november 2001
november 6th, 2001 (midnight coffee runs)
SONG — “you should be my girlfriend” bai n’sync [english]
MOOD — good, thank god.
2:14 am — i just took a shower, but before that, i went for a midnight coffee run @ qfc (24-hour supermarket) with hyun, dave, and eva. ^_^ ohhhhh i’m SO glad hyun asked mee to go man. cuz i was hella… depressive before i guess. i don’t know. it’s not that i don’t like it here in seattle… it’s just that right now i feel weird because i miss my cali friends (see like jeanette said, i dun say sappy stuff usually, so if i’m saying it, i really do mean it)… and i guess i haven’t found a group i REALLY feel like i belong in yet so it’s just slightly aggravating. but yes. sitting around for one and a half hours just talking and drinking coffee really cheered me up and woke me up too. ah, the simple pleasures of life. ^_^
earlier i was talking to dominic [kim] about my psychoticness and somehow i said that how i didn’t care if i were to die was about the same as committing suicide. eh, i don’t agree with that. he asked me why i’m not happy… and i said i didn’t know. and then he asked me what i thought i was lacking. but i don’t really know either. oh well. i don’t feel like discussing that now since i am actually in a decent mood again. i should be studying because i have a chinese mid-term tomorrow (again), but it’s okay. i’ll do fine (i hope).
well today i skipped linguistics discussion because i was tired. i should have gone though, since we got our mid-terms back. oh well. wonder if i did okay. i think did but i always do and the result is usually the opposite. oh well. then i had chinese class, and the dinosaurs lecture that i slept through. damn my classes are boring. hmmm then i went to eat at “by george” with chol… back to asian-american studies class (shit man no more taking two hour-long classes fo mee) and theeeeen came home and took a half hour nap. then went to eat pho with chol, jun, and gildas. and gildas is SO naive hahaha. he didn’t know a single thing when we were talking about raves. it was… funny. hehe.
today i have concluded — the majority of the people i talk to online are either korean boys or chinese girls. interesting.
(fil’s response:)
oooooooo right so just cuz you’ve been to one rave makes you a veteran raver now eh????? LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =P
(my response:)
nuh uh not even that… here’s how it was.
mee - yeah i don’t remember anything from it
gildas - what? why is that? did you get drunk? you got drunk didn’t you?
mee - no, i didn’t get drunk.
gildas - then what happened?
mee - i got amnesia… well, sort of.
gildas - what’s amnesia?
jun - when you don’t remember stuff.
gildas - then you were drunk!
mee - no… i fell and hit my head.
gildas - how’d you fall?
mee - i fell off the roof.
gildas - then you WERE drunk!
mee - no…
jun - aiya…
chol - oh my god.
gildas - no! you smoked weed!
mee - no…
chol - it’s something that makes you really hyper.
gildas - what is that?
mee - i drank a lot of coffee and a lot of mochas.
gildas - oh really? why’d you do that?
jun - aish, gildas!
mee - actually i drank a lot of tea, coffee, and soda.
gildas - i’m not going to believe you!
jun - i’ll tell you later.
(later)
gildas - so how’d you fall and hit your head?
jun - aish, gildas!!
mee - i saw this really hot guy and i fainted and hit my head.
gildas - i’m not going to believe anything that comes out of your mouth!
(etc, etc. the saga continues…)
i’m really hungry.
(fil’s response:)
HAHAHAHA WABOL
(diana’a response:)
the majority of the people i talk to online are chinese girls and filipino guys. and then koreans. the majority of the people who randomly email me are white. the white ones usually try to flirt with me. the guys get shot down quickly. the girls i lead on, cuz i am evil. XD mwahaha
blah~ i’m trying to think up new buddy list category names. i wanted to put you & xinlei under “ice cream assassins”, but there’s too many letters. (;_;)
(my response:)
ummm why are we ice cream assassins?!?!?!?!?!?!?! please explain. =T i need to find one of those manila envelopes so i can mail yoo yur letter and the garbage pics =(
(diana’s response:)
it’s from a tori amos song!
“if the divine master plan is perfection
maybe next i’ll give judas a try
trusting my soul to the ice cream assassin
here
you say you don’t want it again
and again but you don’t really mean it
you say you don’t want it
this circus we’re in
but you don’t you don’t really mean it you don’t really mean it”
…actually, the “ice cream assassin” is supposed to be god. (ooh~ you & xinlei are gods now!?) and if you want to get right down to it, *spark* is about miscarriage. but DAMMIT, “ice cream assassin” is just a cool title. a title-with-too-many-letters, but a cool title nonetheless.
yay~ can’t wait til i get your letter & stuff, you generous person, you. ^_^ i might write you back a rhyming letter. they’re EXTREMELY lame, but… i am lame. i wrote xinlei one, but i’m not sure i’ll send it because the lameness is embarrassing. oh well. thought it might make it a bit more interesting, you know? i know you guys have a million people to wb & probably get a lot of letters, so i thought a break from the same ol’ same ol’ might be nice. and lameness can be amusing….? XD
(my response:)
I WANT A RHYMING LETTER!! i write those sometimes!! they’re fun! ^_^ and interesting to read, i’m sure. since yur psycho and all =D wooooo! sendy sendy! oh i gotta send mine first huh… ah, well. ^^
(xinlei’s response:)
she’s addicted to niccotine patches…i just got back from a grueling session of math studying. :X i’m going to jump out my window now, if you’ll excuse me…oh but first, wow to be an ice cream assassin!! 
i feel oh so very special for i even placed it in my profile. and lame letters are cool, although i doubt your rhyming letters are lame, therefore your letters must be cooler than cool. but with that in mind, coolness is not the most important thing in the whole wide world and i’m getting a funky rash on my right shoulder and my mom now believes i am anthraxed for i have a funky rash and funky fat bruise the shape of an egg that won’t go away, and by the way vivian yea smith’s daughter is in a coma or something :X scary and this is a really long run on sentence and i feel bad diana because i’m taking up your webspace and i haven’t updated a thing in a very long time, other than my blogablog…thanks for being oh so very ice cream assassinish yourself dear.
okee. 
good night.
i’d like a psycho rhyming letter from you too vivihua.
i’d write you both psycho rhyming letters, however my rhyming skills are unbelievably horrid. sooooooooooooooooo. yea.
send send send!
(diana’s response:)
xinlei: i sent your rhyming letter yesterday. if the post office were running like it should, you’d get it on monday, but i’m still convinced that the fbi is stealing my mail and… making it all delayed & crap. and crap. >=( and i knew you’d know the song! ^___^ yay~ you’re like my musical soulmate! so a not-quite-exactly-completely-soul-mate. *dreamy sigh* if only you were my total soulmate, i’d worship the ground you walk on. oh hell yeah. >;D
vivian: i’ll write you a rhyming letter too.. and astound you with my [lack of?] rhyming skills! they’re pretty hard for me, you know. moreso the making sense part, rather than the actual rhyming part. but then, i have a difficult time making sense even without rhyming…. =X
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november 5th, 2001 (e is for evil!)
SONG — “blood on the ground” bai incubus [english]
MOOD — feeling sOo stupid.
1:18 am — i bought the incubus “morning view” cd today. it’s a lot better than i thought. pretty good actually =)
i feel soooo stupid. man. i keep on meeting new people to remind me of my e-tardedness @ the rave. it’s unbelievable >_< so, you want examples? okay this past saturday i “re-met” sylvia who i met @ the rave and to whom i said “oh! so you’re silvia! i’ve heard so much about you!”… and i didn’t remember a thing about that. -_-; and then richard who i asked for his name (like 5 times) thought i was fourteen -_-; he’s so young but he looks so old O.o;; yah and then andrew [lee] told mee that i *cough* got a little ‘comfortable’ looking with daniel [kim] >_< i THOUGHT i remembered something about me trying to hold his hand or something because he was taking care of me. and then the list never ends. today i once again “re-met” a different richard (he reminds mee of kang sunghoon — ex sechskies lead singer) said i did talk to him and that i said “oh, i see you everywhere but i don’t know from where.” (?!) oy vey. it’s kind of embarrassing to say that to a stranger -_-; and lastly. this is the real killer. apparently i was hanging out with this guy named john for a hella long time when i was on E… and i DON’T REMEMBER A THING ABOUT HIM! what the hell!?! and it’s not any of the johns i know because there’s only [flip]-john and that i sorta actually know and it for sure was not him!!! that’s sooo freaking weird. it just makes me want to crawl under the bed every time i think about it. and i’m constantly thinking about it since everyone knows me as the fucked up girl who was jumping around everywhere. see, esther was fucked up and jumping around too but she was only pestering people she knew. i was pestering… people that i’ve seen around -_-;; aieya. oh well at least i talked to all my hot guys. hahahaha. then again… that’s not the best atmosphere to talk to them. oh well.
okay well today i decided not to go to any of my classes because i didn’t feel like it so i just woke up at 11 am and met jennifer [yee] for lunch. we wanted some quesadillas but she wasn’t sure if she wanted taco bell or authentic mexican food so we had to flip a coin. now she loves me though because those quesadillas were cheap and good! =) yeah we were gonna go there, and then to taco bell, and then to another mexican place to see which place had the best quesadillas. heehee. mmmm… quesadillas ^_^ i also tried this drink that is made of fruits? it’s called t—r–a? something like that. i don’t remember the name (can anyone help me out?). either way, it was really good. tasted a little strange initially but it got to be damn good. ^_^ yah afterwards i just went to work. lotsa people came to visit! yay. turns out i was supposed to work from 2-8 but i SWEAR chan (my boss) told me i only had to work from 2-6. so dominic [kim] and min sort of came to pick me up and then i asked chan and he said, fine, that i could leave. blahblah. his fault. he told me 2-6, i swear -_-; well i came back and then later at night chol and andrew [lee] came over and then left… and that’s about my whole day! ^^
(xinlei’s response:)
that’s what i did…i wrote like 7 yesterday and mailed them today.
wahoo.
ok.
yea…vivian on e. muahahahaha. what a sight for the world to see.
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november 2nd to 4th, 2001 (house of morals)
SONG — “almost one year” bai brown eyes [korean].
MOOD — fuck, i’m so tired.
can’t say i wanna write in this much, but i will anyway. you know me.
november 2nd — today was my linguistics midterm. i think i did okay… studied a lot, for my standards. then at night i had nothing to do for a while but then lammy wanted to drop and then she ended up not doing it, but since the idea was presented, chol and eva decided they wanted to drop, so we went to abe’s house and they did. actually taking care of E-ppo is much more entertaining than i thought. i can see how going to a rave sober would still be fun ^_^ anyhoo. yeah. that was the extent of the day.
november 3rd — slept. ate. then returned to abe’s house where today a whole bunch of ppo jes sat around and drank and smoked cigarettes and smoked weed. i’m going to die of second hand smoke. oh well. yeah and then we called abe’s apartment the “house of morals”. hahaha.
november 4th — went to work from the moment i woke up til now. and it’s 10:00 pm. blah. had to stand around for hours on end but it’s okay. i guess. if it isn’t already evident, i don’t feel like writing. i’m putting together phil [wu]-type entries!! O.o NOOOOOOO!
(fil’s response:)
phil [wu]-type entries!! O.o NOOOOOOO!
and what is THAT supposed to mean? -_-;;;;;;
How is it possible my name still finds its way