tuesday). but apparently i got to the airport and was running around looking for everyone. i had all of this stuff that made it hard to move quickly - for some reason i had a bag and i think i had stuffed animals. i asked some person at a counter where flight #### was and he pointed me to gate A4 and drew a diagram for me, and gate A4 was all the way across the airport from where i was at the time. so that kind of um sucked. by the time i got to A4 i assume no one was there (although i don't remember actually going there - i only remember starting to walk there). slice forward and i'm on my way to the venue, driving... and it's like 10 pm, and i'm counting down and concluding that, shit, i already missed bryce's set, which sucks... and i'm only going to see hellogoodbye. and i guess the venue that i was going to (which is supposed to be el corazon) actually looked like tcbc church's youth room. weird.
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thursday: 07 14 05
don't remember the beginning. something about... someone. a guy. then i follow lenny to the back of the bus we were on, and i feel like puking, so i wake myself up.
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saturday: 07 16 05
really long dream, but i remember very little from it. was hanging out with a buttload of people on a vacation or something... i only remember for sure sherry and bryce from the rocket summer being there though. but uhh... yeah. i guess on the way back to the states or whatever, i got seperated from the rest of the people by going on a different plane or something. so i guess right after we touched down we were supposed to go to see bryce play the rocket summer's show with hellogoodbye and jamisonparker (which is a show that is happening on tuesday). but apparently i got to the airport and was running around looking for everyone. i had all of this stuff that made it hard to move quickly - for some reason i had a bag and i think i had stuffed animals. i asked some person at a counter where flight #### was and he pointed me to gate A4 and drew a diagram for me, and gate A4 was all the way across the airport from where i was at the time. so that kind of um sucked. by the time i got to A4 i assume no one was there (although i don't remember actually going there - i only remember starting to walk there). slice forward and i'm on my way to the venue, driving... and it's like 10 pm, and i'm counting down and concluding that, shit, i already missed bryce's set, which sucks... and i'm only going to see hellogoodbye. and i guess the venue that i was going to (which is supposed to be el corazon) actually looked like tcbc church's youth room. weird.
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thursday: 07 14 05
don't remember the beginning. something about... someone. a guy. then i follow lenny to the back of the bus we were on, and i feel like puking, so i wake myself up.
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friday: 07 01 05
weird. a dream i had on the plane. i went to this place in seattle... it was this big grey concrete ish building in the middle of downtown or something, on a road that was running in this direction: / next to it. it was like on its own little island. i got there with intentions of hanging out with josh [hwang] or something, but actually, i don't know where that idea came from, because that wasn't his house or anything. so i called him, and asked him what he was up to. i don't remember the answer. and then i was calling more poeple to see what they were doing... and i called jake [reeves] but i don't exactly know what he was doing either. but later, he showed up. and i think arlen and farm were there, but i don't really remember. and then all i remember is going inside to this room where there were the same poopy grey walls, and there was some little banister thing... like... a raised ledge with a mini aluminum handlebar fence, like one of those when you're in an amusement park or something. except it didn't really lead to anywhere i don't think... it was just this ramp that went up and kind of ended wherever. anyway. there was this giant pirate carpet hanging on the wall. i guess i had been there bfore, and so had jake, and we looked at the hanging and saw that there was another one in front of it (one that was not the "typical" image), so we were like, "it changed." wtf? i don't know what the "original" one hanging in the back had an image of, but the front one had an image of pirates fighting each other or something to do with killing... i don't quite remember. and at some point, we all decided to leave and i spilled something on jake or something like that, so i was wiping it on him. and then lenny walked through the front door out of nowhere. and then i think we all went outside, and i called josh again to see what he was doing or something. once again, don't think i got anywhere. i don't remember though - it is all pretty fuzzy, so some details are probably entirely wrong.
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wednesday: 06 29 05
dream about this guy who i recognized as ron, but he looked different and his name was something like colin... yet for some reason i assumed that they were one and the same. lord knows why. they (i don't know who they were) were like flooding a sidewalk with a hose. he was sitting behind me and kept putting his hands on my back, but i didn't care. then he wanted to go to mcdonald's (?!) to make out, but i said, "sorry, i can't." and the whole time, i was thinking about the deal i had with lenny about getting to know people, but no touchy touchy.
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friday: 06 21 05
was at a party with a ton of people. drunk. some random people that i don't really hang out with ever. hell, some people i don't even recognize. looked over at this table as i was falling off this bed or something, looking for my phone, and lenny was kissing this girl, and i said, "oh nice, while she's wearing my bag," cause she had my bag on her back.
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friday: 06 17 05
interesting dream... i was at this apartment going to the bathroom in a basement and my dad started freaking out saying that i shouldn't be downstairs in this basement blahblahblah. later i went home... shit i don't remember details now, but i kept seeing dead people and ghosts and stuff. it was creepy. :[
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friday: 05 27 05
i was in the trunk of a van staring out the back window... it was driving on the four or five-laned freeway. cars all around. we were in the second lane from the left partition. a car was driving next to the partition and started fishtailing, and then we were like, "oh shit," and then it crashed into our car, then our car crashed into another car... it hurt my hip, but given that we were on a "freeway," it was not at all catastrophic. a lot of other cars stopped (luckily, the cars in the back missed us), and we started driving off away from the crashes, which i thought was weird. but all of a sudden people started coming out of their cars and beating each other (like a giant riot on the freeway), and at that point, i was glad the driver decided to drive off.
inspiration: the beginning of the end of a beautiful relationship.
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monday: 05 23 05
alex and i go around eating three different kinds of foods.
inspiration: probably eating a lot of food today together (three different food "venues" - trader joe's, qfc, and i guess our place to make quiches).
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monday: 05 16 05
was driving a car with mom and dad in the backseat. don't think anyone was in the passenger seat. lots of cars weaving around all over the place. finally there was this truck in front of us, and i thought he was moving... but he was parked. it had a giant construct thing (like a giant wire box) attached to the back of the truck... and i started braking because i almost ran into him since i thought he was moving... and then we veered to the left to avoid hitting him, and at that point, the truck fell over sideways... should have fallen on top of us but somehow i managed to stop the car so that when the truck fell, our car was right smack dab between the wire frame (probably made of heavy-duty metal).
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friday: 05 13 05
some lady was in this janky ass hospital which was dirty as fuck, and dingy, and i swear it was in a basement. her husband was in that hospital. he was hooked up to all these wires and shit, and the IV thing was actually a plug that went into an electrical outlet. as he died, he said something to his wife, and the plug came out of the wall at the same time. she was unfazed. she was more curious as to why he died in the first place... didn't care so much about his actual death. so she went around the room, pulling at different electricity wires and shit, seeing what was hooked up to what, etc. turns out a lot of the switches in the room didn't work and led to nowhere. then all of a sudden this tall lady ghost dressed in white showed up and started chasing her around the room. at this point, it seemed like i wasn't really in the room, but was only watching. eventually, i was in the room, and the ghost returned - only this time i could see her face - and started chasing me and someone else around, and i was tempted to throw a juice box at her. for some reason i found that funny. i don't know why really. something about how her chasing us around seemed juvenile, and like a bully from elementary school, and hence... juice box. makes little sense.
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thursday: 05 12 05
there was this dog with rabies chasing me. it was scary. alex was there. he picked me up to save me from the dog (like elise's husband picked me up to get me away from otto), but it bit me anyway.
(alex's dream): "i had a dream that you werent vegetarian anymore. in fact, you were a cannibal, and then we found joan d'arcs corpse strung up in some trees. there was a dog in my dream chasing someone. i don't know about the rabies though. i .. owned the dog in my dream. i stopped it. and then i sorta tamed it, and it watched us eat the corpse cause it wanted some. i think it bit joan d'arc in the foot but she was dead already. someone thought we should eat her, but then i was like, "nah, that's joan d'arc." and the corpse we ate was missing alot cause ants and shit had eaten at it so we did some thing with this grill like thing... and honey to draw lots of the insects out. and they stuck to this piece of metal - grubs and ants! indirectly gaining more from the body they had fed off and i think we killed whoever it was too... it was in the backyard of a house i used to live in."
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monday: 05 09 05
uhhh weird dream. me, claire, and fontaine were spies... somehow i got a hold of a key card to get into this building. it was mark [go]'s locker area... the security guard scanned the card but didn't look at the picture on it, so we got in. it was like this little house with all these seperate rooms. the first room there were a bunch of scrappy parts and one of those wood cutters. there were random asian and black people around just doing lord knows what, but there was the thought that it was all illegal. mark's room was the far room and there were things like comic books, but i don't remember what else, but once again, there was the thought that everything was illegal. and claire went to his computer and was playing music hella loud, and i was just like, "WTF ARE YOU DOING?!" and made her turn it down... then i freaked out and said we should leave immediately. so i went out first, and i think the bouncer noticed the pic was incorrect on the way out... and claire and fontaine didn't follow for some reason. then as i was walking away to the next block, the guard came out and was pacing around, and i heard him talking to someone on his walkie talkie saying that we didn't belong there. so i rounded the corner and called fontaine and told her that the guard was suspicious and to go out of the window, and i gues they already did do that. end.
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tuesday: 05 03 05
(lenny's dream): "i had the weirdest dream. it seemed like me, mike, vee and cynthia were at the redlight on broadway but it went back so far and seemed like it almost had a club/rave going on in the back. in the dream vee gave me this hand held thing where i would hold it and it would tell me how high i was. i'm not really sure what drug i was on in the dream though but the high felt so real. mike and cynthia kept disappearing in the dream and vee and i kept looking for them. when we would find them mike would be in one part of the store and cynthia would be somewhere else like sitting on this cool seat. in the dream i kept experimenting with the little drug device that vee gave me, exposing it to different drugs to see how it would react. it had like a bar graph on the digital display and would freak out when drugs would get near. in one part of the dream cynthia and i were sitting down near the front of the store in these two chairs separated by a coffee table. i forget what she was doing but i kept trying to write poetry but kept getting interrupted by random people."
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sunday: 04 17 05
something about being in pakistan. tunnels. lenny. digging. threat of bombs. what?
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friday : 04 08 05
dreamed that i was on a trip with the parentals and brother and puo puo. don't remember... originally we were standing in the street and going to different shops. and then we had this BUS. puo puo was driving it... on the highway, she was like, "i just hit that white car," and it was like omfg scary, although it didn't LOOK like any cars had gotten hit... and then we were talking about something, maybe even arguing, and we got to this windy turn and puo puo didn't slow down, and there was this fence lining the side, and then next to it there was this giant cliff... it was like: mountain wall | road | fence | cliff. and yeah. fell off the cliff. my first falling dream... ever.
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tuesday : 04 05 05
woke up in a cold sweat. and then another uncomfortable dream, but i'm not sure what happened.
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monday : 04 04 05
dreamed that i was with debbie [kim] in a parking lot, and that she was friends with my oobar crush, matt. and that she was talking about hanging out with him, and invited me, and i just could not wait to see him. and then i woke up.
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saturday : 04 02 05
don't know who i was with, but we were walking, and we were going to get bubble tea or something. i remember jeremy was there, and we were all wondering why people didn't go to the closer boba place and instead went to the further one. and then we all concluded it was all because the further one was "cooler." anyway, we were walking there and we were heading towards this alleyway but it was blocked off, with caution signs and stuff, and some asian guy ran out of there grinning. and then we were like, wtf, but for some reason we didn't bother to see what was going on; we just headed back. and then i guess tony [cordova] was there, and there was this dirt and grass hill sort of, that you had to climb up to get back to where we were. and i was watching these people climb up, but i couldn't get up, so tony climbed up and then helped me up. and then we went to the arcade. and tony saw some people he knew, and he wanted to play some predator shooting game or something. it was like a multi-linked, four-player, predator shooting game. so i was going to play too, but then i got sidetracked. and now that i think about it, out of the four machines, there was only one open one. we both went to the change place, and tony got his change, and i was searching through my pocket for change, and pulled out three quarters and this half dollar that was double in size but missing half of it... it was like someone took a bite out of it. and i was like, "wtf! look @ this!" and i threw it on the change machine, but no one much noticed. and then all of a sudden kyle [tekulve] popped out of nowhere, and he looked exactly the same, although for some reason i was taller than him. and i was like, "wtf are you doing here!" and he was like, "i read your journal," and i was like, "how did you find my journal?" and he pointed around and was like, "one of the guys here thinks you're cute," and i was like, "who!" cause i remember when i was walking by there was this cute dude. so kyle called out something like, "who thinks she's cute!" and this guy tried hiding, but it turns out it was some asian kid named david sun, although i have no idea who he is and have never seen him before.
i don't know where we were, but we were heading back towards dorms. i was with a bunch of random girls i have never seen before. soo some girls went to sleep hella early, and another girl was commenting on how "goody goody" they were for sleeping so early. and then me and i think eva was there... were freaking this girl out because we kept making it ambiguous about whether or not we were lesbians (not with each other, but just in general). and she's like, "no wayyy," and stuff, and got all silent. and then i guess we were on a high-rise dorm or something, and you could see the city out beyond all of the windows. we were sitting on a ledge right in front of the windows in this little hallway thing, and there were these posters on the windows, and we were commenting about how they were facing inwards... they're so useless because only a handful of people see them. and then we thought about it, and concluded they were useless facing outwards too - as some of them were - because we were on a high-rise, and who the hell was going to see it anyway? anyway, and then these crazy kids ran by, these goth and punk kids merged together. i was thinking maybe they were hot, but not really. anyway, so we turned out to be all of a sudden sitting on a bunch of couches, although we were sitting on a ledge before. and this kid sat down next to me, a roundish guy with crazy spiky hair. and then all these other kids ran by - seriously the half of them looked like they had splattered a mess of unmatching paint colors all over their face and clothes. and then this girl did like a backflip onto the couch next to me. she had like pigtails and knee-high black and white striped socks. and then she did a backflip off of it. and then THIS IS WEIRD heather [wendt] or kallie [lamerts] (i'm not exactly sure who, but wow, i haven't written that name in so long, it feels like i'm making it up) and ashley [story] were in like costume. and kallie or heather was the ventriloquest, and ashley was a ventriloquest's doll. they had this costume with a huge apron, kind of like a giant baby with a ventriloquest doll - it was really actually pretty fucked up. and then i woke up i think.
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sunday : 03 27 05
not a dream, just a vision. glass shards raining down from the sky, with a girl with brown, curly hair and earth tone vintage clothing in a junkyard type... from different camera angles, above the glass, side view, looking upwards.
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wednesday : 03 23 05
some kind of nightmare about getting surgery. i don't remember.
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monday : 03 14 05
i don't remember much, except that there was a waterfall, and sherry was there, and there was the most putrid smell coming from the waterfall... ohh and like... there was this river, which just looked like it was wild, and we were commenting on how it was the most well-breathed river in the country, because it got so much circulation and so much new oxygen (because it was so wild-flowing). and uhh then i dunno it turned into pee or something. and then me and sherry were supposed to make a speech @ church, but i don't exactly know what happened with that.
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saturday : 02 26 05
ad a dream i still had feelings for
an old ummm person. and my dad had tattoos on his back and leg and
front. and sherry's dad had a shitload of tattoos spanning across his
whole back, one of which was this really cool skull with an army
helmet. actually all of the tattoos were army-related. i didn't know
about them at all, so i asked sherry about them, and she knew all along.