films and things.
i’m listening to… … postal service.
i’m feeling … alright!
3:24 am - roar!!! i watched way too many movies today. this japanese movie, “dreams” — which had a couple of really cool clips with awesome cinematography, and also a buttload of meh, sort of boring crap. we watched this entire clip that was like 15 min long of people dying in a blizzard in like alaska or something without sound cause there was sound all the way up until that clip. turned out it got a little unplugged SOMEHOW. i don’t really understand how.
also rented “naked lunch”… i’m not sure what it’s about. it’s a david cronenberg movie… really fucking weird. i think it is about a couple of things… mostly different layers of consciousness, but i don’t really know. i noticed everything happened twice, though. he’d be in two different places at once — and there was one scene where his friends were there, and then it cut to another scene where his friends were somewhere else with him. he also woke up twice somewhere… shot his wife/lover “joan” twice… just seemed like there was a lot of duality. and i can only think that it was related something to the amount of drugs he did in the movie (hallucinogens) and layers of consciousness… shrug.
also watched “lethal weapon 4″ (half of it) and “lethal weapon”… i can see why the chicks think mr. mel is hot because of it. he’s like ‘the man’ in it. you know — crazy, unstable — what girls like!!! :0
anyways. i got drunk yesterday for the first time in 80,000 years cause josh made me buy two tequila shots — only @ earl’s, one shot = 3 shots. it was DEATH. white tequila for the LOSE — seriously, the grossest shit i’ve ever drunk in my LIFEHIZZLE. it burned bad. anyway. somehow it got me drunk. standing up after that was uber dizzy. like i was on E or something. it was crazy. made me thinkin kinda weird too after we left the bar and went to our apartment… about how redefine is a failure and that sucks and about how i am jobless and that sucks and about how i am over here having fun having parents pay for rent and it’s just bad news bears. :/ it’s not like a job or money is a measure of a person, but they are necessary things.
josh came back a few days ago from iraq + other places… he brought some videos from iraq. some kinda interesting stuff and some kind of meh stuff. it’s crazy though — very much like you see in the movies and shit. :X oh well. anyway. more later. there’s this one missle thing called a javelin. costs 1/2 million per. we watched on this video where three were fired at this tanker in a span of like … a minute. two missed completely. the third hit. one and a half million dollars down the drain in ONE MINUTE. the other day on the news there was a story about how 12 schools were being cut to save 12 million or something. in the bigger picture, 12 million means fuck shit. seriously. as far as the government is concerned? 12 million ain’t shit. that’s freaking 24 missles. that’s it.
war is a tricky thing. it’s easy to say you’re against war and against fighting. i am against fighting… in an everyday, practical purpose. but i think that there is a fine line when it comes to war. i believe war IS necessary, although it is a last resort. it IS in fact noble in some cases, but it’s hard to direct that many soldiers and that many commanders into following the rules and making it the way that it should be all the time. talking to josh about it has put a lot of perspective into it. i’ve always had the thought that hey, you should respect the troops even if you’re against war. most people join for the college money or because they don’t know what they’re doing with their lives. they consider it a job… a job that all of their training leads up to. it’s like when you train all your life for a sport and you finally get into the olympics or some kind of shit. war is an especially strange thing — especially with its mob mentalities and what not. but i think that people who are quick to dispel war should consider… well, what alternative is there? sometimes there ARE alternatives. but not always.
it’s another one of life’s anomalies… no easy answers or solutions. in a recent conversation (probably a couple weeks ago) with andy [crossett], we talked about how the u.s.a. really isn’t that bad. it’s terrible and there are shitloads of conspiracies and cover-ups and secret government fuck-ups. and it IS fucked up. but the truth is although there are probably places better than the u.s., the majority of the world’s people are WORSE off. we’re lucky… really, we are. and i’ve made it a personal philosophy to try and refrain from saying defaming things about the united states… at least, not to the extreme… not the type of shit you’d find on bumper stickers and shit. cause yeah. even though there’s tons of fucked up shit, we’re lucky.
but then you can go off about how as a developed country, the u.s. might need to be a better leader… and there, it might possibly be true. one of these days — possibly when the u.s. is no longer the superpower — i think things might be better. who knows, though.