inside the wonderful world of vee

i’m listening to… marilyn manson.
i’m feeling… kkk.

9:02 pm — hmmm strange when life is at such a lull that you don’t feel like you have worthwhile to say. it’s not bad or anything… it’s just…? repetative? i don’t know… shit happens, but writing about it seems pointless. wonder if this worthless feeling is caused by period… it usually is. being a girl sucks. the poh-leez are raging outside our window… there sounds like a buttload of them. wonder what the dilly on the haps.

why is it so easy for people to find new things and move on! guess i’m feeling the feeling of being left behind, since i used to do it so much. guess everything really does move in circles. or some shit.

ah the days of watching marilyn manson videos in our dorm room - cause they’re fucking awesome. i don’t care what you hear about marilyn… don’t knock it until you’ve heard it. cause there are some fucking awesome songs.

a pill to make you numb,
a pill to make you dumb,
a pill to make you anybody else.
but all the drugs in this world
won’t save her from herself.
MARILYN MANSON - COMA WHITE.

i’m listening to… “seeing red” bai unwritten law [rock], “flake” bai jack johnson [rock].
i’m feeling… rather bor(ed/ing).

7:40 pm — haha this is so sad… i have no computer >__<;; so i’m just sitting here, invading eva’s laptop which is impossible to type on -__-; damn laptop keyboards, i swear! oh welps. no matter. came back to seattle from california. must say that i did not wish to leave to go back to seattle, but i had to anyway. -__-; i mean i like seattle but after being at home too long i kind of just want to sit around all day, relax, watch tv… that sort of ish. unfortunately, me and eva do not have a television in our dorm room. sad day. quite. so! chol picked me up from the airport with his cousin and another lil kid… hehe. =T we met up with seungbum, erica, josh, janine, and jamie and went to naf for the last naf party forever - apex. it was alright. actually it was really really fun for the first half for me… good music and all that ish (some dope ass breaks ^__^). and then it just got really boring, i was so tired, and i was just freaking aching all over. -__-; felt like an old grandma -__-; sad day. but yeah. and then the only other sober people there who were around left early (the only sober people being sam [poulton], grace, and joe) and then i was even further more bored. and then i got hit on by people whom are strange and it just was no good. ended up taking a nap i was so bored. -__-; welps, moved into my dorm a little… but not really. the clustermates seem (for the most part) pretty cool. the RA is a fucking ass though who has no people skills. -__-; more on that later. bye ~

i’m listening to… “why do i feel so sad?” bai alicia keys [r&b], “almost doesn’t count” bai brandy [r&b]
i’m feeling… amused beyond compare… hahahaha.

2:50 pm — HAHAHA omg haha. imo, i just found out some really interesting shit about one of my friends that i did not know at all… lololol. haha… i am so amused. and surprised. and horribly amused. interesting how people are. hahaha. imo… talk about 180… or seemingly. so i guess everyone does have secrets eh? hahaha. hahaha. hooha.

anyways, no more posting for today. from now on is the time to study / do laundry / take a shower / clean my room / pack my shit / study. study. study. time to sign offline and all that good ‘productive’ (possibly) ish. byeee ^_~ amused beyond compare. serious. what’s more: finally knowing that i am / have been right… lololol. i knew i was always right. heh.

7:26 pm — eh okay some faggot just called and i picked up (and it was my dorm phone — no one ever calls my dorm phone) and he was like, “hello?” and i was like, “who is this?” and he’s like “this is a guy whose about to cum hearing your voice.” ehhh… *hang up. fucking bored people. -__-;

i’m listening to… — “memories” bai tasha [korean], “change” bai good charlotte [rock], “heart-shaped box” bai nirvana [rock], “clockwork dawn” bai darkhalo [drum’n'bass]
i’m feeling… eh.

1:51 pm — i am so sick of kicking it… i just want some time to be a hermit and to be alone.

me and sherry compiled a list of things we have to do when i return to cali:
+ go to the sf museum of modern art
+ go camping
+ play board games drunk
+ be homeless for a day (heh)
+ smoke weed and draw while having our odd talks
+ create a music search engine (yeah right)
+ go to the goo goo dolls / third eye blind / vanessa carlton concert
… well at least the last one guarantees we’ll do one of the things on our list >__<

and i have my own list of things to do:
+ read chuck palaniuk’s “choke” and “survivor” (he’s the author of fight club)
+ read alice sebold’s “the lovely bones”
+ buy a decent camera (real? digital? i’ve not yet decided!)
+ make my own clothes. heh >__<
+ put my resume online
+ finish my godamn webpage revamp
+ get my two stupid fucks of friends chol and josh talking again -__-;
+ review the year of korean
+ review the last year of chinese
+ lay off drugs
+ eat less
+ finish my photo album
+ finish seungbum’s aa page
+ become less boring (ehhh not likely)
+ go to all my classes
+ write xinlei back
+ watch a day of television and see what kind of shit comes on. haha.
… i’m never going to do and / or finish everything. -__-

alright no more time to play! must diet, must study, must must must.

(xinlei’s response:)
i too am sick of kicking it. especially when people come over to the apt and just don’t know when to go home… and camping camping camping i don’t know what’s going on anymore. poo. and yes yes write me back you shall miss hua. and oh my goodnesses this page is spectacular spectacular! when do you find the time!!!! =) i want to see your creations when you are high like a kite. weeeee.

* songs of the moment * — “spiritual trance” bai goa gil [trance], “spaced invader” bai hatiras [d&b], “control” bai puddle of mudd [rock], “married you” bai coco lee [mandarin], “amazing kiss” bai boa [japanese]
* mood * — blah.

7:26 pm — seems like everyone’s having a hard time these days. stupid life. stupid, stupid. i dyed my hair black today. jet black. i like, but it looks a little weird because i’m so freaking pale now. damn the lack of sun in washington, yo. woo, for a little bit today it was raining and sunny. my faaavorite… fo shizzle. hehheh. i should dress in all black and be gothic now. heh. well, i like how gothic girls dress… and i love their makeup. i really think it looks good >__< i know, i’m a weirdo. but i don’t like their mentality, which is what makes them gothic in the first place. yeah, i’m not like optimistic at all… i’m super pessimistic like them, but i don’t find deathly weird shit good. -__-;; what a bad sentence. you know what i mean. i don’t write poetry about how death is so beautiful and shit. no no no. that does not work for me. anyways, i love the conditioner they give you in packages of hair dye… makes it so silky smoooooth. -__-;

anyways, i failed my economics final this morning. fuck. i need to start going to all of my classes. aigo, aigo, aigo, aigo. fucking up major. so me and eva switched dorms for next fall and we’re living in mcmahon now. she’s actually going to be living in the exact same cluster she’s living in this year. tiziiiite. nice view from the balcony yo. so nice and refreshing wOo! ^__^ and apparently it’s also good for blazing… hehheh.

so man, seriously, ALL of my friends in cali love drum’n'bass. most of them like drum’n'bass the best, even. WHAT THE HELL?! i don’t belong here (here being washington). -__-;

10:52 pm — fuck, i am so fucking fucking fucking fucked for the rest of the fucking quarter. this fucking sucks. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck bye.

* songs of the moment * — “lian shang yi ge ren” bai chris yu [mandarin], “when you say nothing at all” bai allison krauss [country], “you wouldn’t believe” bai 311 [rock], “green court” bai voodoo [trance]
* mood * — dandy, but my contacts are drying out, so it’s making me even more tired than i should be.

11:02 pm — i really did nothing today. went to sleep at around 4 am almost, and then got up at 5:45 am to register. pretty cool though! i was in the first registration wave and no one else really seemed to give a fuck about autumn quarter, so i got all the classes i want. well, sort of. i’ve been missing too much class for second year chinese so i never got to sign up on the sign-up sheet that was passed around in class for third year chinese >__<; dammit. missing too much class is no good! i think i missed a lot because we have to do oral presentations and that freaks the fuck out of me so i just don’t go to class a lot of the time (thinking about doing that for tomorrow too, but i think i will try to go >__<). i mean, shit, oral presentations are scary / hard enough in english… but in chinese?! i sound like a freaking idiot. i used to think my chinese was pretty decent, but shit! it sucks ass! i mean, compared to a lot of abc’s it’s good… but really, it sucks. it sucks much ass. how depressing. -__-;; ah, yeah, but as of now i am taking architecture 150 (appreciation of architecture - snl #1266), communications 202 (introduction to communications - snl #2399), asian international studies 210 (rise of asia - snl #7581), and sociology 220 (introduction to sociological methods - snl#7700). well, i actually think i’m going to drop the introduction to sociological methods if i can get into chinese, but yes! those snl numbers are there so you can take a class with me you bitches!!! *you know you waaaaant to* (trying to do that subliminal messaging thing, yes i am!).

aigo dude. my roommate’s eating of chex and cheesy-smelling stuff is making me want to eat. but no, i musn’t, for a diet is in need. so far, so good! well, sort of. well, the days that i don’t work, it’s fine… because i don’t eat hella shit. but when i do work, i eat so much bad sugary stuff and they always buy yummie food for dinner too… so i eat a lot even when i’m not hungry. quite bad. >__<;

so tonight i pretty much have to study like a mad crazy woman. i have an economics midterm tomorrow… which i have read about a half a chapter out of four / five chapters for, and i have to do review questions to make sure i know what the fuck i am doing. after that, i have to work on my chinese oral presentation for tomorrow - provided i even go. we’ll see, eh? -__-;;

i saw the funniest thing this afternoon when i was going downstairs to get some food. in our cafeteria, there’s a bunch of refrigerators with drinks and sandwiches and pasta and stuff… right next to the door. no workers really stand by there. so when i was walking into that room, this guy just finished shoving a whole shitload of sandwiches into his jacket and was like rushing out of there. HAHA. it was so fucking funny. if i had a camera and fast reflexes, i would have taken a picture. rather, i should have tripped him. ho ho ho. >__<;; so funny, though… especially since his jacket was fucking BULGING and it was like… the most obvious thing i’ve ever seen in my life but no one seemed to care. perhaps i should try. no one would even suspect someone who looked like me of doing anything like that… right? >P ah yes yes, stealing is good. no shame in that.

dude! all these people who are so not hot have pictures on their aa pages that make them look sooooo cute or sooooo hot. wow. amazing what pictures can do!! O.o;;; forhizzzzzzzo.

so i never really listened to the lyrics to this 311 song but let me tell you they are damn good. i love lyriks, man. poetry is good enough… but putting it to music?! man, what can be better? ^__^

he was a king til she laid waste
now he cannot fill up the space
now i just see him drifting
while he’s drifting
on bourbon alley, feeling low
just because she let him go
i don’t think he even knows
he’ll ever be fine
and he’s got a head full of ideas
let me tell ya, that you wouldn’t believe
and he’s got a heard made of pure gold
and something else, many tricks up his sleeve
you might think he’s a jester
because he’ll make you laugh until you cry
and what else, you beter come with your best
if you test him, unless you’re read to die
a million people come and go
through a person’s ebb and flow
and faces keep on changing
while they’re changing
a certain few will stay intact
first you love him, then you’re loving him not
all the while he just smiles, giving all that he’s got
do you find it in your heart to say he’s not what you sought?
* 311 - YOU WOULDN’T BELIEVE *
1:23 am — hm, fuck, so i was taking a break from studying and somehow i went through a few of the links on my website, http://www.evilmonito.com being one of them. actually, the only one, since it got me thinking. dangit… this right here is what i want to do. -__-; it is interesting in every way. stylish design… interesting articles… ugh. ideally, this would be the type of thing i’d start… but it’s such a problem since i have a hard time dealing with people. eh… i don’t know how to explain. i can talk to people fine if i’m trying to befriend them or something… but be it something serious and i just have major problems. when i was in journalism class in high school (for two years), i never interviewed a single person! believable? yes. i don’t know what’s wrong with me, really. it’s really hard for me to have initiate conversations. -__-; i’ve come to believe that may be because i am a really boring person or SOMETHING, but all i know is, it scares the fuck out of me to call people unless i am really comfortable with them. -__-; such a weirdo, i am. but yeah, now that i think about it… i don’t know what kind of shitty-ass journalist i’d be if i couldn’t even bring myself to make phone calls to interview people. sad, sad, sad. sad sad girl am i. >__< i think i am destined to a future of pointless existence.

* songs of the moment * — “say it” bai voices of theory [r&b], “send me an angel” bai thrice [trance], “jigsaw” bai j-majik [drum’n'bass], “peurijeum” bai lee junghyun [korean], “keep it up” bai j&r project [trance], “torn” bai natalie imbruglia [pop-rock], “leap of faith” bai michelle branch [pop-rock] <~ i wanna get her cd or something because i think it’d be good =T
* mood * — eh.

9:45 am — so dude me and sherry were talking last night about all sorts of interesting stuff… =T like… soulmates… are they “romantic” soulmates or can they be just friends? someone who i guess in a sense completes you? does everyone meet their soulmates? cause we all know they don’t necessarily end UP with their soulmates (if they exist). blah. and… do you ever wonder if people get married and grow old together and don’t even love each other but just stay together for convenience? or… how many of your friends you are just friends with because you were in the same group together, but if you were to meet them seperately, you would have never been friends with them? O.o? just some interesting questions, i guess. i guess it’s cool for these washington people i’ve been hanging out with though… because i met everyone seperately. hehe. so… to get along with them is not because i was forced to, but because i chose to. and vice versa. hehe. anyways, man… i was thinking… i don’t think my parents (for example) really LOVE each other anymore… that’s pretty fucking sad yo… spending your life with someone just because. -__-; i really hope i end up getting married to someone i can spend the rest of my life with and be truly happy with. man, that’s such a mind-boggling thought, yo… i cannot wait to find a person who i can spend my whole life with and NOT get sick of. someone who i can see everyday and not get tired of. does such a person even exist? sigh. that’s… amazing to me. to have that much love or respect for someone to be able to live a lifestyle like that. ah, yes, i think claire’s mom said… after a while (in marriage), it’s no longer the initial puppy love that existed but more of a respect thing as the reason that you stay together. =T sad, but i guess understandable. maybe that’s why people cheat… because it gets so monotonous. -__- sad. quite. people suck blah.

that makes me think of another question someone mentioned before… i think it was allen [ma]. do people love others because they’re selfish and want the love in return… or is it because they TRULY love the other person? i guess he was saying there are very very few people who would fervently love someone if they knew there were absolutely no chance of being with that person. i don’t know what i think about that, but just thought i’d pose another unanswerable question. but it sort of makes sense. haha then again when i think of someone who likes my homeboy chol then i start thinking in some instances, person a could like person b although person b is a super duper dick to person a… so… i guess that’s not being selfish? do i even make sense at all? oh well.

4:53 pm — so dude… i got my room assignment for next year! i fucking got assigned to MERCER. that’s like… THE WORST… it doesn’t get any worse than fucking ghetto (no fabulous even) mercer. i’d rather live in haggett even, dude! -__- it sucks so bad at mercer. it’s far, it has no food, it’s ghetto. it sucks ass. it’s like a brick prison thing. sucks ass. sucks ASS, i tell you. i refuse to live there! i demand a room change! >__< we didn’t even chooooooose mercer at all. i think it’s because terry and mccarty doesn’t have that many double rooms and we requested a double. shit, oh well, if that’s the case, i want to live in mcmahon man. freaking whackass. -__- damn uw! anyways. me and eva (my roomie for next year) decided that we’re gonna go for mcmahon… because i really like it and they’re remodeling the whole place for next year with new furniture and new cafeteria and everything. so it should be pretty nice =T we did make a promise that we’d make an effort to know anyone on our floor, though, since what is good about terry in the first place was the socializing. if we can get to know everyone in mcmahon too, then it would be the same thing. we’ll see how that works out! heh. =)

man… i don’t know what i’m doing. i’m fucking up in school immensely… sigh. i need to find myself some motivation. blah. usc 6 is going to be my last time dropping. i don’t think i mentioned that in here yet o.O;; actually, i kind of don’t even care for dropping at that, but i feel as though i need a last time cause i feel weird just stopping now. -__-; honestly… hmm, maybe i won’t drop. i feel really stupid… -__-; it may be the e… or it may be just me. but i know something is off. -__-

8:01 pm — this is proof that i spend too much time on the computer. ah, well. so, tony had this idea to delete everyone on his aim buddy list to see who actually im’s him… and say fuck it to all the rest of the people. i actually think it’s a damn good idea dude. there’s so many people on my buddy list i don’t even really talk to but i just keep on there just because. plus, it’ll be easier to sort out which groups i put people in this way. right now, half of my people on my buddy list are “my nikkaz” when they aren’t. =P wOo. should be interesting. watch, by the end of the month i’ll have like five people. -__-;

2:23 am — blah just got back from ballard firehouse with seungbum, chol, [kimchi-]john, josh, ben, and jessica. blah. all trance. we got there at around 11 almost… i was bored out of my mind. oh well. i really do need to take a break. no raving til usc6 foshizzle. shoulda just stayed at home like i had originally planned. blah. oh wells. i did finally get the nice usc6 flyers though… THICK ones… woo =) i really am sooo freaking excited for that night. i cannot wait. ah jea this afternoon i went to help the lambda lil sis sell patbinsoo (shaved ice… baobing) in front of the hub for the asian student thing at uw… it was whatevers. my first lil sis event in a LONG time, that’s for sure… because i am one of only three of the lil sis who have food permits, that’s why. whatever. very little respect the lil sis have from people dude… because people think it’s a bunch of girls who just sit around and do things for the guys (the lambdas). not true. but i guess i don’t really know the REAL point. to establish brother and sister-like relationships? yeah… but i don’t think that such a relationship can REALLY be achieved… well perhaps. but i think only if the people knew each other beforehand. i don’t know if that makes sense. it’s just that… yes… the intentions may be there, but it really depends on what kind of people the bro and sis are and if they really are two people who would get along that well outside of such an organization. don’t know if that makes sense. don’t know if i want you lambda-affiliated family people to respond either. -__-;; so don’t, unless there is a passionate flame burning inside you and you cannot squash it. =P

if you want to, i can save you
i can take you away from here
so lonely inside, so busy out there
and all you wanted was somebody who cares
* MICHELLE BRANCH - ALL YOU WANTED *

* songs of the moment * — “wasting my time” bai default [rock] and now a cd of goodass trance shiet that i got back when i liked trance but knew nothing about elektronik music -__- i made the mistake of throwing away the song listing… godammit, so stupid!
* mood * — eyeball hurts. oh wait, that’s not a mood… -__-;

11:12 pm — so this morning i was sleeping and my door opened right? and for some reason i thought that it was my roommate coming back really early in the morning or something (retarded). and so i went back to sleep. and later, my roommate’s alarm clock went off so naturally i went to look at the clock to check what time it was. i thought that perhaps she had an 8:30 class or something and that her alarm was going off because she needed to go to class. little did i know, that she had already come back from class, was waking up from taking a nap, and that i was THREE IN THE FUCKING AFTERNOON! i’ve never slept through all my classes accidentally before!! -__- what a disgrace. oh well. -__- i had a quiz in chinese today too! i was supposed to get up early and study! rawr… grr… arrr… oh well -__-;; nothing i can do about it now… anyways, i have to go back to studying economics, but you know what was cool? tonight i went down to eat dinner and we randomly got into conversations about strange stuff with the people in front of us in line. it’s fun. i love talking to random people. people are so freaking interesting. that is the only perk about working at a bubble tea place - you get to meet all sorts of interesting people. oh well. anyways, back to studying, but i thought i’d leave you with a couple of things. the first is quiz results… whee…

i guess if the quiz says so, it must be true? -__- since we all know how accurate these online quizzes are!second would be a portion of a conversation i had with miss tin-win liu yesterday. i had one of these with phil [hsieh] and seungbum too… and phil’s was fairly interesting as well (but too personal to post), and seung’s was mostly stating that if i didn’t stop typing intellectually, he would came and shake me next time he saw me (huk… only a few people would understand this -__-)

vee (1:44:46 AM): i feel like typing extremely correctly today.
vee (1:44:51 AM): so i am. minus the capitalizations.
missgem (1:44:56 AM): hahah
missgem (1:44:58 AM): why is that?
missgem (1:45:02 AM): jes in the mood?
vee (1:45:16 AM): yes. i don’t know why.
vee (1:45:17 AM): haha.
vee (1:45:29 AM): i feel as though this is the most effective way in which i can squander away my time.
missgem (1:45:38 AM): hahaha
vee (1:46:06 AM): and this is also a sorry attempt to improve my english language skills which i have discovered have slowly been deteriorating.
missgem (1:46:16 AM): what? this is quality AIM time with tinwin!!… u arent squandering ur time!
missgem (1:46:19 AM): hahhaha
missgem (1:46:24 AM): yesh yesh
vee (1:46:30 AM): in fact, my accent problem is so prominent that another day this guy asked me if i was from somewhere else because i had an accent.
missgem (1:46:40 AM): wha??/
vee (1:46:41 AM): i said, “i was born here,” because i thought he was implying that i was born somewhere in asia.
missgem (1:46:41 AM): hahhaha
missgem (1:46:47 AM): LOL
vee (1:46:48 AM): however, he said, “yes, you have an italian accent.”
missgem (1:46:49 AM): !!
vee (1:46:53 AM): dare i say, “what the fuck?!”
missgem (1:46:54 AM): WHAT???!
vee (1:46:56 AM): yes.
vee (1:46:58 AM): that is what i am saying.
missgem (1:47:13 AM): wtf?! hahhaa that is pretty hilarious tho
vee (1:47:16 AM): so now i shall add italian to my extensive collection of japanese, hawaiian, chinese, and various other fob accents.
missgem (1:47:25 AM): LOL
vee (1:47:27 AM): i think this man was thoroughly confused because he himself had an accent.
missgem (1:47:51 AM): hahhahaha
missgem (1:47:53 AM): omg
missgem (1:47:55 AM): u crack me up
missgem (1:47:56 AM):
vee (1:47:58 AM): do you like my typing? i like it.
missgem (1:47:59 AM): too funny
missgem (1:48:04 AM): lurv it
missgem (1:48:06 AM): i do i do
vee (1:48:41 AM): i would advise you to enjoy this because this is a once-in-a-lifetime deal.
vee (1:48:55 AM): in a few moments i may feel as though i am wasting too much time and brain power typing like this.
missgem (1:49:41 AM): hahaha… ok, i’ll savethis AIm convo in my archive of “important AIM convos”
missgem (1:49:53 AM): this will be the first one actually
vee (1:49:54 AM): you have an archive of important aim conversations?
vee (1:50:00 AM): wow! i feel very honored.
missgem (1:50:08 AM): wahhaha
missgem (1:50:11 AM): u should
missgem (1:50:21 AM): u get your very own folder
missgem (1:50:40 AM): entitled: “very important aim convos, by vivian hua”
missgem (1:50:48 AM): wahaha
vee (1:50:49 AM): i believe that i now must save this conversation because it is proof that i now have my own folder in tin-win’s computer.
vee (1:50:51 AM): what an exciting day!
missgem (1:51:30 AM): hahhaa… it tis it tis!
vee (1:51:49 AM): it has come to my attention that you have met philip nho’s friend janet
vee (1:51:50 AM): .
missgem (1:51:56 AM): haha o yah i have
missgem (1:51:59 AM): how do u kno?
vee (1:52:00 AM): i find this quite interesting because janet is fontaine’s old friend from irvine.
missgem (1:52:06 AM): i kno!
missgem (1:52:22 AM): she told me she talked to u i believe on AIM? is that correct?
vee (1:52:29 AM): furthermore, this is interesting because i talked to janet online a long time ago and the other day i was reading philip nho’s so-called “blog” and i saw that her screename was on there.
missgem (1:52:46 AM): hahhaha
vee (1:52:48 AM): yes, i do believe i have spoken to her on america online instant messenger a few times.
vee (1:52:56 AM): it is really quite a small world.
missgem (1:53:01 AM): and u actually remembered her sn?
missgem (1:53:02 AM): wah
missgem (1:53:04 AM): yes it is
vee (1:53:06 AM): you know what else is evidence that the world is quite small?
missgem (1:53:16 AM): what is that my friend?
vee (1:53:31 AM): i met quite a few individuals online back when i was still residing in the sunny land of california.
vee (1:53:45 AM): some of these individuals i met through my webpage or asianavenue, and i never dreamt that i would someday meet them face-to-face.
missgem (1:53:48 AM): WAHAHHAHA…. sunny land of california??!?!
missgem (1:54:02 AM): o yah! strange indeed
vee (1:54:10 AM): however, upon coming to this rainy land of seattle where the sun dost not shine very often, i have discovered i have come to meet many of these individuals face-to-face.
vee (1:54:18 AM): and, get this, i did not even plan on meeting them!
vee (1:54:24 AM): it is really quite a joyous event.
missgem (1:54:35 AM): oh yes, quite
missgem (1:55:05 AM): lol… how did u kno i met janet?
vee (1:55:34 AM): yesterday janet randomly instant messaged me online because apparently mr. philip nho told her that i knew her.
vee (1:55:39 AM): naturally, i asked her if she had met you yet.
vee (1:55:42 AM): and she said she has.
missgem (1:56:36 AM): ahh that would explain it
missgem (1:56:37 AM): haha
vee (1:56:50 AM): yes, it would, my friend.
vee (1:56:59 AM): so how are things doing with you in the strange land of berkeley?
missgem (1:57:05 AM): LOL
missgem (1:57:36 AM): not bad not bad
missgem (1:58:09 AM): haha
missgem (1:58:16 AM): r u typing like this to everyone??
vee (1:58:44 AM): certainly.
vee (1:58:52 AM): however, i am only speaking with you and mr. philip hsieh.
missgem (1:59:22 AM): yes he has informed me
missgem (1:59:46 AM): he has stated that you are typing in a strange manner
vee (2:00:05 AM): did he inform you that he is also responding in the same strange manner?
missgem (2:00:16 AM): no he has not!
vee (2:00:43 AM): i must inform you that he is.
missgem (2:01:04 AM): why i did not know of that!
missgem (2:01:19 AM): what an oddling!
vee (2:01:26 AM): certainly, an oddling indeed.
vee (2:01:33 AM): so, tell me about the new happenings in your life.
missgem (2:02:29 AM): well i am sorry to dissapoint you, but nothing of substantial value has occured in the present
missgem (2:02:47 AM): this coming thrusday i am attending a semi-formal dance, however
missgem (2:03:04 AM): it is to be held on a boat in the san francisco bay
missgem (2:03:10 AM): it should be a grand event, indeed
vee (2:03:25 AM): may i ask if you will be attending this event with a partner?
missgem (2:04:08 AM): oh i am afraid not, i am attending with some of my female friends
vee (2:04:43 AM): i am quite disappointed in your lack of supplying me with new gossip.
missgem (2:04:56 AM): many of the men in our city are too, dare i say, stingy, to afford such an event as this
vee (2:05:05 AM): is it a very expensive event?
missgem (2:06:33 AM): well, the event does cost a sum of thirty dollars and zero cents
vee (2:06:54 AM): that is certainly not a very high cost.
vee (2:07:06 AM): this leads me to believe that the boys you are hanging around are “bungholes”.
vee (2:07:10 AM): i am just kidding.
missgem (2:07:32 AM): haha… well i do believe you are correct in that statement
vee (2:08:09 AM): that is quite alright because i have discovered many of my male friends lack monetary funds as well.
missgem (2:08:37 AM): yes that seems to be a severe dilemma in the male society today
vee (2:08:45 AM): my friend from washington is threatening to kill my “weirdass” because he does not like the manner in which i am typing.
vee (2:08:53 AM): this strikes me as odd because he is quite the “weirdo” himself.
vee (2:09:03 AM): yes, i do believe this is a major problem in our society these days.
missgem (2:10:17 AM): yes, why we must attempt to solve this problem!
missgem (2:10:24 AM): but alas, my time has come
missgem (2:10:28 AM): i have yet to retire
missgem (2:10:38 AM): for the night
missgem (2:10:42 AM): i am quite exhausted
vee (2:10:43 AM): i am disappointeed in your early sleeping patterns, but i am thinking i should take after your footsteps.
vee (2:10:46 AM): have a pleasant sleep my dear!
missgem (2:11:04 AM): yes and the same to you as well!
missgem (2:11:06 AM): ta ta!
vee (2:12:06 AM): ta ta!
vee (2:12:13 AM): do keep that folder well kept!
missgem (2:13:05 AM): why certainly!
missgem (2:13:33 AM): good night my dear!
vee (2:13:38 AM): good night!

STUPID FORUM! HOW COME MY FACES ARE FUCKED UP? (MY FACES ARE THE LITTLE -__-;; THINGS… THEY SHOULD HAVE EYES, DAMMIT!

* cd of the moment * “break the cycle” bai staind [rock]… long tym no listen… i accidentally lent it to eva a bajillion years ago, totally forgot about it, and forgot to get it bak. finally tho… it is back in mie possession. muhaha __;;
* mood * i’m sleepy __;;

4:18 am so at the moment i am taking a break from studying. wheeee. mad finals and homework coming up. i’ve been studying for like the past… five hours. and i studied like two hours before i went to dinner earlier. for reals… this is probably the most i’ve ever studying in my life! considering i probably still have about two more hoursworth to go. hukness. so… today i woke up and went straight to chinese class to take my chinese midterm. actually i think i did pretty well. i did some hardcore studying for it, yo. i knew pretty much everything but the simplified section and one of the translation questions. okay, nevermind, that doesn’t sound very impressive __;; i always finish hella earlier than everyone else because i write chinese and english really fast… but people assume that i finish quickly because i knoe all the material really well. HAHA. mortal fools. keke just kidding. but jea… aren’t they surprised when they discover i probably have the lowest grade out of everyone in the class. __;;!! that kind of reminds me of the quote, “the good part about being a pessimist is that you are constantly being proven right or being pleasantly surprised.” i dunno why. but i like that quote. hehe ^__^!

anyways i came back from class and freaking slept for like… four hours or something. haha. haven’t gotten enough sleep lately. i woke up with a *bang* though, because it was like 2:30pm (or something) right… but for some reason i thought it was 10am and i thought that i had missed my chinese midterm although i had already taken it. haha. what a fool i am. oh welps. it’s okay because that surprised me so much i actually got straight up and productive. i had a dance class today that i’m taking with eva but i decided i had so much shit to do that i wouldn’t go. so i didn’t. not that i really mind. __;; i lack coordination to dance in class. i don’t care if people say i dance good at raves or whatever. i can’t dance in class. no coordination. i can follow the teacher decently when there’s a mirror in front of us, but the second we turn around, yeah… it’s all over. plus i don’t really dig her 80’s c+c music factory type music, so… it just does not float my boat. can you imagine me dancing? huk. i took dance classes last in like 8th grade i think. yeah. that was hell too. makes me wonder why i decided to do it voluntarily now! i thought it would be decent exercise but i don’t even break into a sweat. oh well.

later at night my only social activity was pretty much going to eat dinner with tony and we ran into susan and tina [chow] so we ate with them too. oh and josh [hwang], chol, and ian came because we were going to go down to uvillage and get ourselves some free ben n jerry’s ice cream! they were giving everyone free cones today. hella cool. too bad they barely had any flavors left (well, that’s an exaggeratin they had about half). but i was mad cause they had neither or their banana ice creams left __ so i got “cherry garcia”. oh well whatevers. it was free… not like i can really complain! hehe! i like ben n jerry’s very much! anyways, yes that’s pretty much the most excitement i had in my day. oh yeah! it was cool because right when we got in the door to ben n jerry’s, they cut off the line right behind us. PUHAHA. sucks for them suckaz. __;; just kidding. that’s pretty mean. oh well onto writing my speech and hearing sciences paper. but not before i leave you with these lyrics that have been on my mind since this morning! i was listening to the song and i just randomly decided to look up the lyrics (they’re hard to understand in the song) and wow! it matches exactly. how… wow. what a good coincidence. ^__^

stay with me just for today
let your soul come and rest for a minute now
share your mind if you have some time
i would love to sit and talk to you
i will wait if you ask me to
but i won’t stay here forever now
i know your heart could keep me warm if you let me staywhat can i say? what can i do?
is there any way to get through to you?
i’ll put myself into your shoes and
i’ll walk around these streets of yours
it’s cold outside where you stay
but my heart is not far away
so take a breath and close your eyes
i want to hold you

i feel that your eyes won’t open
maybe the moon will come down and save me
maybe your eyes will stop me from falling
i’m drowning; don’t you know that i can’t lift my head?
yes, i’m drowning and i can’t catch my breath.
* AK1200 DROWNING *

wow… kind of almost exactly what i am feeling… but of course no one would understand the exact details of why it’s so frustrating liking… *him*. actually. it’s quite surprising to me that i’m not as frustrated about this whole issue than i would expect i’d be. =P haha. how confusing can it possibly get? =P oh well. for those of you who know what i mean, good… you know me fairly well! =)oh yes. i am also very curious as to what everyone thinks soulmates are and whether or not you believe in them! i used to be a firm nonbeliever, but for some reason these days i’m rethinking my thoughts. any comments anyone? you can leave it anonymous, i’m just curious >.<
(eva’s response:)
yo woman, psh, you DO break a sweat because she locks all the windows so there is no circulation and we oven bake for an hour. she’s kinda cheesy and stuff, but man, it’s different from the usual hoopla. plus, man, a whole hour of sarcastic movements… fun stuff, yo.

* cd of the moment * — “4 u” bai elva xiao [mandarin]
* mood * — okay, but i’m soooo tired… physically and mentally. hukness.

april 13th — huk so mee, suejung, kat, and tony (well tony kinda fell asleep @ 3am) stayed up until 6am chillin, playin cards (briefly), chattin with tony’s clustermates, watchin a break-dancin competition, watchin weird sundance movies with a lotta sex, and watchin “hollow man” on tv. i heard that movie was really bad but it actually was alright. other than the fact he killed a lil puppy. wat a poo. i liked the effects, tho. and then i worked from 11 am to 6 pm… god… fuqin sucky… but that’s cause i got friday off for the incubus and hoobastank concert. hukness. at night, mee, josh, seungbum, and chol went out to eat with hana, that foo that came back from korea and only called seungbum. huk. wat a poo. oh well. we ate sullungtang (or something)… eh it was alright… not that great… but i love rice in soup so it was koo for mee and mie sick self. afterwards, mee, josh, seung, kat, and sue went to a rave down bie the waterfront… called “narnia”… it was alright… the rooms were a lil too small… but gyeaaa seung and chol have more tolerance for drum’n'bass now. that makes mee happy. oh well… then we went home and they went to eat and ended up goin back but i went home early cause i was sick and sleepy… huk.

april 14th — worked til 4 pm… i was sooo fuqin tired i felt like i was high or cracked out… couldn’t even think straight. i don’t think i’ve ever been that tired before… frickin weird, i tell yoo. so turns out somehow i fuked up mie incubus cd and there is this big giant huge scratch in it… huk. and then at night i went to sherry’s uncle’s place and had dinner with her relatives. weird, yo. but they brought me yummie food to bring home, so that was kool. nice havin a home-cooked chinese meal again… gyea. for some reason sherry’s dad told them that i was a chinese and computer whiz tho… and uhhh… i’m really not, so i ended up having to explain hella shiet about the computer that’s pretty frickin basic. O.o;;

april 15th — was so frickin tired i slept all day… til like 3pm… didn’t go to any classes. actually it’s 8pm right now and i’m exhausted still… i’m gonna go take another nap. i dunno if it’s cause i’m sick of wat, but it’s quite ridiculous. pretty kool tho mee and eva jes came back a half hour ago from a dance (jazz dance huk) class… today was the first day. eh. i have no coordination. pretty gay. but it was okay. we stretched and that made mee super relaxed, which was kool. and then right after we got home, it’s all thundering and lightening now, so that’s okay too. oh well… okay… tym for nappy. and then study hardy. oh yeah. i’ve concluded i’m not gonna drop or get high on 420… i’m just gonna take pics of everyone fuked up. it’ll be fun. unfortunately, i have to work on fri night and i can’t go to paul [nadal]’s party… which sucketh much butteth. but there’s really nothing i can do about it, so sigh. well, pzzies.