inside the wonderful world of vee

i’m listening to… — “spiritual trance” bai goa gil [trance], “spaced invader” bai hatiras [d&b], “control” bai puddle of mudd [rock], “married you” bai coco lee [mandarin], “heart goes boom” bai alice dj [cornball music], “warning” bai incubus [rock], “drowning” bai ak1200 [d&b], “fever” bai dragon ash with miho [japanese], “weekends” bai black eyed peas [hip-hop], “rain” bai brainbug [trance], “deepfloors” bai dbj [breaks], “valve sound” bai dillinja [jungle? shit, i don’t know]
i feel… — muthafuckin stressed.

4:55 pm — man, what would i do without music… -__-; dude. when i think back on all but like… two of the people i’ve liked in the past, i think… WHAT THE FUCK. haha yes, i’m random. =) oh well. i have to read a whole textbook tonight. woooooo. heh. ugh… i’m not down for guys who only out to get to know girls better but not guys better. but am i like that too? considering most of my friends HERE are guys, that makes me wonder if i’m like that too. ughhhhhhh. -__-; being friends with guys now is all good and dandy, but in the future… no good… no good, no good. cali kids i miss! i really dooooo (”i like his tight butt!” - “grandma!” - “well i doooooooo!”). freedom here plus cali kids would be terrifico. not that i don’t like you washies. =)

haha duuuude i’ve come to the re-realization… i’m so damn antisocial! like… if i do decide to go out, i’m social… but most of the time i don’t want to go anywhere. don’t know what that makes me. heh.

so there’s this one ambient alice deejay song i’m looking for, dammit. it’s on the cd with “better off alone” and shieeeeet. someone tell me what the fuck it is because i’ve been looking for it everywhere. by the way, i’m hella freaking sick… that or i’m dying of allergies. i don’t know, but i feel like poo and i can’t breath. niiiiiice. perhaps allergies because i have like the worst allergies in the world but isn’t it a little late for allergies? -__-

woo haha i just turned down my boss… i think that’s like one of the first times ever. goddammit, i so have a spine of jelly.

i read some stuff in my sociology book. might as well post it here to show that i learned a little something. anyways, it’s super interesting to me. ^__^ if you guys already knew this, good for you. it was all news to me.

1) “the distinctive feature of a minority group, or subordinate group, is that it occupies an inferior position in terms of prestige, wealth, and power in a society. a minority group is typically excluded from full participation in a society and is the object of discrimination by the majority group. the term “minority” does not refer to the numerical size of a group.”

2) “english common law in 1768 asserted that a husband had the right to ‘physically chastise’ an errant wife provided that the stick was no thicker than his thumb - and thus the ‘rule of thumb’ was born.”

3) “lincoln’s position on emancipation was not surprising because he had already declared himself to be on the side of racism. in 1858, for example, lincoln said, ‘i am not, nor ever have been in favor of bringing about in any way the social and political equality of the white and black races… i am not nor ever have been in favor of making voters or jurors of negroes, nor of qualifying them to hold office, nor to intermarry with white people; and i will say in addition to this that there is a physical difference between the white and black races which i believe will forever forbid the two races living together on terms of social and political equality. and inasmuch as they cannot so live, while they do remain together, they must be in the position of superior and inferior, and i as much as any other man am in favor of the superior position being assigned to the white race.’”

then how was slavery abolished, you ask?
4) “lincoln was very candid about this saying at one point, ‘i would save the union. i would save it the shortest way under the constitution. the sooner the national authority can be restored, the nearer the union will be to ‘the union as it was’. if there be those who would not save the union unless they could at the same time save slavery, i do not agree with them. if there be those who would not save the union unless they could at the same time destroy slavery, i do not agree with them. my paramount object in this struggle is to save the union, and is not either to save or destroy slavery. if i could save the union without freeing any slave, i would do it; if i could save it by freeing all the slaves, i would also do that. what i do about slavery and the colored race, i do because i believe it helps save the union. i shall do less whenever i shall believe what i am doing hurts the cause, and i shall do more whenever i shall believe doing more will help the cause.’”

what a muncher of butts.

dude, muthafuckin (my word of the day) hell yeah! we got a muthafuckin acura cl type-s at home! tiziiite! this means i get to drive around the accord… which is not all that exciting, but at least it has a nice system. i dig. =)

12:54 am — dude. work is so fucking depressing. i’m sick of doing all the fucking work. and dude! people are so freaking rude! i was literally mopping around these fuckers feets and they didn’t even get up to leave! dude! we turned off all the lights and left them in the dark and they still didn’t get the fuck up! rude ass muthafuckaz. -__- i need a fucking vacation. i fucking wish usc were this weekend… well sort of. okay, that would be a horribly bad idea actually, but whatever. i just need a break. >__<

and dude guys who fucking talk too much about boring fucking shit do not interest me! >__< but i guess that’s like… pretty easy to figure. -__-; god. i wish i could just start this whole muthafuckin quarter again. start brand fucking new. >__< oh my dear, i’m having regrets. i never have regrets too. ugh… retarded to the max. dude, i haven’t seen anyone all week… and i’ve been doing a shitty job with studying. it’s just all bad. -__-; i just need some time to relax, but i have no opportunities. my schedule is jam-packed with all sorts of poo things like work and school and responsibility. heh.

oh blah. yet another!!! i’m sick of people thinking i’m cute or whatever. when it boils down to it, being CUTE means jack shit dude. it’s just looks… you could be a muthafuckin psycho biznatch. -__-; not to say that i am, but uggggh things are just so whack. all these guys think i’m cute and then later are all disappointed because i’m not the kind of person they thought i was. looks attract a person no more beyond surface level >__< man, if i can help it, i’m never going to like a person i don’t really KNOW ever again dude… only people i’ve been friends with or have gotten to know. no jocking some random hot muthafucka because chances are, he won’t be what i idealize and sometimes you go for it, only to kick yourself in the head later for being so muthafuckin stupid and wastin so much energy on someone that you didn’t even know. -__-; it never works out the fucking way you idealize it. like i mentioned earlier, there are only two people i’ve liked in my whole life who i can actually look back on and say… damn, he’s one fucking great person. i can see why i liked him. all the other people… damn… just… attraction. not even liking. just surface level. it was just a “damn i think that fucker’s hot so hopefully he likes me back” kind of bullshit. at least i know the person i like now i actually REALLY like and it’s not some muthafuckin fuckin i-like-him-because-he’s-hot-like-the-muthafuckin-stove type of deal. okay, bad analogy, but i’m sort of braindead at the moment.

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