mmm they’re so good at showing tits- i mean news. i particularly like the playboy mansion story, rofls. and the spring break killer. HAHAHAHA. w0w.
“definitely use the buddy system!!!!!!”
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so i watch “so you think you can dance” and on it, yesterday, wade robson (super cool dude) choreographed this anti-war routine. everyone was fine with it, and they commented on it as a good routine, etc. etc.
but today is the “aftermath” — the show where people get kicked off, and evidently, one of the judges, mia michaels, was wearing a jacket yesterday that had an upside-down military emblem and that greatly offended the military. so she had to make a public apology. evidently, that’s what she said on television, but REALLY, the sentiment behind it was that non-military personnel should not be able to wear military-emblemed things (read an article at us magazine). this shit is so stupid.
and now all of a sudden they’re saying wade’s routine was BORING by the fifth time they saw it (why is it okay to say that today but not yesterday? how rude), and it was inappropriate because it was an anti-war routine and no one should be anti-war, etc. etc. what fucking bullshit. this is what happens in a society where the powers that be govern everything you do, i suppose. suddenly he can’t create this anti-war dance because it is such a dangerous thing, and oh, all of a sudden “no one is FOR war… but different wars are fought for different reasons so we should tolerate people’s opinions” yet they cannot tolerate his opinion to create a dance that is anti-war. it’s just stupid.
maybe the fact that it was on fucking fox had something to do with it. what trash.
i just needed to say that wade robson is like the best choreographer ever. mia michaels is pretty good too. but anyway. i thought he was lame on the “wade robson project” and he’s an OK dancer but his choreography is amazing… these are all lifted off of “so you think you can dance”… so yeah. but yeah.
hok & jamie — jazz. he’s a bird and she’s a flower?
zombie dance.
lauren and neil — horror movie stylee!
so again, best choreographer ever?!!
i swear “so you think you can dance?” is rigged, though. last year’s champion and his cousin both made it to the finals. hm, strange. then this year his sister is NEVER in danger. hm, strange. RIGGED!!!!!!!!
am watching late night informercials in the background while playing zuma. this guy’s informercial came on, and i don’t know if the product actually works or not, but whatever it is, it’s just funny because his commentary is like this:
“last night, i ate pizza, pasta, ice cream, etc.”
(he listed at least two other things in the beginning.) first off, that’s funny in and of itself because damn, this guy’s cure is supposed to surpress hunger and he still can eat that much in one sitting?!!!
but later on, he says, “last night, i ate pot roast and mashed potatoes… and a sundae…”
lol, it changed?!?!! why did it change so fast!! damn, you are a pig, mr. trudeau.
anyway, found some ratings on the book which you can find at http://www.infomercialratings.com/product/the_weight_loss_cure_reviews.
i like the feature on that website where you can vote on whether you think a review is “real” or “fake”. clever, although it probably doesn’t do much in the long run anyhow!
here’s his before and after pic too, just for amusement’s sake:
he almost looks fake, but maybe that’s just what overweight sweaty people look like?!!
watching the tv show “cheaters” currently, where people follow around a cheater and see what they do. there’s a lady on there who works at subway. they called her a “sandwich artist.” talk about a euphimism.
i thought of a lot more earlier today, but i don’t remember right now!
i had a dream that tom cruise was seducing me last night. i don’t even like tom cruise!
listening to — “soul train” on tv hahahah.
1:35 am — let me tell you, dudes and dudettes… there is nothing like old school “soul train”. the shit fucking rocks your pants off. reminds me of the times when i used to go to sleep listening to javier the xman on wild 94.9 haha. man, he was awesome. but then he left. to go to los angeles because of some internal crap. and i was sad. i even wrote him an e-mail saying, “sorry to see you go, your show is the best, blahblahblah”… it was a show that played nothing but slow jamz and my gawt it was awesome. so i stopped listening to 94.9 as much, and eventually javier came back, so i should start listening to it again 
but now the doghouse has left as well… so old 94.9 just isn’t so good anymore 
so yeah i haven’t made much tangible art stuff lately, but yesterday i went to the downtown seattle art walk (first thursday of every month, all the galleries are open for perusal), and it was umm, inspiring? in a way? i guess? this has always been my theory — that artists just need to be confident in themselves. lots of artists do things that i could do, but i would never think of pawning it off as art, would never think it is good enough for people to own or to love. and i guess that’s the major difference — that those people really believe in their own work. so i’m thinking… i could probably do that. i really wish i had gone to art school, but it’s a little too late for that now (is it?)
instead, i’ve been trying to reclaim whatever minimal art skill i have (at least in the fine arts) and trying to make physical manifestations of things. we’ll see how that goes. i actually drew something today that i like, but i kind of screwed it up when i was trying to overlay it with paper (hard to explain). but now i guess i will just transfer it and make it smaller and paint it…? lenny bought a pack of 3 canvasses — one for me, one for him, and one for andy [crossett], so that we can each paint a painting for our apartment. we’ll see when that happens.
saw death cab for cutie tonight @ key arena. it really wasn’t that exciting, to be honest. they’re not very good live. i think i will be forever satisfied with having seen them once. the decemberists, on the other hand, were about 10,000 times better. i’m pretty sure guns n’ roses, who i’m seeing tomorrow, will also be a ton better. also playing with death cab tonight was jenny lewis & the watson twins (the watson twins were sOoOo lame) and ted leo and the pharmacists, but unfortunately i missed them. sadddddfaceeee.
saw mel gibson’s movie, “apocalypto”, yesterday. it was entertaining. i wouldn’t say good, and his action fighting sequences were fucking terrible as hell (terrible camerawork), but the movie itself was entertaining because it was… funny. people say it’s gory, but the way people died was just funny — kind of like how people died in “a history of violence” — bad in real life, funny in the movies. perhaps that is a terrible thing. but unfortunately, i still find it funny.
couple days ago i put together a 1 hour showcase for some people from new york who were “trend finders”, and they had this lady named susan, who was convinced that seattle was a new hotspot. so i had to find two bands for her, and have them each play a half hour or so, and then do a q&a afterwards. it went well. had john [gillanders]’ band play and this other guy’s band, who i got off craig’s list. they’re called the GIANT KILLER ROBOTS! the guy helped me find a venue too, which was very nice. $250 pay for it. wewt.
i remember random strangers used to always find my journal through search engines. wonder if they still do.
listening to — this show on ABC.
i’m watching this show on ABC and they put people in this weird ass situations like if you’re in a restaurant and there’s loud ass people… or if u get into a cab and the cab driver starts being all homophobic what you would do. lenny and andy [crossett] are adamant in saying they dont know what they would do. but i dont have any doubt what i would do in either of those situations and i guess i am curious as to why other people dont know. is it cause they dont know themselves? or do they really think fate is that much bigger than they are? or is it something else?
in the case of the homophobia, i’d say something in a fucking second. in the case of loud people, i really don’t give a damn. had it happen before, and it’s all gravy. makes for interesting eavesdropping material, anyway. i love to eavesdrop.
i’m listening to… discovery channel and some thing on area 51.
i’m feeling… okie.
12:32 am — this thing on area 51 is showing their satellite photos over the course of years… and how it has expanded and been remodeled over time. so clearly something is there?!
lalala. i was going to say something, but i don’t remember
today is lenny and my 5…?-month anniversary? i thought today was the 9th. it is in fact the 8th. well, technically the 9th now since it’s 12:38 am, but whatever. didn’t really feel like anything special. lazy day — yes, yet another. felt quite blah. our times spent together towards the last… week have felt… uninspired.
i posted a link on this website with a video on the CIA’s remote viewing experiment, saying i thought it was real. this guy responded with a link to this website saying that, hey, this website talks about it, and penn and teller said it wasn’t real, so it’s bullshit. what makes me fucking livid is that i actually read this website, and i don’t really think that he did. there’s virtually nothing in this article that says remote viewing does NOT work. and that’s bullshit. what a fucking idiot… sending me a link to prove that i’m full of shit when in fact the article attaches truth to my claim. what a dipshit. that just makes me mad. that he is so out to prove someone wrong that he finds a link that has the results he thinks will be there (even when it doesn’t), doesn’t take the time to read it, and just posts it like an idiot.
anyway. last night before going to lenny’s house, i stopped by albertson’s to get some milk and mushrooms for making risotto. unfortunately, i didn’t know albertson’s was closed. these two little emo bitches who look like my chemical romance fans were being hella rude, saying, “it’s clooosed,” in this weird voice, but i didn’t hear them. so i was like, “oh it’s closed?” when they finally said it, and one of the guys was just hella laughing, saying, “i can’t believe…” blahblahblah. so either he was laughing at 1) me not hearing them a bunch of times, or 2) my clothes, since i was wearing these hideously awesome pajamas. either way, it made me mad, which is stupid, unfortunately, but i was already in not that great of a mood, and it didn’t really help. i just fucking hate it when people are jackasses. makes everything feel like shit to know that people are just that fucking bored and shitty. i’ve been mean plenty in my life, but that was a long time ago, and i have since learned to at least try and make an attempt at being more civil and respectable. douches.
tonight i went with alex and andy [crossett] to eat wings at romio’s. there was really no one there but us when we got there. in fact, it was really kind of eerie since no one was around. but nevertheless, we went in anyways. got 40 wings, although the guy thought it was 20. then he accidentally entered it into the computer as 10. so he brought us 10, then 10 more, and then 20 more. rofls. narb. but he tried to be nice, so it’s all good. anyways, at some point, this guy came in and i didn’t even notice him come in, but he approaches us with a dime and asks us to flip a coin for him because he wants to, “see something.” i would have done it, but i suck at flipping them, so we kinda waited around til andy decided to do it. the guy told him to call it in the air, and andy called heads. it was tails. the guy said, “well, that’s strange,” and said, “you guys have won this coin and your tab.” we were mostly just surprised. not everyday does someone do that. so i asked him, “why?” and he just said, “random.” that’s good enough of a reason for me, although it’s a strange one. so i don’t know why it is good enough ;D anyways he told us that it was an open tab and we could order whatever we want. we didn’t order anything else, though. at some point he left, and all of us were like, wtf, and the waiter was saying how he was drunk. i guess he has come in there a few times and bought people meals for no apparent reason. later, he came back with a bum, and fed him dinner. good shit.
alex and andy found it a little strange. they initially thought the guy was asking us to flip a coin so he could decide if he wanted to kill himself later or something. i don’t know. i never thought it was weird, and “random” was a good enough reason for me. it doesn’t really make sense to me. it’s sad, though, that someone could do a good deed and it makes people freaked out just cause it is a good deed. i’ll admit, he wasn’t the most clean-cut, unshady looking guy i’ve ever seen, but i’m sure he has good, if not great, intentions. i don’t find these inexplicable good deeds as things that should cause us to be freaked out. i don’t think that people don’t have a good reason behind it. if anything, it’s inspiring that people would go out on a limb and do something nice for no particular reason. like those people who pay for your toll when they’re the car in front of you. everything is really just nice, and i don’t think these people really have a conscience to clear (as andy suggested) or that they have an ulterior motive. is it really that weird to do something nice for no reason? maybe that’s what makes some people feel right. while the bum was ordering food, he was just sitting at the bar with some gOofy smile on his face. later, he went to sit with him. the smile made me think it just made him feel good. if only these things didn’t always make people so scared. how cynical is society? man.
sometime in this past week lenny and i went to this restaurant in wallingford — some mediteranean food place. it tasted alright. the guy was really nice though; he was the owner, cook, waiter… rofls. he said his help was late. too bad. we were the only ones in the restaurant. so many restaurants and shops… so few people. sometimes i wonder how these places stay open. it seems so hard. seems like yet another difficult dream to start up. :[ sad.
i’m watching this thing on the discovery channel now about the “bermuda triangle,” and this guy is not a believer in it, so he is dedicating his life to proving it wrong. seems so… pointless to me. but i guess it’s getting him on tv, so yeah. i’d much rather be proving it right, than to not know and say it is wrong right off the bat. but i guess i’m drawn to stupid shit like that that has no definite answer.
people in our apartment want to assign everyone dishes since some people aren’t doing theirs. that seems a little silly to me. i dunno, i’ve done sinkloads of other people’s dishes before… and people have done mine. and i don’t really see what the big deal is. maybe if someone had nasty dishes all the time and NEVER did them, but maybe that person just needs to be bitched at more. shrug. i’m willing to try the idea — why not — but i definitely, definitely do think that it’s silly.
i was having a weird headache for the past couple of days in the back of my head, but it’s mostly gone now. fantastic!
i borrowed “40 year old virgin” from jesse who borrowed it from blockbuster. excellent. oh yes, within recent times i watched “crash,” which was pretty excellent… well, some parts were anyway, and “the island” (did i already mention this?) “the island” is particularly weird because no one really watched it, but most people who have watched it (i heard people talking about it at this blockbuster too before) think it’s not so bad. so mind-boggling. and “king kong”? not sure if i mentioned that either, but some parts were excellent, and some parts were not. the movie as a whole was too long, though. not really my bag of chip movie. i want to see some movie that i saw on the tv yesterday, even though it has elijah wood. it’s called, um… “everything is illuminated” — looks visually pretty cool.
i’m listening to… SUFJAN STEVENS for teh win.
i’m feeling… not too shabby bobby!
10:57 pm
december 20th — my birthday! had kind of a bad, unproductive day all day until i went to pick up sherry with andy [crossett] @ like 9pm wheeeheehee. when she got here, people started coming over @ around 10… it was kind of a last-minute birthday gathering so it was like me, farm, arlen, lewis, gareth, hojo, jennie, chol, cynthia, nate [davis], daniel [kim], sherry, crossett, and ummm lenny came later. alex [bennett] unfortunately was in boston at the time 8[ !! farm made jello shots and bought me a cake, and it was g00t. although purple jello shots are no good, and neither are the reds, and i think the oranges are best. xD played a little “mario party” and waluigi has this taunt that says, “you’re lousy!” and peter and hojo kept saying he was saying, “you’re learning!” so that if parents walked into the room, they’d think the kids were up to something good. rofls. mostly i just got a weeee bit drunk, but i felt kinda sick, so i stopped. fruit + alcohol mixes usually aren’t too good, but that was OK i guess. jennie and cynthia brought me a tin can filled with random crap like paper clips, rubber bands, duct tape, etc. and had a card that said “what would… MACGUYVER DO?” rofls. lewis also saw that on my buddy list i had tiered people. keep in mind that this was from SOPHOMORE year… probably like the beginning of it, and i haven’t changed it in years. i don’t even know what the categories mean anymore, rofls. i had one that said “expendable,” which in retrospect, is quite mean, although true. but the other was “ifitmakesyouhappi,” which… i don’t even know wtf that means.
december 21st — sherry had wanted to go to the aquarium, so me, her, crossett, and lenny went. before that, we went to eat at this japanese restaurant. it was alright this time. finally went to the pirate store, and it was not as exciting as i had imagined, although they had the ’seattle’ version of the ‘new york’ puzzle that lenny gave me. but other than that, and some fake teeth, it was hardly exciting. went to the aquarium and a baby otter had just been birthed! HOORAH!!! it was so cute… they just like lie on the mommy’s stomach all day and the mommy swims it around. LUCKY. that’s the fucking life, dude! hmm it was alright! there’s this one room of the aquarium where they have a bunch of different animals… lots of fish and sharks and stingrays and stuff… and i guess there used to be an octopus in it, but it’d be eating sharks at night when no one was around. finally they watched it, and it was eating them! so they had to get rid of it. you can tell the animals want to escape, cause they can’t feed sea otters shit in shells (despite how they normally crack open all their foods and eat em) cause i guess one of the sea otters before took a small rock and kept pounding away at the window everyday til finally it broke one day rofls. poor aminals. 8[ as cute as they are, i don’t think i’d ever want a pet other than a cat or a dog (because they’re used to be domestic)… even if it means never having a turtle — or even worse, a monkey 8[ after the aquarium that night, sherry and i started putting together a puzzle that lenny had bought me for my birthday. worked on it for like 3 hours, then went to dante’s bar with crossett, hojo, and gareth for trivia night. we sucked balls. our name was “bob lablaw’s law blog,” from “arrested development.” GOOD SHIT, YO. probably the funniest part from the show lately, really :0 the only question i knew (for some reason) was that the capital of columbia was bogota. how useless. :0 man, and sherry is the epitome of lethargic. we’d go to the aquarium (that she SUGGESTED we go to), and she’d be like, “i’m tired.” we’d eat @ a restaurant, and she’d be like, “i’m tired.” we’d go to the bar and she’d be like, “i’m tired.” we’d be sitting around in my apartment, and she’d be like, “i’m tired.” WTF!
december 22nd — worked on the puzzle some more with sherry and we went to four seasons to eat lunner (lunch + dinner). yummy. then went to visit lenny at work and brought him some food. got a mouth guard from walgreen’s for fucking $23, and sherry bought “the clapper” for her cousin, rofls. $20. who’da thunk they still made those things!! i bet my parents would like it, but they don’t move enough as it is. sherry got picked up by her cousin, and i worked on some christmas presents and later that night lenny came over and we just hung out and worked on the puzzle some more, but he has a short attention span
december 23rd — hmm, did nothing much during the daytime except for hung around and finished the puzzle and watched tv. finishing the puzzle took like 3 hours, with a grand total of like… 10 hours or something. at least. at least it looks good in completion. it’s a puzzle of 1,000 pieces of new york city. tony and tammy [vu] dropped by, and i went with them to my neighbor’s, and we just watched a bit of TV. boring. that’s really all they were doing when i got there — watching tv and drinking. we watched “best of the best,” some lame kung fu movie i’ve never seen :0 hurrah, old school, and it’s lame ass kung fu movies! went home, packed my bags. lenny came over and brought me some fat eats (romio’s chicken wings, which are yummy, although the wings themselves look demented) and some salted trout that he fried. yummy. we watched “the island,” which seemed like quite the high-budget movie. directed by michael bay and it was a warner bros. picture. really quite weird to me that no one watched it, cause it seems along the likes of “minority report,” although i liked “minority report” much better. still, it looked cool, and it had big stars (ewan mcgregor and scarlet johansen), an insane amount of product placement, and an african guy who turned from bad to good! all of the pieces of an excellent movie, omg. shrug. really though, i don’t get why no one watched it. yar.
december 24th — lenny dropped me off @ the airport at like 11:15, and my flight was @ 12, although slightly delayed or slow or something. slept the whole ways. got home, bummed around a little, and my godparents came over. exchanged parents (they gave me $300, i got their daughter a paint set and got them a photography book that freakin r0x!!!). had a dinner table conversation — that, as always — somehow goes back to business. and I STILL HATE BUSINESS. i know that i want to run one, but i just hate the logistics of the shit. i just want to be able to do whatever and be OK. X__X we watched “kung fu hustle,” and it was OK, some parts were quite funny, and i appreciate the way that they made everything cartoon-like… but still not my kind of movie, really. i just really liked the part where steven chow beats up everyone in the ax gang. that was funny. but everything else was mostly OK. my mom hated the movie and thought NOTHING was funny. she never finds those kinds of movies funny :0 don’t think my godmother did either. interesting!
oh god lenny’s mom thinks that he shouldn’t date people unless he’s planning on marrying them!! ohnoes, she asked him if he’s gonna marry me and have kids with me… DANGERRRRRRRRR!! DANGER.
merry xmas everyone! or whatever it is you celebrate (this PROBABLY only applies to liz!)
i’m listening to… eminem, nonpoint.
1:19 am - for those who don’t know, eminem is done. he’s over with. he’s done.
anyway. went to the hellogoodbye show yesterday with cynthia and lenny, but lenny was a boob and left early. the show was freakin awesome.
the opening bands were houston calls and jamisonparker. houston calls is whatever. mediocre. jamisonparker is better but still mediocre. but the two guys who are actually in the band (they tour with two additional ones) are freakin hot, so they got all sortsa girls goin nuts for them. the rocket summer was next… they’re co-headliners with hellogoodbye, but yeah. bryce is nuts. super happy. so happy. it’s almost freakish.
hellogoodbye is my god. to copy and paste from xanga:
“i like down-to-earth celebrities. i hate the ones that are jackasses. if a musician is a jackass or boring (ie: hot hot heat), there is much respect lost. OH YEAH.
i’m watching “surreal life” right now. carey hart ROCKS. he’s hot, and he’s just a nice dude. jose conseco is in the house and everyone is freaking out cause he went to jail and used steroids… whatever. and carey hart’s just like, “i don’t care what they’re saying because i’m assuming he’s past all that, and i just want to make an opinion for myself.” it’s good. and while everyone else is being dramatical, he’s just like… washing dishes. lol. i really… really like people who just don’t give a fuck. it’s so zen omg!
most of the time, you can tell within the first few minutes if a person is going to be a jackass.
a couple of other people… like this one girl janice… supposedly the first supermodel ever… she’s like, “WE STILL WANNA KNOW HOW YOU GOT DISCOVERED PEPA (salt n’ pepa’s pepa),” and then she just ignores her and starts checking out jose conseco’s arms and shit… and saying, “who wants to do it in the phone booth first?” wow what a bitch. I HATE BITCHES.
yesterday was the hellogoodbye show. they’re cool cause they’re goofy, but on top of that, they set up their own equipment. i hate when bands have people do their sound check for them. do you REALLY need people to do that!! it’s so stupid. how how and mighty are you? but it’s so rare to find a band that actually does that themselves… so hellogoodbye… so much respect. so much! especially since they’re like big enough to have their own headlining tour and stuff, and they still do it all themselves.”
yeah. they’re awesome. the last some was “touchdown turnaround” (not including encore) and they bust out water guns and inflatable blow-up props and stuff and diving into the crowd. it rocked. forrest is cute. not physically. just mannerismly. rawr.
after the show i stopped by to talk to bryce of trs real quick… and it was awkward. basically it was like this:
v - hi bryce, i just wanted to say hi to you since i interviewed you a few months ago (i left some copies @ the table prior to the show).
b - was it this?
v - yeah.
b - i remember that.
v - cool.
(silence)
v - good show.
b - what?
v - nice show.
b - thanks.
v - you’re so happy!
b - *shrug…
and that was that. i guess you don’t really have anything to say to “you’re so happy!” but usually they say SOMETHING else. yeah. so i just left real quick cause he wasn’t making me happy
today was a day of basically nothing except for dropping off mags / putting resumes and press kits together. boring.