hukness.
* cd of the moment * — iono the title but it’s a zhou hui cd ^__^ her voice is sveeeet
* mood * — i’m okay.
12:27 am — hukness… work people piss mee off! arrrrr… work in general pisses mee off. mie boss asks mee wat mie goals in life are and when i tell him that i want to start mie own magazine he pretty much blows it off and mocks mee… sayin… “why would yoo want to do that?” and i said, “because it’s fun.” and he scoffed and said people don’t do what is fun for a job. FAUK YOO! shieeet… it’s something that interests mee… fauk… yoo own a fukin bubble tea shop so i dun wanna hear it! huk huk huk! huk! i dun care if starting mie own magazine sounds unappealing to yoo, it’s something that i wanna do, and that’s all that fauking matters… grrrr… and then he says it’s because i don’t understand the importance of money yet. perhaps, but fauk… all the money i spend is wat i make… with an exception of tuition and shiet… not mie fault that mie parents pay for mie tuition… it’s not like they give mee watever the fuk i want (which is wat he implied). garrr that pisses mee off… he thinks i’m some spoiled lil brat whose never done anything in mie life (anything being like… house chores and shiet)… huk huk huk. fucking… argh… perhaps i haven’t done as much as other people, that’s for sure. but fuk, it’s not like i don’t do jack shiet and i jes get things handed to mee on a silver platter all the tym (wat a stupid analogy). huk.
and then this other guy i work with INSISTS on doing everything that i am already doing. if i’m cleaning something, he goes, “let mee do that.” if i’m filling something up, he goes, “let mee do that.” okay maybe some girls would like that, but personally… I FIND IT FUCKING ANNOYING! i can do that lil shiet mieself, thank yoo very much. if i need help, i will ask. dammit. bitches. huk. oh well. -___-;; so mie boss is gonna be gone for the next two weeks and he has mee workin like ehhhh 28? about hour weeks… fukin… AAA! i have to work on wednesday, thursday, friday, sunday… nights… omigod, dunno if i can handle this. i can barely handle the workload as it is… i am REALLY bad at managing mie tym because i have so many different things i feel i should do… (huk… spending time online is one of them). spending time with frendz is another. perhaps i DO kick it too much, but if schedules follow up like this… usually on days i work in dun even see anyone. no life. faukin poo. -__-; oh well. huk huk huk. and suddenly, mie room smells like weed. strange. anyways, so our piece of crap two RA’s handed out surveys for everyone to turn in… i’m not about to turn in that shiet because I THINK THEY SUCK ASS. i have not a single word of appreciation for them. faukin pOoz. actually, one of them is okay. the other one… ehhh… and everyone on these two frickin floors call mee “mei-mei”, which is the girl who lives nex door to mee! huk ~ i wonder if they call her that too. stupid people who think all asian girls look alike. -__-; oh well. bitching galore. huk. but i guess i can go to paul’s birthday party on friday for a lil cause i’m being let off work a lil early… jes dunno if it’s worth it to have someone pick mee up and go so late? and i’m afraid people will be all fauked up… huk… wat to do… wat to do… -__-;;
my heart will leave my body and live in the past
both loving someone or not will cause a person to be sad
i don’t know how to make this decision
do you and i have the same difficulties?
your courage has me in awe
i don’t know if you’ll decide
i think that my heart still isn’t clear enough
whether to love you or leave you?
i will continue to wonder…
zhou hui - huati (topic)