f for fantasy!
i’m listening to… — “never” bai boys ii men <~ beautiful, beautiful, beautiful song… >__< it’s on repeat, repeat, repeat on ahramdawuh’s asianavenue page. ^__^
i feel… — alright.
DAVE LEE, ON MY SAYING I’M GOING TO STOP DROPPING E:
“what’s next? you’re going to do F? and instead of ecstasy, it’s fantasy.”
1:34 am — =) slept in today past church… =) surprisingly, my parents didn’t wake me up. well, actually, they tried, but i slept through their attempts numerous numerous times. haha. man, i’m still so sore from friday night that i can’t even move when i’m sleeping… i just lie there like a log >__<; sadness. need to work out more -__-;; went to meet up with sherry, tin-win, karen and jeanette at the mall… like old times… but… not like old times at all. -__-; i feel quite distant from everyone. weird. >__< bought a whole shietload of clothes. heh. i went to the mall to buy a father’s day present and resurfaced with NOTHING… dad’s are so hard to buy for -__-; but yeah, i spent like $100 on clothes from pac-sun and old navy =X sadness. i’ve never bought so many clothes at a time in my life. i’m pretty sure i haven’t. so… no more shopping for the rest of break, duuuude. cept maybe just those two cd’s i must buy. ^__^;
went out to dinner for father’s day at this chinese place… ugh… last time we went it was hella good but this time it was seriously whatevers… i prefer homecooking a lot more than restaurant food when i’m home, duuude… so much better. heh. my dad was saying how he hates how people at his work end every sentence with “dude” and i’m like… “i do that!” -__-;; somehow my DAD ended up paying for dinner… uhhhh, yeah, that is pretty retarded. -__-;; afterwards just met up with phil [nho] and dave [lee] and we went to get some ice cream and rented “men of honor” and they came over to watch it… heh… and dave saw his old sweater in my garage with all these black marks from wiping our cars and stuff… i guess my mom found the sweater and asked my brother and my dad if it was theirs and they said it wasn’t and they just made it a rag… and turns out it was dave’s sweater that is now our car rag. hehheh. freaking funny. and my mom started explaining that whole situation to dave and phil in chinese and i’m like… “uhhhh mom… they’re korean.” and she’s like “oh yeah!” hehe… hecka funny. ^__^; finally finished that movie… my third time watching it but first time finishing it. i like it. i don’t think the other two kids liked it much >__<; oh well… poo on them! >__<
i’ve come to the conclusion that all the weird personality quirks people have have explanations behind them…? random. but anyway, i think it’s so funny how some people can be so anti-drug and anti-everything-typically-bad but be hornballs. hehe. i don’t know - it’s just funny to me… cause to me drugs are more whatevers than sex… i guess. if that even makes sense.
man… phil [wu] gets to go to japan for internship in the summer. that fucking lucky fuck! >__< i wish to goeth… >__< sadness. oh well. i’ve come to conclude that i really don’t care for talking to new people online… bleh. so pointless. -__-; and i seriously hate random AA people who IM! O_o; they’re usually freakydeaky yo. =T ah, i miss that guy -__-; aht. more randomness: my brother is crazy dude… i don’t see how i can be so extremely passive about everything and he gets super psychotic (like i’m-going-to-beat-him-up-and-shoot-him-and-kill-him kind of psychotic) over the littlest, most minute details. strange. people are weird dude.
as i watch the sun highlight your midas touch
conscious light gets through somehow
i always fail to notice i’m heading for the ground
has desire found a shady avenue?
standing above, below me
and i always fail to notice
yet, i always fail to notice
and if we doubt we can hardly hope to shine
and the sun could eventually be outshone
always running down the way up
and you’re standing there
* BT - RUNNING DOWN THE WAY UP *
hmm not sure what it means. i think i know, but who knows.