damn uw!
* songs of the moment * — “say it” bai voices of theory [r&b], “send me an angel” bai thrice [trance], “jigsaw” bai j-majik [drum’n'bass], “peurijeum” bai lee junghyun [korean], “keep it up” bai j&r project [trance], “torn” bai natalie imbruglia [pop-rock], “leap of faith” bai michelle branch [pop-rock] <~ i wanna get her cd or something because i think it’d be good =T
* mood * — eh.
9:45 am — so dude me and sherry were talking last night about all sorts of interesting stuff… =T like… soulmates… are they “romantic” soulmates or can they be just friends? someone who i guess in a sense completes you? does everyone meet their soulmates? cause we all know they don’t necessarily end UP with their soulmates (if they exist). blah. and… do you ever wonder if people get married and grow old together and don’t even love each other but just stay together for convenience? or… how many of your friends you are just friends with because you were in the same group together, but if you were to meet them seperately, you would have never been friends with them? O.o? just some interesting questions, i guess. i guess it’s cool for these washington people i’ve been hanging out with though… because i met everyone seperately. hehe. so… to get along with them is not because i was forced to, but because i chose to. and vice versa. hehe. anyways, man… i was thinking… i don’t think my parents (for example) really LOVE each other anymore… that’s pretty fucking sad yo… spending your life with someone just because. -__-; i really hope i end up getting married to someone i can spend the rest of my life with and be truly happy with. man, that’s such a mind-boggling thought, yo… i cannot wait to find a person who i can spend my whole life with and NOT get sick of. someone who i can see everyday and not get tired of. does such a person even exist? sigh. that’s… amazing to me. to have that much love or respect for someone to be able to live a lifestyle like that. ah, yes, i think claire’s mom said… after a while (in marriage), it’s no longer the initial puppy love that existed but more of a respect thing as the reason that you stay together. =T sad, but i guess understandable. maybe that’s why people cheat… because it gets so monotonous. -__- sad. quite. people suck blah.
that makes me think of another question someone mentioned before… i think it was allen [ma]. do people love others because they’re selfish and want the love in return… or is it because they TRULY love the other person? i guess he was saying there are very very few people who would fervently love someone if they knew there were absolutely no chance of being with that person. i don’t know what i think about that, but just thought i’d pose another unanswerable question. but it sort of makes sense. haha then again when i think of someone who likes my homeboy chol then i start thinking in some instances, person a could like person b although person b is a super duper dick to person a… so… i guess that’s not being selfish? do i even make sense at all? oh well.
4:53 pm — so dude… i got my room assignment for next year! i fucking got assigned to MERCER. that’s like… THE WORST… it doesn’t get any worse than fucking ghetto (no fabulous even) mercer. i’d rather live in haggett even, dude! -__- it sucks so bad at mercer. it’s far, it has no food, it’s ghetto. it sucks ass. it’s like a brick prison thing. sucks ass. sucks ASS, i tell you. i refuse to live there! i demand a room change! >__< we didn’t even chooooooose mercer at all. i think it’s because terry and mccarty doesn’t have that many double rooms and we requested a double. shit, oh well, if that’s the case, i want to live in mcmahon man. freaking whackass. -__- damn uw! anyways. me and eva (my roomie for next year) decided that we’re gonna go for mcmahon… because i really like it and they’re remodeling the whole place for next year with new furniture and new cafeteria and everything. so it should be pretty nice =T we did make a promise that we’d make an effort to know anyone on our floor, though, since what is good about terry in the first place was the socializing. if we can get to know everyone in mcmahon too, then it would be the same thing. we’ll see how that works out! heh. =)
man… i don’t know what i’m doing. i’m fucking up in school immensely… sigh. i need to find myself some motivation. blah. usc 6 is going to be my last time dropping. i don’t think i mentioned that in here yet o.O;; actually, i kind of don’t even care for dropping at that, but i feel as though i need a last time cause i feel weird just stopping now. -__-; honestly… hmm, maybe i won’t drop. i feel really stupid… -__-; it may be the e… or it may be just me. but i know something is off. -__-
8:01 pm — this is proof that i spend too much time on the computer. ah, well. so, tony had this idea to delete everyone on his aim buddy list to see who actually im’s him… and say fuck it to all the rest of the people. i actually think it’s a damn good idea dude. there’s so many people on my buddy list i don’t even really talk to but i just keep on there just because. plus, it’ll be easier to sort out which groups i put people in this way. right now, half of my people on my buddy list are “my nikkaz” when they aren’t. =P wOo. should be interesting. watch, by the end of the month i’ll have like five people. -__-;
2:23 am — blah just got back from ballard firehouse with seungbum, chol, [kimchi-]john, josh, ben, and jessica. blah. all trance. we got there at around 11 almost… i was bored out of my mind. oh well. i really do need to take a break. no raving til usc6 foshizzle. shoulda just stayed at home like i had originally planned. blah. oh wells. i did finally get the nice usc6 flyers though… THICK ones… woo =) i really am sooo freaking excited for that night. i cannot wait. ah jea this afternoon i went to help the lambda lil sis sell patbinsoo (shaved ice… baobing) in front of the hub for the asian student thing at uw… it was whatevers. my first lil sis event in a LONG time, that’s for sure… because i am one of only three of the lil sis who have food permits, that’s why. whatever. very little respect the lil sis have from people dude… because people think it’s a bunch of girls who just sit around and do things for the guys (the lambdas). not true. but i guess i don’t really know the REAL point. to establish brother and sister-like relationships? yeah… but i don’t think that such a relationship can REALLY be achieved… well perhaps. but i think only if the people knew each other beforehand. i don’t know if that makes sense. it’s just that… yes… the intentions may be there, but it really depends on what kind of people the bro and sis are and if they really are two people who would get along that well outside of such an organization. don’t know if that makes sense. don’t know if i want you lambda-affiliated family people to respond either. -__-;; so don’t, unless there is a passionate flame burning inside you and you cannot squash it. =P
i can take you away from here
so lonely inside, so busy out there
and all you wanted was somebody who cares
* MICHELLE BRANCH - ALL YOU WANTED *