i don’t believe in the christian god.
after thinking about it for a while now… i don’t think i believe in the christian god.
now i have like ten thousand bajillion christian frendz, so i’ll hear some shit… but i refuse to believe that there is a god that LOVES yoo but still allows yoo to suffer as much as he does. people say that things couldn’t have popped out of nowhere… and that our galaxy would not have been created by itself. but then… where did god come from? i don’t even kno what to think now, but i do kno i don’t believe in the god most people think i believe in. this is not a easy thing for mee to conclude because the whole topic of christianity depresses mee. say i AM wrong… then what? but now i don’t think i can believe in something i honestly cannot believe. there are too many contradicting things in the bible, and the number one turnoff is christians (read mai previous post). they pretty much drive mee insane. i do think that christians are usually nicer than other people, but i think that is jes a coincidence because so many people are christians and they jes seem like a greater majority of nice people. i don’t think that made sense.
anyway. in my eyes, if there IS a god, it is not the god that most people believe in. not one that interferes with our everyday activites… not one that really really gives a fuck. perhaps it is a god that is jes like us humans… maybe he created us for his own enjoyment but does not interfere with every activity in our lives. hey, it’s possible, right? or maybe there is nothing… and i kinda believe that if there is a heaven and a hell, hell is on earth. i don’t kno… maybe we get reincarnated or something, but earth is pretty hellish as it is. and after the supposed rapture, earth is hell. so it makes sense to mee. oh, and if the dayam rapture and tribulation (whutever iss called) is tru… god should jes return now… because if i had solid proof that god existed… if i saw him with mai own two eyes, i would be able to endure any kind of pain to get into heaven. it’s jes not fair.