i have two up for nomination.
lamb - gorecki.
if you can look past her strange voice (which a lot of people cannot get used to) and listen to the lyrics, man, this song is amaziiiiing. i wouldn’t watch the video… unless you like final fantasty, which i don’t, but maybe you do. but the intention is just for you to listen to the song 
relative to the second song, though, i find this song to be a little overarching and a bit impractical. but maybe such lyrics do come true for people or else these songs would never be created…?
incubus - echo.
ah, my eternal love song. primarily because it touches on the importance of needing to teach and learn from one another in a relationship.
:( le sigh. being unsure of decisions is not fun.
but not really back as i never really was born there but you know. still.
therefore, it is time…
it is time to start re-learning some chinese in preparation of going to taiwan this november…
then after that, it’s time to learn russian, in preparation for russia next year.
i’m thinking of taking the TEFL so i can live somewhere else for like 3 months and then get english-teaching jobs around the world. the downsides to that, though… is that i don’t know if i’m brave enough to contribute so much time outside of the country where i know no one. being nomadic has its downfalls in the fact that well, it’s hard to get to know people for extended periods of times?! the upsides to that is well, traveling. but being that i’m a pretty nostalgic person, i’m not sure that’d work. 
that or i’d only want to go on three month campaigns to places to teach. crap. what to do with this life?!! i don’t know. all i need is a boyfriend husband person something significant other who likes traveling… that’d be cool.
i’m going to talk to dr. rarick tomorrow night hopefully about maybe getting some kind of experience in mental health or social work… i don’t know. all i know is i feel like i’m going blind staring at a computer all day. i’ve thought this before but lately it actually is hard to look at stuff. looking at the tv from not even halfway across the room with my contacts on = blurry… i can’t read road signs at night… it’s all kind of weird and all pointing to bad…
really all i want to do is do graphic design on a freelance basis, part-time. i don’t like this full-time graphic design thing… it’s wearing staring at a computer all day. regardless of what the reason is.
i’m moving from bellevue back to seattle starting september 1st. living with senor ryan pangilinan. it’s weird… for the first time since like almost when we first started dating things with lenny are extremely good. i don’t know why. it’s good, though. except it’s bad since we’re not living together starting in a few days. strange how things work… or is it a contributing factor? i don’t know. :[
xinlei is going to come up and visit end of september. sherry is going to be here next week. yays all around.
it’s very interesting — my chemical romance fans are seriously like… 12-15. i’ve been spamming on some forum with some awesome mcr photos and it’s just kind of disturbing. where’s the rush to growing up. blech. that’s why i don’t want kids. i wonder what the life of a kid is like these days, eesh. i don’t want some kind of giant materialistic slut/asshole kid…
tofu dogs are SO terribly gross. i had a craving for hot dogs after going to snowboard connection to work today, so i decided to buy some tofu dogs. NO. NO NO. NO!!! NOOOOOOOOOO. so gross. although i must admit — the aftertaste tastes like hot dog. the during taste, however, tastes like shit. BLEHHHHH!!!
went to snowboard connection to work for the first time in a few weeks today. new store, right across the street from REI. i’m a bigger fan of the old one; the new one is too mall-like for my tastes; the old one had a lot more soul. maybe they can do some stuff to make this one have a little more personality, though. it’s just really squeaky clean right now. seems like a lot of people are quitting… 8( the place where the marketing/web people work is in some other warehouse that is not connected to the actual store… it’s really smelly too. smells like trash! MMM! and lots of disgruntled workers in that section! MMM! disgruntled workers. gotta love them. they should be opening up the old store again soon, though, which is cool… cause that store just looks so badass!
here are some pics of it: 1) the exterior of the store; 2) the shoes; 3) some fly new skate decks!!
some graffiti near the freeway by snocon (wow i suck with descriptions)… joe [2h], cliff [pg!], and bigfoot.
currently watching… some weird mystery show on the hallmark channel. “murder she wrote” is on next, heh.
thursday, august 16th, 2007
got my magazines back today — only 35 of them, but they look ama-freaking-zing!!!!!!! on the downside, though, i have to print more asap… blargh!
this past week lenny and i played like 13 hours of “guild 2″ because we finally got the shit working. and it was most exciting. that game is micro-management death, though, but it seems hard as hell to program (not that i know anything about programming) but everyone in the game has their own artificial a.i. and every computer character that you don’t control still interacts with one another. basically the point is your family has to win via violence, politics, or economic means and wipe out all the other families. werd.
we’ve also finally been playing a little bit of “company of heroes,” which is, of course, always great!
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friday, august 17th, 2007
after work, went with hsuhan and rachel to what was supposed to be the mf doom show. he actually was replaced by redman, though… i don’t know why! sean cee was spinning that night. they had the most annoying announcer who kept interrupting everyone. bleh. redman was a lot better than anticipated. the show was “sneaker pimps,” sponsored by k-swiss, and basically they get a bunch of shoes painted by artists and stuff. parskid was there painting a giant shoe. like, it was huge! it sucked because i brought my camera but i forgot to bring a memory card with it, so i didn’t get to get any shots of it. bleh. was going to for magazine purposes but i guess i ended up paying $18 just for the entertainment. the MC was a fucking idiot and sucked ass. he kept calling parskid “mars one” HAHHAHAHA and sean cee “c - something” (who is actually sean’s friend from texas). what an idiot. after the set, redman sat on stage smoking a blunt. hah. rachel got her shoe signed by him and i gave him my business card and told him to check the mag. i doubt if he will. but we’ll see. all these hoes were scribbling their numbers on his hand. like he’s going to call your ass. haha. he’s funny though — he was high as fuck and at one point he put a towel on his head AND put on a hoodie and looked ridiculous. he also had this fat gold chain which he kept taking off and people would get all excited thinking he was going to throw it out, but really he’d just flip it over and put it back on. again and again. HAHAHAHAHA. most funny.
afterwards we went to purple dot, which was alright… i think they switched a chef or something because shit doesn’t taste the same lately… but i’m not sure.
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saturday, august 18th, 2007
lenny and i were supposed to wake up and go to fort casey but as usually we got up too late. bleh. i woke up at eight am too because aeryn came over because he had to get a tape recorder before warped tour, but still, tried to take a short nap and get up again and it just didn’t happen. i don’t know why i need to sleep so much these days. it’s weird.
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sunday, august 19th, 2007
again was going to go to fort casey but the weather was bad when we woke up in the morning so we decided not to go. instead, there was a fucking poop nightmare at lenny’s mom’s house. omfg. lewis and taylor ran upstairs and i guess taylor was in the middle of pooping and decide to give a shake (the kind a dog does after being wet) and poop went flying all over the carpet, wall, clothes, backpacks, bedsheets, everything, everything, everything!!!!! … everything!! and it wasn’t the dry kind of poop — it was like the consistency of dog food. it was gross. disgusting. had to wash a load of clothes after that, heh, and get the carpet cleaned, and windex the walls… then i gave taylor a bath and it’s the first time i’ve given a dog a bath but i got soaking wet because he kept trying to escape. that bitch. and then somehow in that process i got poop all over my pants. blarghhhhh!!!!!! but i didn’t know it yet. so i went downstairs and all i could smell was poop for some reason. bleh! lenny let lewis outside and then as lewie was coming in i saw his ass and it was covered with poopy! covered!!! so we’re like AAAHHH! and lenny took lewis to get a bath. i was like, “no wonder i smelled poop!” and then i put some clothes in the laundry and then looked at my pants halfway thru the laundry being done and finally saw that i had poop on my pants. and again i was like, “no wonder i smelled poop!” it was a nightmare. stupid dumb dogs. taylor is such an idiot. he was like running around in circles after i gave him a bath, chasing his own tail and barking at it, and then smelled lenny’s mom’s clothes and just peed on it. not a moment of thought. so bizarre. i don’t understand at all. then later i was eating pizza and watching “survivorman” and all i could do was get dog hair on my pizza and in my mouth. i’m not even sure how that happens — i never even put down the fucking pizza, i was holding it the whole time. bleaghhhh!! no doggies for me for a little bit lol. at least not long-haired ones. or idiots. sick.
(poop shown is about … 1/4 of the poop that was splattered across the room… and splattered is probably the best description for it too!)
lately they have been closing down 4 out of 5 lanes of traffic on I-5 to work on some construction. we all hypothesized that the result would be a complete hell of a traffic nightmare. it’s been two days of work days, though, and it is actually THE OPPOSITE. all the warnings by the news or whoever telling people to use other modes of transportation, like carpooling, biking, the bus, the ferry, etc… seem to actually be WORKING. and that’s amazing. i can’t imagine it working in many places, and i’m really surprised and pleased to know that people in seattle are able to chalk it up and work together to make it okay?! it’s really kind of weird, though. it makes me want to start taking the bus to work, though, which could be a bit of a bitch… i was going to wait until i moved to greenwood to start the bus/bike hike, but this change of events has been somewhat inspirational and i feel like i should start now. i’ll have to look at the route, though, because if it’s really absurd coming from bellevue to belltown… it would just be a waste of time. we shalt see!!!
the SAD part is that people don’t do these things all the time. i mean, i don’t. it makes me feel selfish to be driving when so many other people obviously (?) are not anymore. maybe we should do this all the time. make mother nature happy. one can hope!
my patience is wearing thin. unraveling. i cannot stand the selfishness. what is all of this effort for? i have no fucking clue. what a waste of so much. for me to not give a fuck. is that what you want? cause it’s getting there.
i forgot but last weekend we went to derek’s house in anacortes and they caught like, 20 crabs. and we ate them. and they were REALLY good. it was fucked up seeing them be killed, but i was more traumatized last year than i was this year. guess i am getting immune?!