spoiled?
* songs of the moment * — “burning” bai darude [trance], “feel the beat” bai darude [trance], “sandstorm” bai darude [trance]
* mood * — i’m fine.
LINGO, SINGING LYRICS TO HIS SPUR-OF-THE-MOMENT SONG:
“walking along the beach, i like your skirt, i also like your glasses, you guys are so cute, can’t you at least say thank you?”
8:28 pm — so today… well, as far as my classes went… i don’t want to talk about it. at around 2:30 we met up at odegaard and me, amy, ahram, esther, minsoo, lingo, joe, paul, hana, and this other guy who i forgot the name of went to alki beach and just chilled and had like a picnic and stuff for amy’s birthday… blah but then amy got upset and left early… so it ended in a kind of blah note. man, lingo is super funny yo. he was playing guitar and singing the whole time. pretty good singer =) whee. hehe it was so funny because this couple walked by and he made up a song about them… like “walking along the beach, i like your skirt, i also like your glasses, you guys are so cute, can’t you at least say thank you?” hehheh. funny ass. we were cracking up so bad. =) it was so pretty man. relaxing toooooo. =) i love watching the waves actually. pretty therapeutic. heh. never thought of such a thing before! yuk… the water is so dirty though. yukkie yuk yuk. blah.
so i’m thinking again. ohmigod. thinking. wow. =P it’s weird. before when i was in cali (around where we live), i’m not considered rich by any means. i’m not POOR, that’s for sure… but we’re not like just overflowing with money. actually it seems like we don’t have that much money but things always work out. but i guess with my money spending habits and everything, when i come here everyone sees me as someone who gets whatever i want, i guess. -__-; and i don’t mean to make people feel bad when i say, “what? you don’t have like five bucks for this-or-that?” and stuff… but i think i do make some people feel bad even though i don’t mean to ugh. i feel so spoiled! >__< but then i also think, well, the reason i have money to spend is because i’m working… but i don’t know? for some reason it feels like it’s because my parents are giving me everything. yeah… they’re paying for my tuition, but isn’t everyone’s parents paying for their tuition? when i go raving and shit… i pay for that myself, mostly… so… i don’t know. all i know is i’ve gotten a couple of comments from this… blah. like… one was “well… the reason i don’t have that much money to spend is because my parents don’t pay for everything like yours do.” or… “i wish i had that kind of money to spend on all of the things you do.” blah… -__-; makes me wonder. blah. confusing. i mean i never considered myself spoiled but i guess i am? i guess that’s how other people see me? i don’t know? blah? plus… if i’m spoiled, then some of my friends back home must be kings and queens or something O.o; but i don’t know. i probably am. *sigh. -__-;
11:34 pm — dude, i feel kind of cocky saying this, but i’ll say it anyways. don’t think of me as cocky. -__-; blah. i’m like afraid to get to know new guys i meet better because i always have this feeling that they’re going to jock on me now! blah. before i would have thought nothing about it but after so many people telling me how cute they thought i was when they first met me, and how they were interested in me or what not… i can’t help but think there’s more people like that… which is blah. i don’t like having people i’m not interested in interested in me. it’s not good. -__- attention? blah, fuck that kind of attention… it’s trouble. -__-; blahhhh.
sometimes the sun goes round the moon
i see the passion in your eyes
sometimes it’s all a big surprise
cause there was a time when all i did was wish
you’d tell me this was love
it’s not the way i hoped or how i planned
but somehow it’s enough
and now we’re standing face to face
isn’t this world a crazy place?
just when i thought our chance had passed
you go and save the best for last
all of the nights you came to me
when some silly girl had set you free
you wondered how you’d make it through
i wondered what was wrong with you
cause how could you give your love to someone else
and share your dreams with me
sometimes the very thing you’re looking for
is the one thing you can’t see
* VANESSA WILLIAMS - SAVE THE BEST FOR LAST *