november 2003
november 29th, 2003 (drive in’s > you)
i’m listening to… “breathing” by yellowcard [pop-punk], “a bigger mood” by american hi-fi [pop-punk], “white flag” by dido [trip-hop, or something], “get along” by morcheeba [trip-hop], “i want to hear you sad” by the early november [emo], “safe and sound” by sheryl crow [alternative].
i’m feeling… alright.
2:30 am — hehe, so full… just came back and ate salad, clam chowder, milk duds, and crackers. YAY… home = uberfatness… but who gives a rat’s ass yay!
quite the interesting day today… INTERESTING INDEEED. oh fuck, now that i think about it, i left crap in the car. must go get later. no sleep for me tonight anyways, since i’m still awake and i haven’t packed yet and i have to leave for me aeroplano @ 5:30 am T__T”
rawr. contacts paining eyeballs. anyways, during the day i went with jennie and my brother to hayward and we were gonna go eat sushi but all the sushi places were closed (cause it was like 3 pm and they didn’t open til 5)… so we just stopped by togo’s and ate sandwiches there but they were all NASTY AS FUCK… and we went to the dollar store and the nearby fabric store for like couple hours almost haha… it was great fun!! got cool stuff from the dollar store… I LOVE THE DOLLAR STORE!! =) i need to get paid omg… broke as a joke w0rd!
anyways. @ night me and sherry went on a date to the drive-in movie theatre… rawr! i think it was all couples there but us… -__-” such a weird place for two girls to be, but it was SO EXCITING… freaking… okay, we met up @ wal-mart @ 9:00 and bought some shit… then drove down there, only the motherfucking directions on yahoomaps told us to make a left when we came off the highway when we really had to make a right… so we missed the beginning of “school of rock” and decided to watch “radio” since it just started… and now i’m wondering, ‘WHY THE FUCK DID I EVER WANT TO SEE THAT MOVIE?!’ it was horrendous. i knew it was going to be a feel-good-type movie because that’s how the previews were and that’s how the reviews were, but omfg, so cheezy as hell! and it’s based off a true story which makes me wonder how cheezy it was in real life! it was seriously painful to sit through, and for some reason all the screens were hella bright except for that screen (there were six screens), so like… cuba gooding jr. blended into the black sky and shit… and we couldn’t make out any features on anyone… there was one football player in the movie that me and sherry decided arbitrarily was cute but we could not even be sure because it was so blurry and dark. -__-” anyway, after our movie ended the other screens started showing movies, so me and sherry could barely decide what movie to watch… there was “cat in the hat”, “the haunted mansion”, “timeline”, and “bad santa”… so we ended up watching “the haunted mansion” because it was right next to us… it was alright… better than “radio”, but any number of those movies would have been better. -__-” i was hoping they’d show something better, but nOo… it was cool though because it only cost $6.25 per person and you could technically just stay there as long as you wanted and watch all of those movies. the sound came from FM radio stations… they tell you the station when you first enter but if you really wanted to you could search around and get all the other stations for the other movies too. EXCITING I TELL YOU! EXCITING!! EXCITING!! i’m going to make everyone go next time, and we’re just going to SIT THERE… ALL DAY… WATCHING MOVIES! it’ll be fucking great. ^__^ X__x see, it doesn’t even matter that all the movies we watched sucked ass… TWAS STILL EXCITING X__x
i’m never going to shutup because i keep thinking of things to write.
chinese families really do show their love through FOOD man… lol… caucasian families are all like touchy lovey-dovey and stuff, but no, my parents just keep feeding me. heh. and then make fun of me when i’m fat. XP go figure.
and also… I FEAR 2004 ELECTIONS! kind of early, but i really do think there is a good chance of bush being re-elected because people are just THAT stupid. i mean, just when you think people can’t get any dumber, they do (also, like in the movie “radio”… just when you think it can’t get any cheezier, it DOES). there is quite a chance! quite a chance indeeeeeeeeed. X__x” >( >( stupid states that need to be annexed. XP the people who are more accepting of bush are generally less educated and more religious… BoOo… i want to move to europe. seriously. i would love to live in england… i’m not entirely sure about every other place because i haven’t been anywhere else in europe in a while, but i’m sure it’s all better than the u.s., shiznack! WHO’S WITH ME!? X__x
ah but yes, thinking of politics just reminds me how LUCKY i am to have my job. SERIOUSLY. i work with like… a couple of 50+ year olds, and some late 20’s / early 30’s people… and they’re all sOoOo awesome… they’re all like UBER liberal and stuff, even though they don’t really look like it at all… it’s so cool… that’s probably WHY i can get away with getting $10 an hour for chatting on AIM with pink hair and eyebrow piercings and black nails… and deciding when i want to go home and when i want to come in without them hassling me… seriously, it’s the most awesome job i could ask for… =P and i must say that walking 2 mi everyday - although it sucks - isn’t so bad nowadays. dude, when a 50+ year old lady is telling me how she likes my pink hair and other older folk are telling me i should dye it purple… that’s MONEY. i should be more content than i am. ^^ in general. TWORK IT OUT. i want to listen to some usher. -__-’ too bad it is nowhere to be found.
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november 28th, 2003 (broke as a joke)
i’m listening to… “bigger than my body” by john mayer [rock].
i’m feeling… -___-”
1:18 am — boring… a bunch of people came over and we just played texas hold-em since like… 9 pm… bleh… too much… X__x” buy-in was $20 but i only put in $10 and i was up $13 for a while but eh just ended up getting back to even… which is good enough for me. they’re still gambling it out but i’m too bored to continue. -__-” my dad lost like sixty bucks… mostly to my brother, who’s up ninety… wtf. -__-” i wish i had that monies. i’m broke as a joke.
speaking of broke as a joke, went shopping with xinlei and sherry this morning and met up with jeanette and tin-win part the time… got new earrings from the icing and a t-shirt from nordstrom’s… free! i like free. ^__^ X__x life sux0r buttz0r. been eating so much food at home, bah, soon it will be time to return to half-vegetarianism back @ skoolio. >__< sigh. kill me now.
but they never seem to close.
and even though you’re next to me,
i still feel so alone.
i just can’t give you anything
for you to call your own.
and i can hear you breathing;
it’s keeping me awake.
could you stop my heart?
it’s always beating…
sinking like a wave.
YELLOWCARD - BREATHING.
noevmber 26th, 2003 (happy holiday unworthy of celebration)
i’m listening to… “tiny vessels” by death cab for cutie [emo], “the new year” by death cab for cutie [emo], “okay” by swirl 360 [alternative], “i miss you” by blink 182 [pop-punk]… give me a break, i only loaded a handful of mp3’s onto this computer and i’m already sick of them all X__x’ and my parents won’t let us use kazaa because they’re skerd.
i’m feeling… okay.
12:46 am — just watched “elf”… the new will ferrell movie O__x he is good as a big kid. it was funny… a lot funnier than i thought it would be, but not as funny as other people said it was. 
kind of a bit too early for christmas, though, but in a ways i suppose it’s not that far off X__x”
thanksgiving, aka turkey death day and holiday that should not even be celebrated, today! yey! we love the killin of some injuns. -__-” -__-” we had the oddest thanksgiving… jini, andy, and maryanne came over, and our parents ordered some turkey and fried rice (which was really freaking gross)… from a chinese restaurant… and some yams, and stuffing, and crap. like that. w0rd. we don’t normally eat turkey… we normally eat ham, but it was good D: and then we played some texas hold-em, and top two losers (in this case, jini and andy), were supposed to go meet allen @ 2:30 because he is going to sleep out in front of best buy for sales tomorrow… WHY?! no one really knows… i mean, sales, good, yay, but that’s a little too hardcore. might as well dress up as chewbacca, shiet… it’s cold as fauk too! X__x anyway, losers were supposed to “bump into him” @ best buy @ 2:30 and bring him coffee and crap… HEH… HAH! -__- well whatever… shopping tomorrow with some homegirls and my MOM… which means, hopefully she can buy me stuff, because i’m BROKE AS A JOKE, homie g.
eww sluts are gross T__T :/ i know there is a societal double-standard for the whole sex thing (and that’s bad)… how guys are allowed to have a lot of sex with different people and it’s somewhat okay but when girls have a lot of sex with different people it’s automatically that she is a huge slutball… but i can’t help it; it really does bother me a lot more when girls have a lot more sex… perhaps because guys are generally hornier and talk about sex a lot more than girls so i think it’s more uh! normal. or something. i know that’s not a morally-sound judgment to make, but i can’t help it!! who knows. it’s a mystery. i wish i brought home my guitar… i have so much time on my hands during the day @ home… and i bet i could learn something. i need to get my mothafuckin computer out of my ROOM in washington… because it is such a huge godamn distraction… sometimes i really do wish i had a laptop instead. -__-” i would be 40,000x more productive if i didn’t have a computer in my room… no joke.
i just finished re-reading this book called “norweigan wood” by haruki murakami… first time i read it i must not really have been paying attention, because i didn’t remember a godamned thing. anyway, some parallels with my own life… very odd… very odd indeed.
death cab for cutie has some of the most amazing songs… and possibly some on the other end of the spectrum as well, but that is of little importance. the lyrics, the lyrics, the lyrics. oOh ah…! good shit.
the california sun cascading down my face.
there was a girl with light brown streaks,
and she was beautiful, but she didn’t mean a thing to me.
i wanted to believe in all the words that i was speaking
as we moved together in the dark
and all the friends that i was telling
and all the playful misspellings
and every bite i gave you left a mark.
tiny vessels oozed into your neck
and formed the bruises
that you said you didn’t want to fade,
but they did, and so did i that day.
all i see are dark grey clouds in the distance moving closer every hour.
so when you ask, “was something wrong?”
“you’re damn right there is,
but we can’t talk about it now.
no, we can’t talk about it now.”
so, one last touch and then you’ll go,
and we’ll pretend that it meant something so much more.
but it was vile, and it was cheap,
and you are beautiful, but you don’t mean a thing to me.
DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE - TINY VESSELS.
november 25th, 2003 (rawr!)
i’m listening to… “lightness” by death cab for cutie [emo], “i miss you” by blink-182 [pop-punk].
i’m feeling… okay!
7:51 pm — god this song is so good haha D:
soooooo yesterday i went to work, ladida… actually it was cool because i was supposed to hurry and finish this issue of the magazine before thanksgiving break, but “i didn’t have enough time” so they didn’t rush me to finish it… AND we had like an hour of gOofing off to celebrate one of the ladies’ birthdays ^__^ we had like english-styled tea party… teehee! good deal!
@ night me and trask went to watch “kill bill”… the first third of the movie i thought was just AMAZING… one of the funniest things i’ve seen in a long time, and really good because the humor was so subtle and it was just funny because of how absurd things seemed to be… and how the humorous things were not blatant, but in the small details (ie… these 1337 stealthy assasins with gigantic cell phones the size of their heads, which i thought was hilarious, but i was the only one laughing… but then again, the theatre only had like eight people in it… ooh and this badass cartoon yakuza member with like this 1337 samurai sword and all these rings but the last ring he wore was a skull ring with a giant heart on its forehead HAHA). bleh. and then they started fighting. and then i started crying T__T okay, lies, but the middle fighting part was way too long, and boring, and got old fast, and i thought the movie was EH after it ended but the more i think about it, the better it is, because it’s intentionally supposed to be cheeztacular and sorta spOofy, so… in that sense, it’s genius. D:
so i just got back to cali a couple hours ago… SO RELAXING YAYYYYYY… even though omfg, it took two hours to get home from OAKLAND because of the godamn traffic. CRAZY. -__-” haha my dad hates my hair… he’s like, “blonde would be okay, but pink!?” my mom thinks it’s okay though… whatever, it’s better than an eyebrow piercing, right?? and my brother has like 4 tattOos so like, so what? and we had CRAB for DINNER yay… it’s been so long 
yay!!! X__x’ gonna go see the girlios later for some typical boba and pooling… oh, nothing ever changes here in the bay D:
necesitamos ir a snowboarding, bastardos!!!
jeanette’s away msg: “my friend viv is cool. she has pink hair, likes to sorta party, but not to meet new people. :-D” how true…! sorta.
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november 24th, 2003 (x__X)
i’m listening to… MORCHEEBA MORCHEEBA MORCHEEBA [trip-hop]… sOoOo money!!!
i’m feeling… X__x
3:25 am — people are highly bothersome today. ^__^
today me and eva went to uwaji’s and costco and crap, and bought all sorts of useless but good stuff. man, where does the monies go D:
then andrew came over because he wants me to go to the lambda thanksgiving dinner on tuesday but i don’t think i’ll be able to make it, sOo i told him i’d bake a pie with him, and so we did, cept we bought too much of everything and now –> 3 pumpkin pies… which is too much, because pumpkin pies are fucking disgusting. but yeah… i don’t eat that crap, so i invited a bunch of monkeys over, and they finished off the pie… THANKS GOD… ^__^ i am pleaseeeeeed. seriously, cooking is so fun haha.
so i’ve figured it out after a conversation with eva today… I WANT A COMBINATION OF THE TWO! w0rd.
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november 23rd, 2003 (inconceivable!)
i’m listening to… “a goodnight’s sleep” by the starting line [pop-punk], “bonethrower” by the revolution smile [metal], “bc anthem” by brodie [pop-punk], “with or without you” by u2 [rock].
i’m feeling… X__x
4:03 am — too much stuff to do, too little time. work is killing me :X
today i woke up @ like 3 and lewis came over and we played guitar and sang for a while… fun times… singing is the shiznit and a half… although god, singing to jay zhou is sooo hard because i can’t read chinese as fast as he says it :/ requires some amount of practice >__<
and then we went to qfc with eva, hsu-ken, alex and gareth and bought some shit for dinner… but then those bitches ditched us, so me and hsu-ken tried making soupy noodle chinese-style shit and it wasn’t that good… just kind of plain… but it wasn’t GROSS… so good deal :/ edible is good >__< just kind of plain T__T ohhh yes and watched “the princess bride”… that movie fucking rocks… forever! i love it, i love it, i love it, i love it. but you know what i really want to watch, godammit?! “radio”… dammit!
inconceivable! … i need to read the book. jyes!
so i got like a 3.0 on my sociology midterm and a 3.5 on my ess… somewhat satisfied, but not enough. XP
oh so like the other day i was doing my sociology lab and there was t his couple in there and they just boggled my mind, because the guy was doing all the work for the girl (who seemingly didn’t know anything)… and the thing is that i see them in class everyday and he doesn’t even pay attention… the whole time he just stares at her. seriously, it bugs the crap out of me and i want to throw pencils at them because it just looks… wrong. i mean, 40 minutes, and he doesn’t even look at the teacher at ALL; he just stares at her! wtf! so weird X: i’d say it’s perhaps that i’m jealous, but i don’t know… that’s just creepy.
my sewing machine is here and i don’t even have time to pick it up!! today i went @ 4 -> office closed. monday and tuesday, i school @ 8:30 and then work til 6/7 –> office closed. wednesday –> home to cali. AAAAGH. kill me. or just give me a ride to the airport D:
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november 22nd, 2003 (jap ppl = fukt up)
i’m listening to… the starting line’s “say it like you mean it” album [pop-punk].
i’m feeling… X__x
1:13 am — omifreaking god, i just watched probably the most retarded movie i’ve ever seen in my life… twas a japanese movie called “suicide club”… OMFG SO BAD… didn’t make sense at all… there was only one part that was semi-promising, and i thought it was the ending, and i was satisfied, but then it turned out to be the middle of the movie… and then from there it was EVEN MORE SHITTY… good god!!! japanese people are fukt up dude. fucking chol and jennie… why the hell would you rent a movie like that X__x
i want to shrOom and watch “cat in the hat”, seriously… too bad i have a $70-no-drugs bet and therefore i cannot… DAMMIT… ARGGGH.
god, i love lyrics… :/ it’s like my two most important things… writing + music = insta-love.
all i said was goodnight.
once again in self-defense,
i won’t sleep a wink to prevent dreaming of you.
you can sleep in your own bed tonight.
sleep away a summer’s pain,
screaming out my name.
you can sleep in your own bed tonight…
i hope for your sake
that you don’t wake up
as broken as i am.
THE STARTING LINE - A GOODNIGHT’S SLEEP.
(repeated lyric, but oh well!!!) btw, new offspring cd was out today… must listen since g was nice enough to send it to me ^__^
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november 23rd, 2003 (fuck is a beautiful word)
i’m listening to… “retrovertigo” by mr. bungle [?! rock?!], “long days, long nights” by mest [pop-punk].
i’m feeling… X__x
12:09 am — my roommate’s are fucking hoebags… they had this fucking cookie sheet that didn’t even have any shit on it that neither me NOR eva used … and they left a fucking post-it note on it saying “wash me”… and it was there for some fucking days, and we didn’t touch it because it isn’t our shit, and then one of them moved that fucking shit to the sink with the post-it still on it… and eva ended up washing it because i don’t really know why… fucking hoes… wash your own fucking shit and don’t bitch at us when we don’t wash ours right away wtf. i hate these kind of girls AAAGH. if you’re going to be bitchy, just be a fucking bitch. don’t try to be all nice and sugarcoat it and be subtle bitch of the fucking year. fucking hoes.
so yeah i made a new co-worker friend and yay, new snowboarding buddy! ^__^
have to go buy concert tickets for alkaline trio and reggie and the full effect and blehhhh !!!
dude so me, arlen, matt, and andy went to new china express tonight for dinner… and guess what my fortune cookie’s fortune was?! “it would be wise to cut your expectations in half.” wtf! i thought those things were supposed to be happy. whatever, though, i’m going to take its advice :X as it were so simple. CONSIDER MY EXPECTATIONS CUT IN HALF!!
i’d be an angel - spread my wings and fly away.
but i’m stuck here on the ground,
so i’ll see you around;
you’ll hear me piss and moan and complain.
long days, long nights,
the feeling’s just not right.
i pick up a pen and pad and i start to write,
thinking about our last fight;
it was a cold and rainy night.
i coulda guessed the day would come
that you would consider me scum.
the day is here;
all the signs were there.
and i always prayed that you would stay,
but instead you walked away. the feeling’s gone;
the pain dwells on.
MEST - LONG DAYS, LONG NIGHTS.
Do you need your friendly resident CA to come down and kick some ass?
(my response:)
omfg please do, and feel free to steal her QUESADILLA MAKER and HARD-BOILED EGG MAKER… i mean, WTF!