i love sleep.
i’m listening to… armor for sleep.
i’m feeling… tired.
4:00 pm — hate sleeping? well here’s how you learn to love it… DON’T DO IT AND THEN IT WILL BE GRAND. never have i loved sleep as much as i have now. i never really sleep much but i’ve been sleeping in 2/3 hour segments for the past couple of days and it is like death.
yesterday was vday… i ate nothing all day but sugar. -__- until maybe at 11:30 at night. early early that day (like 2 am i’m saying), arlen and farm came over to distract me from doing hw, bearing gifts… and their idea of gifts is like the king size, i-have-never-bought-that-size giant slurpee the size of my head. and keep in mind right before that me, eva, ray, anthony, and liz had JUST gone to the ram for happy hour and eaten a whole meal, along with mud pie (a giant, delicious, ice creamy sugary death mud pie) for dessert. and farm and arlen also brought these mint chocolate chip type oreos which were damned good too - so basically it was like DEAAATH for all of valentine’s day. and my moods were like up, down, sugar high, sugar crash. death.
anyway speaking of the ram - that day was full of food too. at around 3 or 4 pm me, eva, ray, and liz all went to costco, and then to lover’s package where liz bought a pair of handcuffs (we all know why), and then to 99 ranch. and then to ram. and then to explode. at costco we talked about why we are the way we are. liz is the way she is (opinionless about most things, does what she’s told) because her parents were controlling. eva comes up with crazy ideas because she was an only child and grew up doing a lot of weird things. ray constantly needs reassurance that people like him because his older sister always paid more attention to his little sister than him. i am the way i am because i am a hateful person (details to be detailed not here). and at dinner we were playing 20 questions (that’s totally not what the game is) but we were just going around in circles asking each other questions (99% of them were sex-related). it wasn’t the most fun, but some of it was interesting. AND ANTHONY WAS UNCOMFORTABLE. WEREN’T YOU, ANTHONY!!
and later that night like i mentioned arlen and farm came over and blahblah and then i was doing homework blahblah and then liz made them watch a stephen king movie with her “rose red” because she didn’t want to sleep in the room alone, i guess. i guess she done did was skurred. yeah so liz ended up falling asleep. at some point lenny came over. and then turns out the movie had 3 parts. WAY TOO FUCKING LONG. it was a four and a half hour movie, but it ended right in time for me to make lenny go to school with me in a ubar deliria… shit i could barely even finish sentences. it was retarded. then i took a two hour nap. then i went to work. blahr etc.
we had dinner @ 11:00 @ abc garden AGAIN because farm and arlen are like crazy and love it. and it was fun, and there were too many questions, and then it was home for more homework death mix.
whatever though things have been way too busy lately, i don’t even have time to think. i wish i didn’t fuck around so hardcore last week (I BLAME THE HORMONES… because i missed birth control-takage one day and then everything got hella weird) when i didn’t want to do anything and didn’t go to class at all… cause i basically fucked myself over this week. hardcore. no time to sleep, and no brain because of no sleep to think. i really don’t even know what i wrote about in here, like what days are which days, because of the erratic schedule of sleep, they all just kind of run together like water.