november 2001
november 20th to 22nd, 2001 (t-day)
SONG — “say” bai sechskies [korean]
MOOD — fine
note ~ oh sorry i’m too lazy to do different colored names if anyone cares hehe!
november 22nd — i just got back from dahye’s house… actually my parents didn’t call me to tell me to come home (for once… perhaps after going to college they’ll be more lenient now?! iono!) but yeah, i decided to come home early anyway… it was just me, xinlei (she left early), fontaine, claire (she showed up late), dahye (duh), dave [lee], phil [nho], and phil [hsieh]. yup, just like old times. we sat around and talked for a little bit, then watched tomb raider (aish, stupid), and then just played with phil nho’s game cube for a little bit. damn, it’s so cute hahaha. well today was thanksgiving… nothing special really… i just slept a whole bunch and ate fOod… we didn’t have turkey or nothing… usually we have ham but me and my bro wanted chinese food because that’s what we miss (not ham). so yeah. chinese food all the way. i used to not think chinese food was my favorite but it so is. =P people who don’t like greasy ass chinese food are on crack! o yeh and i tell everyone my brother is shady… you want to hear shady? he jacked my stereo from my room! and on top of that, he jacked my discman and put it in his room and when i said, “where the hell is my discman?” he said, “oh i thought it was mine” even though mine is distinctly mine because i dropped it and broke it… AND he took out my cd that was in there. arrggggh. -_-
november 21st — this stuff is posted from my asianavenue page. i’m too lazy to change it around >P man, can`t go to the deck the hall ball with linkin park, staind, blink182, and system of a down anymore… the tickets sold out really fast >_< oh well. perhaps i will be soon to regret not going to the family values tour. i picked out mai classes for next quarter! i`m going to take chinese 212, astronomy 101, and english 121! hopefully i get them all! man i`m so tired even though i slept for twelve hours today =P oy, i miss sechskies… they were wonderful! the people who got me into kmusic to begin with haha… i`m back in cali… ugh, i feel like i`m not doing a good job keeping in touch with everyone… i`m really not used to calling people on the phone… so i don`t talk to a lot of people that much even though i should… it really sucks. i write them letters and IM them, but phone calls are always better… just seems like you care more over the phone or something. i need to learn how to show people i appreciate them butit`sso hard forme… the easiest way i can communicate is through written words but most people aren`t used to that… most people communicate better through spoken words (but not i, for i am one of the most uneloquent people you will ever meet) or actions (that just so does not work for me, unless i`m on e)… bleh. it really sucks… when i meet other people that have the same problem i do, it kind of makes me wonder what the hell makes them like that… because i know why i am like this and it sucks shet… and if all the other people who are like me went through the same ish that i went through… damn… that`s crazy. and sad. and bad. and it makes me mad. hehe. um… tangent. let me just tell you, there`s more than meets the eye. there are just a lot of things i would like to and need to tell someone but i don`t know who to tell… yeah, everyone says i can talk to them or whatever, but some things you don`t say not because you don`t want to, but because you shouldn`t… because of how it may affect other people`s lives. so complicated… someday i`ll meet a person who i can tell anything and everything to and if i meet him or her, i will definitely, definitely work on my flaws and try to show i care. that`s all i have to say for now…
november 20th — i left washington… hyun gave me a ride to the airport. man, hyun kicks ass. i owe him a lot… he always drives me around and spots me money to go raving and stuff *sniff… go hyun! if he ever even reads this! O.o; yeah i got to the airport (seatac) and went from friggin washington state to las vegas and then back up to san jose. does that make any sense? NO… oh well. las vegas airport is pretty cool… it’s like all high-tech… and there’s slot machines. lots of them. man, las vegas must use so much electricity O.o; it’s hella scary! well i came home and did absolutely nothing pretty much. just like being in washington. har!
on a side note — I WISH SOME PEOPLE WOULD JUST TAKE NO AS AN ANSWER! -_-
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november 17th, 2001 (nrb, finally!)
SONG — “one step closer” bai linkin park [english]. i have the part that repeats “shutup” stuck in mai head O.o;
MOOD — good, good.
3:59 am — today i woke up and then pretty much just vegged around all day. then at night around six i went to a lambda lil sis meeting and we went karaoke-ing… we rented out the top floor of this nohrehbang and there were like fifty people or some shit? pretty cool man. sang a couple of songs. and then went to the lambda house and played ddr for a while… i haven’t played for so long. that made mee happy. man, i’m a lot better at it now for some reason. i guess i am getting more… rhythmic? haha. i don’t think that is even used correctly. oh yeah a bunch of us also went outside to watch the meteorite storm thing. that was neato! haha suki kept saying how he was going to go in after he saw 15 (he was on 14), and then two went by at one time… and so it was 16, so he had to wait until he saw 20. and when 20 came up, two passed at one time again, so he had to wait until 25… and so on. it was funny shit. haha. all because he wanted a nice number =P well overall it was kool. after last night i’m not gonna drink for a long while. i didn’t drink a sip today. bleh. the thought of it just makes me sick, regardless of whether it’s beer, or wine coolers, or whatever the fuk. EW. getting drunk is NOT a fun feeling.
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november 14th to 16th, 2001 (busy bee)
SONG — “quad les anges pleurent” bai assia [french].
MOOD — good… sorta.
1:44 pm — oy. haven’t updated this mofo for a little while now. guess i have been busy. i guess…
november 14th — i got my big brother for the lambda lil sis pledge-ship. it is officially : andrew [jiang]. yupyup. and that was about all that happened this day. oh yeh i worked too.
november 15th — well i don’t remember MOST of the day, but at night i decided to pull an all-niter and i kicked it in odegaard library with chol, esther, and minsoo for a while. i had a paper to write that was about ten pages long… for my asian-american studies 350 midterm. yeah, procrastination galore!! ended up chatting online for hella days and then i went to sun’s dorm because he had food. i ate… did a little work, and played scrabble with his roommates. twas fun. *cough. roiiiiiight (only sun would understand this).
november 16th — came back from sun’s room and did some more work. then i decided to take an hour-long nap. i subconsciously turned off my alarm and ended up sleeping for four hours. slept through all my classes and didn’t finish my midterm in time to turn it in during class. aish. ended up workin on it til like seven and then i sent it to my ta’s and my teacher. then i went to lammy’s room where sam [poulton] and esther were. and then hannah came and we went to abe’s apartment to drink and bleh. beer is soooo fukin nasty gross. yuk. ew. dude something is fukin wrong with me… like my rib area hurts… especially after club naf… it hurt soooo bad… i like couldn’t even stand up or sit down. i don’t know what’s wrong with me. >_< yeah after abe’s apartment some people wanted to drop so a bunch of us went to esther’s dorm and sat around… i hella didn’t feel like talking though so i just spent most of the time staring at the computer screen and shiets. o yeh when i came back i saw that my ta for aas350 had e-mailed me back and apparently i mailed him a copy that had my name only. godammit. so i didn’t mail it back to him til like almost 12 at night. i seriously hope he doesn’t count it as late (ten point deduction)… omg, that would suck so bad… but knowing my luck that will happen. fukin shiets. wow weird like everyone on my buddy list is idled. well… man, we really need to sell eva’s ticket to the family values tour. shits… because my floormate who was going bought mine but no one has bought eva’s yet… that’s hell of a problem because i don’t know if she will have a ride there… brian [shin] was supposed to give me and her and natalie a ride down there but since i’m not going, i don’t know. man, this sucks. we put up fliers and shit… and someone called earlier but i was sleeping. i hope that wasn’t an offer. now i’m all paranoid-delusional and afraid to go shower and stuff
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november 14th, 2001 (kill me now)
SONG — “fade” bai staind [english].
MOOD — some shit.
11:22 pm — as copy and pasted from mai asianavenue page cuz i don’t feel like typing an actual journal.
oh my fukin god i am so fukin pissed off. reasons being : 1) i`m sick of boring ass people talking to me online! i`m sick of hearing about how you didn`t do your homework and nothing else!!!; 2) fukin i got tickets to the family values tour in tacoma this saturday BUT i am fukin sittin in the corner bai maiself because mai tickets don`t match up to eva`s or anyone else`s!! and i am at a bad angle, and i have never been to a rock concert so sorry, i don`t really know wtf to expect; 3) i need to find a ride friggin to and from that friggin concert cuz i fukin do NOT want to stay in a shietty ass motel overnight; 4) friggin lambda lil sis are having events this saturday… they rented out the top floor of this fukin karaoke place and i`ve been wantin to go karaoke for soooooo long and i can`t friggin go… and that`s their first event and i can`t go either… and i can`t go to the event next tuesday because fukin i`m not gonna be here… fukin shiet; 5) friggin i was going back to cali for thanksgiving nov 21 - nov 25 originally but AA cancelled mai flight without friggin telling mee and now i have to go back the 20 - 26… which means missing hella skool and missing all the lambda events; 6) i need to find a fukin ride to and from the airport argh argh argh; and the list goes on. i`m so pissed off stressed argh grrr. *pulling out hair.
(richard’s response:)
I can give u a ride to and from =D
(my response:)
haha… i feareth being in a car with yoo. >P
(richard’s response:)
hey hey hey! I didn’t crash my car! My MOM did remember! Psh, im not that bad of a driver. hehe, only when on long freeways and tired coming back from irvine..hehe and on Santa Rita road..hehe…esp behind big trucks who makes sudden stops…hehe, well still need a ride, i can be the last resort hehe ok later SMILE! =D
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november 9th to 12th, 2001 (f-u-n, FUN!)
SONG — “fanmail” bai tlc [english].
MOOD — tre gute. honw honw honw (french people laughing)
4:53 pm — where this entry’s title came from : when steve was talking about the lambda lil sis program he was like, “it’s all about f-u-n fun, fun, fun!” and everyone was making fun of him forever haha =P well yeah let me see if i can remember mai weekend now.
november 9th — today i just went to chinese class and skipped linguistics and asian-american studies… as usual. i missed seven classes this week! ack. horrible art i. at night i went over to derek’s dorm and mee, him, and chol downloaded “monsters inc.” and watched that on the computer. what a funny movie! then we watched an hour of “iron chef”. what a neat show hahaha. we also got bored enough to watch “the king and i”. weirdos art us. i also bought like ten bucks worth of food (pizza rolls, cheez-its, milk duds, and cereal) and i left ALL of it in derek’s room! argh i tell you! argh!
november 10th — i had to work in the morning from 11 am - 5 pm… but for some reason i was retarded and i went to work at 10 am instead, discovering that it was not open yet. so i went to bartell drugs for an hour and bought… junk. i bought hair bleach and mechnical pencils with colored lead. hahaha. wooo! useless but so neato nonetheless. ohmigod, i’m so tired right now. anyways. i sat around reading archie comics for like twenty minutes because i needed to kill time. aish. and then i worked. and then i made hyun pick me up and drive me home since he offered yesterday! his fault. he dropped me off and then i changed and stuff… then me, eva, sora, and april walked to odeggard undergraduate library and met up with the other lambda dudes for the continuation of the lil sis rush. we went cosmic bowling. it’s exactly like midnight bowling, only it starts at around seven-ish. dang, they must have paid a lot of money. oh yeah sun is so embarrassing! urrrr… he embarrassed me in front of “my sexy bitch” (so eva calls him)… well sorta. hard to describe without stating the actual scenario. ARGH. embarrassing. oh well. as we were leaving, i was talking about how i wanted to go to club naf and then hyun was like, “then why don’t you go?” and i said it was because i had no money. but he agreed to spot me and stuff, so me, him, eva, anna, and dan went to naf (a rave) with andrew, suki, and jackie too. hella people that we knew were there… and i didn’t make a complete idiot of myself this time, so it was mad cool. i wasn’t going to drop initially, but i ended up dropping half. hella good roll! it lasted… at least five and a half hours? i’m not sure about the rest because i went to bed. haha. and people got pissed off at me… this one guy sat me down and he was going to give me a back rub but i kept leaning over and talking to this other guy sitting next to him so after like a minute he was like, “alright i need to get up. my legs are hurting.” riiiight! and then i was like “sorry!! it’s not that i don’t like your back rub!” and he’s like, “yeah, okay.” all offended and stuff. haha. and then i met this guy from indonesia who spoke like five languages. lucky fart! i was talking to him in english / mandarin. neato speedo. man though, i really have a short attention span. oh yeah and if you think i’m cheesy normally, when i’m on E i’m like the cheesiest person in the world. i met this guy named hunter and i was like, “oh! you’re the first person i’ve ever met named hunter! do you go hunting? har har har.” -_-;; i know how to candywalk now! it was weird… i was started dancing and i was like “whoa… i’m candywalking!” yes. and this is exciting because everyone knows how uncoordinated and such art i. yupperdie dupperdie. naf was better because it was a lot smaller than freak night so most of the people were friendlier. yup… so now i owe hyun $25, and eva $8. oy vey. i don’t what raves i am going to end up going to, though. on december 1st there is a rave from freaking 9 pm - 10 am and a lot of people want to go because… shoot, i forgot who was going. haha. oh well. but I want to go because dj dara is going to be there! WOO! i freaking LOVE drum and bass. too bad barely anyone else likes my music. oh well.
november 11th — damn i was so cracked out this morning. i got up at 9:45 am. i was originally going to get up at 8:45 pm because i thought i had to go to work at 10 am, but i was like aw, fuck it, i’ll go an hour later. so… i ended up going there at 11 am, only to discover that it didn’t open until 12 pm! so i didn’t feel like going shopping any more (and wasting more money) so i bought some chicken teriyaki and walked back home. ugh i ate teriyaki and my teeth HELLA hurt man! my teeth were okay last time! >_< i don’t see why though, especially since i chewed a whole shitload of gum. but owie… my poor teefy… =( i slept for a half hour and then chan called me at 12, saying that i had to work today. i tried playing dumb and stuff, but i still had to go. *shucks. oh well there was a white guy in there today who could speak pretty good chinese. haha. neato speedo! i like talking to these random people when i work the register because they’re pretty interesting. talking to random people is fun. later at night i went to the lambda house for the lil sis rush and it was just a party. me and sora only stayed for like an hour and a half and then kavika drove us to yunnie’s because chan wanted us to go eat dinner in chinatown with the other yunnie’s workers (from both stores). that sucked. it took like… three hours to eat dinner! SUCKED! me and sora had to rush him to taking us back to the lambda house, claiming that we needed to go back because i needed to find a big brother today. i still am not sure who i want >_< but yeah we went back at around 12:30 and stayed for like an hour. it was cool. when i came back, andy showed up at ahram’s dorm so ahram told me to go over and we watched “bring it on”. yup. and that was my day!
november 12th — woke up at like 4:00 pm today hahaha. i can hellllla sleep more though. my roommate is eating so the greasy aroma is making me hungry but i’m not going to eat until much later. i think i am just going to go to dinner later and then i have to study for my dinosaurs midterm tomorrow. HAHA. =P
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november 8th, 2001 (lilian and vivian at jillian’s!)
SONG — “ye le shui le jou xiang ku” bai nicholas tse [mandarin].
MOOD — good, good.
11:06 pm — hmm i’d write about tomorrow, but i don’t remember it O.o;; alright well this morning i just went to my classes. boring. had a chinese quiz (having another one tomorrow). both were boring. boring life! oh well. skipped my dinosaurs lecture because i didn’t want to go. man, do i have a whole lot of reading to do this weekend or what. i have a dinosaurs midterm next tuesday and i haven’t read any of it. and then i have my asian-american studies midterm which is like a series of essays… apparently my ta guy chia-chi ended up with a fifty page paper. either he’s extremely nerdy or i am extremely lazy. perhaps a little of both. or a lot of both? i’m not quite sure.
anyways later at like 5:00 pm i went to the HUB for the lambda lil sis info night. that was alright. hahaha. it was so funny… the lambda lil sis chairman was john [chae] and he was sooo nervous he was stuttering and flailing his arms around and hitting the table with it and stuff. hahaha. it was so cute! ^_^ and then after that we went to jillian’s, which is this pool hall, bar, and arcade, all-in-one. haha. mee, sora, and tina went with kyu… and he was trying to take a shortcut and ended up getting us lost. hahaha. we drove around in this huge circle and by the time we got there, there was barely any food left. which is okay because personally i wasn’t really craving chicken and nachos. icky. ugh and i saw that guy maui there… apparently he’s an active member. aish. he was the guy chol asked to take care of me at freak night while i was rolling. dude he hella like made me feel bad during that. i bet he added to my roll going down! because i could tell that he didn’t want to hang out with me and i told him, “you can leave because you don’t seem to want to follow me” and he didn’t say anything and just left! and later when i said hi to him he completely ignored me. that bastard. oh well. and then the whole time i wanted to talk to this guy (whom shall remain nameless for now, i suppose) and when he finally talked to me (he recognized me from something else too!) i was retarded and barely said anything to him. what a retard i am. WARIM. i always do that. talk hella long to people i don’t really want to talk to because i feel obliged and barely talk to people i want to talk to. how retarded! -_-; but yeah. now i really suck @ pool again. well, not as bad as i was when i first started, but not good at all. oh well ~ oh yeah. the title for this entry is because i met this girl named lilian and we were just like, “lilian and vivian at jillian’s!” hahaha. ^^*
today i have concluded — the majority of ppo i’ve met in washington smoke. and then the majority of ppo i kno who smoke smoke marlboro lights o.O;
in other news — i think my mystery guy who i was hanging out with at freak night WAS john chae… that’s… freaking… weird. must get to the bottom of the mystery before i go crazy. unfortunately, i have to wait until saturday. *sigh.