some third party words.
i’m listening to… prince.
i’m feeling… UGHHH.
2:50 am — i am so annoyed by my friend. i just found out some stuff about him that reallllllllllllly fucking burns me up. i remember he used to always talk about how he wanted to break up with his gf because she wasn’t good enough for him, even though she is a fucking AWESOME person and he doesn’t deserve HER… but he is really terrible to her… unimagineably terrible. it’s like a fucking abusive husband abusing his wife… only verbally… but still. FUCK. he’s like ruining her life and has killed all of her self-esteem so that she thinks she can do no better. she can do SO much better. she’s creative and talented… i’m not so sure what he has to offer her that she sees as useful. wtf. i am really really pissed… i am not as close to him as i used to be, though, so i don’t know if my opinion can exercise a decent amount of power anymore… but i really hope she leaves him. i don’t know what kind of convincing will need to come into play or what will have to happen for THAT to happen, but i really, really, really hope so. it sucks, because with things like this, it is the abused person who has to find the strength to leave, and that can be a tough decision sometimes… especially after you’ve been with a person for years… not only that, but he like touches other girls and stuff when she’s not around… not sex or anything, but what the fuck, man. that and he is a even BIGGER fucking druggie now. i am so going to kick his ass when i talk to him next. seriously. i am so disappointed and i feel really bad for her that she would hole herself into that. i kind of wish i would have had influence over her back when he said stuff about her not being good enough… and it’s sad cause when she hears about bad things he has done, she gets mad and sad at herself and at other people, but not at him. so… abused. it’s so… wrong. i hope more people continue telling her that she’s worth so much more and that she actually believes them. i know a couple people are, but she doesn’t really believe in it or something. terrible…