o mai.
* songs of the moment * — “moving on” bai toya [r&b], “miss you” bai westlife [pop], “get away” bai avant [r&b], “too gone, too long” bai en vogue [r&b], “catch-ball” bai hirai ken [japanese]
* mood * — alright i guess.1:24 am — so i’m back in the land of cali… man, forreal, how great it feels to be back. i miss everyone… it’s different tho… people here aren’t as huggy huggy as people in washington. not at all. damn, life is weird. i bet everyone went to college and made a whole plethora (<~ sat word) of new friends who are totally different from their old friends. at least, that seems to apply to most people! it’s a cool thing. college is good for broadening your horizons… and all that good shit. blah. man, okay so this morning was fucking hectic. at first [kimchi-]john was supposed to take mee to the airport this morning, cept i thot mie flight was @ 3:30 pm when it was actually @ 1:20 pm -__-; so… cause he had to come up from tacoma and he couldn’t take mee right away, i had to ask all sorts o lovely people for a ride. blah. finally got a ride from jerry. oh yes yes i owe him major. i was so tired and out of it this morning too… i dun think that i did a good job o thankin him. oh well… -__-;
anyways, i came back from a retarded tym on the plane (with all this additional waiting-in-line-like-a-crajee-fuck-ness). i no longer like plane trips because of that. the trip to the airport is just… dreadful. fuk. i wonder how international trips are like?! i wanna go to korea in the summer. i wonder if mie parents will let mee… likely? probably not. ideally? man, that’d be bomb. sigh. meet some korean kasoos… and how strange that that’s actually attainable for once! AAAH… grrr… aaah! >.<;
i was jes chillin drivin in the car tonite blastin mie hOobastank cd… and fuk… i’m sOoOoOo stoked for the incubus and hOobastank concert. man, mie two FAVORITE rock groups together… i frickin cannot wait. i have waited all year to see incubus and i finally get to… yoo can not imajin mie euphoria >.< (ever since i met tony i actually added the word “euphoric” to mie mental dictionary). sigh. it’s all rainy and stuff in cali. not much better than washington, fosheezies. -__-;
yea well we rented “O” (the remake of “othello”) tonight… and sherry and jeanette came over to watch it. man, i fucking love that movie. it’s good, even tho it pisses yoo off and frustrates yoo lyke no other… because everything is so devastating. -__-; one of the few movies that can make mee cry T.T; blah another movie that frustrated mee immensely was “blackhawk down”… must be josh hartnett! he must be the one frustrating mee! okie, perhaps not, but yea. didja guys knoe the guy who fell off the helicopter in “blackhawk down” was legolas in “lord of the rings”???? mang, too bad he’s not how in “blackhawk down” -__-; but mekhi phifer… man, dat nigga is BEAUTIFUL. BEAUTIFUL. *drOol. i remember back in the day i wrote into teen magazine askin them to do an article on him and they DID… and they wrote that i wrote in on the bottom… vivian from pleasanton, california. tightness. i meant to save that forever, but… yea, i didn’t -__-; lyke it’s a big deal anyways.
sigh. i want a boifrend. i hate hate hate how i always tend to like guys that… i don’t knoe… don’t like mee?? baaaaaah sucks. oh well. i guess that’s life. everyone has to face that kinda shiettttt. well not everyone i guess. there are a few select luckie ppo who actually can get wat they want and be satisfied with it forever. *sigh. oh well. i’m going to go play word racer altho i’m tired and i’ll probably be sleepin thru church tomorrow. man, goin to church tomorrow will be mie first tym since like three weeks into the skool year. i really don’t like going to church anymore. i don’t feel the need. i don’t feel the urgency. and i don’t feel the need to worship a god i don’t really believe in… and now that i’m sure of that, there’s no point in being fake about it. -__-
have yoo ever gotten in one of those moods where yoo jes wanna write and write and talk about everything in the world? that’s wat i’m feeling right now, hence why i’m writing in here lyke a crajee woman. i dunno. blah. i wish i could get a job writing lyriks for songs or something… then i’d be set. have a lyrikal outlet for everything on mie mind. that would be wonderful. anyone can hook mee up with that? -__- oh well… peace outside.