inside the wonderful world of vee

went to enterprise to rent a car for going to montana this weekend. first thing that happened when i got in the shop (shop? for lack of a better term!?) was this:

ah, kids, they’re hilarious.

not sure what made her think i was different… either my clothes or my haircut, but it wasn’t surprisingly a race thing cause there were tons of minorities. or maybe it was. i don’t know.

after she left, the two guys behind the kiosk counter, who were brothers, went on to make it the funnest rental car experience ever because they were absolutely hilarious. enterprise on 140th in bellevue! go there for good times! entertaining people are the best entertainment.

hahaha the funniest of which was these two indian guys were trying to rent a car and one of them had made sure to say that he did NOT want a ford taurus.

then i went on to walgreen’s to buy some shit and got hit on by the counter boy there… for the second time. only he thought it was my first time going in there. lol. he told me to go back when i came back from montana and tell him how it was. … nyeeeeeeeeeeees. suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuure i willllllllllllllllllllllllllllll.

last time i went in there i had on this red dress with fishnet stockings and a fishnet shirt underneath and he called it some sort of “gothic summer dress.” interesting. i was wearing these grey jean pants with bondage straps on them and he commented on how usually bondage pants aren’t made of jean material because they wouldn’t serve the purpose well enough and would rip HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA (probably true, i guess). mind you, he looked me up and down before asserting that, rofls. funny. anyway. HAHAHAHA.

there is nothing i like about life right now. seriously. i feel like i am losing my mind these days… it’s really hard to think about anything. just want to hide inside myself.

going to montana this weekend, originally me, cyn, alex, and len. not so sure what it’s going to be now because alex’s foot is rotting off or some shit. anyway, i’m just glad to get away. i’m so tired of shit. there aren’t enough hours in the day. there aren’t enough questions that are answered. too many decisions to make… it seems like everything is one complicated decision after another and nothing much is giving me joy. aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

the other day i went to this thing with a coworker and he basically hit on me the whole time which just again reminds me of the fact that dudes i like never like me. it’s always vice versa. it is fucking weird, i tell you. damn you, universe.

technology makes things so much more futile. i was thinking of all the wrongs bush has done and how dozens of years ago people would have revolted and turned to violence to solve things. and as barbaric as that sounds, the lack of using violence to solve things now results in things never changing. i don’t know which is worse. probably the latter. i hate hate hate violence due to lots of violence in my family growing up, but right now, with all of our technology and “educated society”, all we do is complain behind the sidelines. very few people do shit that actually make a difference. how sad. we need a revolution. i mean protests may be cool and all, but i wish they made a difference. they don’t seem to make enough of a difference, or these wrongs would not be happening. the sad part is that money still governs most people’s worlds, and it’s near unavoidable. i don’t know how people let themselves get to a place where money is the only thing they care about.

the german movie “the edukators” has some interesting commentary on how people turn from liberal-minded youngfolk into money-grubbing businessmen as they get older because they now have families and need to feed those families and blahblahblah, start needing money to send their kids to college, blahblahblah. i wonder how truthful that is, and how to break away from those trappings to live a fulfilling life, with a family, without having to care about money money money. maybe it’s not realistic. but i’d like to think it is.

what parts of changing the world actually count for something in the long run? it’s hard to say.

i am legitimately considering going back to school to get a teaching degree or something. like, as much as i like doing internet stuff or graphic design or whatever, i can’t stand the fact anymore of taking a full-time job sitting in front of a godamn computer screen. it seems so pointless. like, maybe if it was my own stuff or it was freelance stuff it’d be fine, but a 9-5 doing that shit makes me feel kind of dead (and blind) everyday… plus, because i do the stuff on my own for my mag or whatever i can’t avoid it when i go home, so it’s like non-stop computer and i get so burnt out of doing it that it’s like, fuck, i’ll just sit on these 100 emails and respond to them when i get the chance… which is like a week later and that is way irresponsible. the list just never ends. i don’t think i can stand this much computer. gah.

with every job i have i think that i want a different job which requires more human interaction, yet yet i never make a change to do something else. it’s just like i feel like all my skills are in this one basket and i’m not quite sure how to go into those other places when i’ve been doing this shit for so long… but i guess the sooner i change the sooner i will have new skills. shrug. but i know that i do need to start heading down that road, for reals, because each day without good conversation is like, a bad day. even the simplest conversation with like, the most random of people, like some homeless dude who stops me on the street or some random person at a bus stop makes life more worthwhile. i think i need a job that requires me to interact with a lot of people. that’s why the magazine is so great — because it requires actual real interaction with new people. and interesting, passionate people, at that.
i just feel like i could be one of those cool teacher/bosses who can actually care about people on a personal friend level as opposed to like, a dictator boss level, which is shit i’ve always hated. sigh. what to do…

i think i just convinced myself, lol, that the computer-working life is not for me O__o

i think the other alternative to teacher is “lady who works with crazy homeless people”… not sure why, but homeless people are like… my weakness. kinda. i think when i grew up in ny and my parents were always scared of homeless people who would come up with squeegies and try to wash your windows, i just always thought they were being nice and were trying to work for their money. that impression stuck, i guess, even if it is unrealistic, and even if there ARE plenty of crazy homeless people. i guess until i meet one that really scares me i won’t really be scared. all the crazy ones i’ve met are pretty like, easy to ignore or talk back to in a way that makes them think twice, i guess. the craziest one was probably the one in berkeley when aaron and i went to “talk to people”, just cause he was like talking shit, and when you confronted him about it, he would deny that he was talking shit. lol. good times. :L

8:51pm
tv: family guy, hell’s kitchen.

it’s scary that so many people from my high school in particular are married or getting married. perhaps it’s because i grew up in relatively small-town, conservative suburbia that that is the case.

it’s not necessarily a bad thing, i guess, for some people, but it’s not something i would even close to want to do at this point.

as far yas i’m concerned, getting married really is the beginning to the end of your life, particularly if you want kids. some people get married at 18 and are cool with that. i’m not. how can you even be sure at the age of 18? or what about your dreams hah…

maybe with a husband you can still do what you want, but if/when you have kids what you want to do is kind of curtailed. and that’s too bad. what you want to do should take a backseat to your kids. i like kids and all, but i don’t think i would want to live my entire life for them when i am so young.

maybe i just haven’t met the right person yet, and that’s why i don’t want to get married for a long time. who knows. but it seems so very far off.

interestingly enough, though, although i know a lot of ex-friends now-acquaintances who are getting married or have gotten married, none of my friends have. like, at all. weird.

probably the only things that i do know i want out of marriage are:
1) marriage in a castle, renaissance style [may not happen].
2) a lack of a fat rock… i just don’t see the point of getting a diamond ring. there are tons of other rocks which are less expensive and look a lot better if you absolutely need a rock. plain silver, hematite, and black glass rings for the win [although i’ve destroyed tons of them in my sleep when accidentally punching the wall].

my mom wants me to get married in a church because she is a christian. i am not. or religious to any degree, for that matter. she claims she doesn’t care about anything regarding marriage asides from the fact that i get married in a church. i wonder what the significance of that is. so that it looks good that i get married in a church? so that it make her feel better about my not being a christian? i’m not realy sure, but it seems pretty pointless to me.

when would you guys want to get married?

!!! date backtracks !!!

sunday, june 24th, 2007:
i spent the entire day working on redefine. was definitely starting to go delirious by the end of the day.

saturday, june 23th, 2007:
went to the NEWLY REMODELED SEATTLE AQUARIUM!!!!! during the morning. it sucked ass. they spent $40 million on a window that is a “window into the sound” or something, and it is worse than the room that has glass surrounding you from all sides. it is completely, absolutely pointless and a waste of money. i can’t believe they advertised that as a new addition. to make it worse, the top of the glass slopes outwards so that the thing is essentially a giant mirror. to make it even worse!!! they put fake plastic seaweed in it. it was 100% fake. good game, seattle aquarium.

and there was this section which i never really noticed, but that section of the aquarium was dedicated to northwest coral reefs. it had a bunch of monitors up saying ‘coral reefs: a fragile environment’ or something like that, yet!!! they had lifted a bunch of portions of the coral straight out of the ocean. who knows how harmful that was. wait, i know. probably very harmful. dammit, humanity.

there was this super cool mini red octopus in a tank, though. it was a full-sized red octopus that is about the size of your hand grown. soooo freaking cute. there was also a sponge hermit crab or something, which, instead of using shells to cover itself, used pieces of sponge. looked totally awesome.

after the aquarium, went to go talk to jeremy [gregory] at the corridor art gallery where he had a show up dedicated to freakshow people. he had this book called american sideshow or something, and it had the weirdest, most screwed up people in it, with some pretty sad stories about their lives. i will have to pick myself up a copy of that book from the elliott bay bookstore.

at night, alex, lenny, and i went to taqueria del reconstrito (or whatever) to eat mexican foods. been eating a lot o mexican food lately. it’s all goot man. it’s all goot.  cynthia is moving to hood river, oregon come first week of july. she got a job there. luckily she is going to come to montana with us, so we can have one last quest hoohah. i guess she is going to be working for some company that makes unmanned air vehicles or something. not sure… um, war, yay. not really. >_<

we went to buy crabs yesterday. red claw crabs. they grow to a max about four cm in length. they’re pretty cute. anyway, there was one with only 2 legs. NO CLAWS. at first it was just sad, but when i went home, i knew… i had to have him. i had to save him from his misery.

today lenny went back (i did not go) and poor mr. crabb0rt had only one limb. poor crabby patty. lenny did not buy him. i want him. i must save him.

he’ll probably have 0 legs by tomorrow. it’s too late. :L i wonder what kind of crimes he has committed…!!!!!!!!

now i will feel bad about this, just like the time i felt bad for not telling the petco dude that there was a freaking fish stuck in the filter and everyone else was eating him and picking off his skin. my inaction haunted me for a week.

just got back from going to a rocky votolato show with karla. good, great seats at the triple door. unfortunately, my camera (with my new lens) ran out of batteries so i could not capitalize upon the good view. oh well. it was an alright show. it was enjoyable to a point. a little too long, however, and not enough variation to warrant an hour-long show. but yeah. whatever. free is good.

before that i went to eat with hsuhan at araya’s vegan restaurant. was super good. i got this thing with wide rice noodles, asparagus, and portabello and other mushrooms. mmmm. tasty. a little too spicy for me, though. mmm. now to go to flowers……………

k it’s time for some out of order recap due in part to my needing to backtrack…

saturday, june 16th, 2007:
was lewis‘ birthday, so late at night we headed over to brian [bushcamp]’s place to party it up. let’s just say there was a lot of man on man action, which at some points was a little too um, real to be fake. yeah. we also got to eat at his new taco truck in wallingford — that, despite it’s reputation — was just okay. ;/ oh well. it’s not mexico, i guess. quiero ir al mexico. sigh!

every day in between:
to be honest, the days in between are all just kind of a blur. fuck work.

friday, june 15th, 2007:
went with yair and ben [woody] to the kinski siff performance. basically what happened was kinski played to a couple silent films — one feature-length and one short film. the short film opened up and was done very well and looked like something straight out of pbs or something. the feature-length was um, alright. some parts of it synced up very well, but it seemed like they rushed a lot of parts and they kind of failed. the parts where they did not stick to a rigid formula worked better than the others. they did some experimental, free-form portions which worked super well. i felt like they thought they needed to play extremely loud during some portions where it as not even necessary. blah.

april 21st, 2007 @ cougar mountain
alex, cynthia, lenny, and i went hiking… wait is it not at cougar mountain? shit i think it is. anyway, this was the first thing we saw when entering the park, pretty much. good way to start it off. almost as sweet as the beetle that got crunched into a psych book and got printed over (i will have to find that pic elsewhere).

i am really confused as to why my wordpress just switched into spanish. is it cause i wrote a few lines in spanish? cause if so, that’s awesome and scary also. can it really be that smart?!

the other possible reason is because it was ALWAYS in spanish and *I* am not that smart.

2:18am
music: attica blues - 808 song, hooverphonic - magenta, rodriego y gabriela - ppa, maktub - motherfucker, kuraki mai - stepping out, attica blues - medieval.

yo quiero hablar en ethpanol (accento del castillianos, si?!) porque no recuerdo nada. pero ya escribe mucho y olvide escribir en espanol… SOOO ENGLISH TIME. oh man i’m going to keep this short for now but there will be more tomorrow. i’m just kind of tired right now. but a lot of shit has been going down and godamnit i want to turn this into a photo blog. so i’m going to hopefully wake up at a decent hour tomorrow and ACTUALLY DO THAT. (not that i don’t have a thousand other things to do.)

just got back from swimming with alex not too long ago. posa and linh’s pool, as usual. it was good times. we talked about starting a “swimming olympics”. i mean, shit, if there can be “leapfrog competitions” in other cities, there sure as hell can be swimming olympics! some aspects of swimming olympics will be:

1) backwards swimming.
2) underwater fireballs at each other to see how far you go back in the water [note to people like joe: you do NOT go back in the water ].
3) discus and javelin… underwater!
4) swimming with legs in front of torso! [makes you kind of look like a boat sorta!]
5) interpretive bubble dancing?!!

on the shallow end of the pool there was this cool light refraction shit which made all bubbles that popped up look like they were neon blue and glowing or something. on the deep end of the pool, those bubbles were white, not blue. anyway. lots of making underwater bubbles and catching them in the hand in an attempt to make the largest single bubble. quite difficult, actually.

before that lanerd and i went to petsmart in woodinville to buy some stuff for red claw crabs (ps - this is an ugly red claw crab below… cuter pics of the red claw crabs to come!).

there was this one red claw crab with only 2 legs HAHAHAHA. out of the 8. he didn’t even have the front claws either HAHAHA it’s so sad. i didn’t think about buying him while we were there, but we had to wait to buy them later because the lady @ petsmart said it’d be better to set up the habitat first and then get the crabs… so yeah. after swimming i came to the conclusion that, “I NEED TO SAVE THE TWO-LEGGED CRAB!” SO HE IS GOING TO BE SAVED. I AM GOING TO BUY HIM!! and or her.anyway, lenny is convinced he/she will die during the first week. we’ll see! how to feed him!?! i will spoon feed him with a toothpick! or something. anyway, the tank will be half water and half sloped rock stuff that slopes out of the water (wow, terrible description), with extra fixtures they can climb on and junk. nyessss. spent about $100 on tank and tank cleaning junk and shit. the crabs themselves are like, $2 each rofls!!!!!!!!!!!ANYWAY. at work we’re coding in ruby on rails. i wanted to implement a wysiwig editor. see in php this would be easy as fuck to install. someone as nubbish as me could install it without a godamn problem. in ruby it is suddenly sOo complicated. what uselessness.***tuesday, june 19th, 2007!
so tuesday i went to work as boringly usual. day was kinda fast or whatever. anyway, facing new york was in town at ground zero. the show started @ 7. they were supposed to go second. turned out they went first, so i missed half their set due to tardiness and the lack of the ability to find parking. good set, although the sound was a little fuxored. dunno if they played “cutting my hair” or not but if they did, DAMN…anyway, couple other bands after them… by the end of tonight. eh. didn’t really care for them too much. some stuff was interesting… but overall pretty repetitive… tera melos (the guys who are actually on tour with facing new york) were after them. they were pretty decent, probably the best other band there… very good musicians anyhow. their music probably wouldn’t hurt from a bit more diversity either, but it was entertaining to watch. it was a bit surreal for me though because i just put in earplugs so everything felt a little distant. after them was some band called red museum who are local. nathan [jeffryes] was there also because he’s friends with them. another new writer, karla hernandez, met me at the show cause she’s from chico, california, and knew tera melos (had interviewed them before) and knew facing new york’s music. but uh red museum was alright you know, they had some good songs but again, very repetitive. all their songs seemed to follow the same structure. and these bands seem to be following thomas erak from fall of troy’s instrumentation style so closely… i just hope there aren’t spawns after spawns of fall of troy copycats (there really aren’t, but they’re trying).it was weird though cause after by the end of tonight’s set i went outside and everything looked all foggy but it WASN’T. it was just me and my fucked up eyeballs. too much computer? probably.after the show, i was waiting around for fny a while but they were in tera melos’ van having a listening party to their new track. i got some top sekret informaciones. that is not supposed to be released. suckaz. they ain’t know i got a magazine!! gotta be careful what you say around strangers, sucka! anyway, i guess i won’t say anything because that’s just mean but apparently, tera melos fans should be excited cause they’re changing up their style a bit and have some releases coming out. nyes………………………… … .. . i hope that’s not saying too much. eh, whatever. but yes, the tour van = smelled like sweaty man. :L that’s never fun! and yeah they just sat there talking about recording and tech mumbo jumbo for a while and i’m thinking, “is this what bands do on tour?!” and i’m pretty sure it is.

the last time i saw and interviewed facing new york was like 2 years ago so to be honest i was not 100% who was who. in fact, in the merch room, i was kind of staring at eric forever trying to figure out if it was him (which is kind of pathetic given the fact that there were like, 40 people there total >__< but i suck with faces now i guess)… and yeah, it totally was him but it did not register until later. go meeeee! plus i wasn’t sure either cause he didn’t seem to recognize me or something. anyway, they have this sweet ass fish tee except it was neon green and therefore not wearable by me. lol. well, i guess, technically it is. i can literally put it on and wear it. but i would rather not. even though everything else looked sweet as shit! this morning eric got on my computer and was messing with colors in photoshop and holy crap THERE IS A COLOR REPLACE TOOL IN PHOTOSHOP. man, had i known that earlier, i could have saved a ton of fucking time lol. it’s always interesting what little quirks you learn from watching other people use programs like that. that’s the drawback of learning shit like photoshop on your own, i guess. anyway, he changed up the colors to like, brown and blue… i think it looks good anyhow.

so yeah those dudes stayed over cause they needed to crash. they’re going to spokane tonight (well since it’s 2am, i guess they’ve already been there?!) and are probably going to be homeless in spokompton w00t w00t. they are smart, man. they each brought along a bike so that during offtime before unloading and setting up their equipment they can just bike around the city and explore. fucking genius. i am totally going to do that when/if i go on a cross-country road trip with sherry.

we stopped by this weird safeway i’ve never been to and they had a fucking hayday, like they hadn’t eaten in years or something. bought a ton of fancy stuff to make spaghetti (well, basically as fancy as it gets, you know) and brandon made it and it was damn tasty. omar made a master find of a giant $2 bag of banana chips and bought me one. freaking scoooore! they like, wanted to buy soy milk and watermelon to put in the fridge and cereal and tofurkey (that they actually bought). godamn hippies! not that i mind hippies. but they totally are dirty hippies facial hair and everything. it’s funny cause all of them have assloads (mm, maybe not ASSloads literally) of facial hair and because of it, i always forget that they are like, 23. like me. people with massive amounts of facial hair just seem so much damn older! funny also cause eric is the oldest and looks youngest because he has no facial hair. hear that kids? if you want to be a man, grow facial hair.

anyway, it was just pretty chill, went back to my apartment and they cooked and i tried to pawn my cds off of them BUT THEY FORGOT TO TAKE THE. assholes really it doesn’t matter because at least i didn’t GAIN more trash but damn, i was quite happy that i finally had someone to give my CD trash to… but now i’m back at square one. apparently they had some sort of dance party the night before so they just wanted to hang.

played some super mario kart, and finally! a worthy adversary! eric almost beat me but i pulled some last minute bullshit star bumping action and happened to win. but still, man, pretty impressive considering i play like, once every two weeks and he hasn’t played in years. ah, super mario kart. ah, nintendo… you win. fo lyyyyyyfeeeeee. just wish my NES weren’t so ghetto. at least the SNES works i GUESS. :L

they also talked about some freaking chick who got food stuck in her teeth after getting her wisdom teeth pulled and as a result, had to like… push it up out of the bottom of her cheek and out the mouth. that is just about the freaking sickest thing i have ever heard. but yeah. uh. gross.

then we watched some american “the office”… most of the episodes which i had not seen, so that was cool. managed to found blankets which appeared out of freaking thin air, i says! all in all it was pretty good cause they cleaned up and shit except for the root beers that exploded in our freezer, lol! but i guess matt spent half an hour cleaning it up. it was mostly okay with the exception of a small little part. but given the fact that there were like, 4 bottles in there, i bet it was a lot worse before. rofls.

i need to go to bed. good god.

oh yeah this is worth mentioning — omar was picked to try out for wheel of fortune but i guess he was too “normal” to be on the show despite the fact that he solved the puzzle. it IS possible! must… sign… up… for all… game… shows…!!!! ASAP!!!!!

12:00am
music: bijou - i know, double - cloudy sky, massive attack - man next door, thievery corporation - indra.

it is damn hard, dude. sigh.

today we interviewed a guy @ work to see if he might be a good fit as a ruby developer. turns out he was not. which blows really hard, cause now they expect me to code ruby. i hate coding. like, seriously. and i guess it’s really hard to find ruby developers right now cause everyone wants them. go figure. maybe it is a good skill to learn. but i fucking hate coding. just saying. i do expect them to pay me more money if i have to learn that shit, though. i’m talking, like, at least $25/hr. meh. cause i mean, eff that otherwise. you know? i guess i pay the price for being AHEAD on my work. lame. just because everyone else is slow as balls. and you know what, i should be getting more money as it is right now anyway, because no one told me i was going to be managing two people. eff that. :L

so much to doooooooooo.

by the way, i hate guys. we were watching “so you think you can dance?” in the living room today… we being alex, lenny, andy, and i. every other word out of them was, “would you do her?”, “those pants make me want to do her”, “would you like to wear her as a hat?”

why are guys such pigs. AAGHHHH.

anyway, here is what i was writing yesterday as i was watching “the bothersome man”:
i wonder if this lack of change is due to the fact that i’ve written down all thoughts and, as a result, somewhat have engraved them so that whenever i was asked, “what is your opinion on this and that?” they’d be cranked out, thoughtlessly, like a machine.

right now, i’m watching this norweigan movie, “the botherseom man.” so far, so weird. i don’t even have time to watch films, really, but since SIFF is in town, i feel obligated to. cause i get free movies up the wazu, so i force myself to watch them. this year, only the few i’m rented dvds of have been good — the others have generally been just okay. reviews available at http://www.redefinemag.com/film/

two months ago (or less), we were at a friend’s house partying it up. everyone was drunk off their ass, so i took much video. i’m typically sober but i took like two shots that night, therefore, i was drunker than usual. but i was still definitely more sober than everyone else. anyway, afterwards a lot of people told me not to edit the videos and put them up because they didn’t want to be fired from their jobs. well, excuse me for possibly being naive, but i find that to be outrageous. jobs are not always fun, but i mean, they shouldn’t hold you HOSTAGE. the idea that money and success are greater than your own desire to live is not really something i’d ever be okay with.

it’s one thing to do something you hate for a living; it’s another to be okay with staying there.

that being said, not everyone is always fortunate enough to HAVE choices, which is precisely why people like us who DO have choices should do something about it.

anyway, lately i’ve decided i really want to go abroad to teach english. maybe south america, maybe china. either way, though, i kind of envy people w ho can drop everything, pick up, and leave to do that. i fear i am much too nostalgic and perhaps worrisome. going away to do stuff like that for 1 week is one thing, but for 6 months or a year seems rewarding and sacrificial at the same time. i’ve daydreamed with a few people about doing that — being nomads, in a way, and just floating from country to country, living and learning about the world and its people.

the thing is, no one is ever open to doing that. you know? everyone says, “yeah, it’d be great,” but the truth is most people can’t even take off one week to do something or go somewhere.

perhaps i just don’t understand the 9-5 trappings and its appeal. i don’t think i ever will. growing up, everyone told me to, “get a good job so that people will think you’re successful,” blahblahblah. i’d rather create my own success. screw sucking on the bottom of someone’s shoe if you don’t even like doing it. i find this particularly hard for asian communities to swallow becauseit seems all they care about is measuring success in terms of material wealth. what’s the point? as long as you’re not starving that is… there’s more to life than working. there should be a one month required vacation leave for people in the u.s., like there is in europe. lucky bitches.

(ps - don’t get tim’s jalapeno chips near me. i will devour. i seriously just do not know when to quit.)

anyway, and i know i’m not just thinking this because i’ve talked to people who have this kind of… “i want to do good but first i need to make money doing something,” mentality all the time. perhaps it is because they are males and think that in that macho way they need to stock up to be providers. maybe i don’t understand that because i’ve never been with a guy who has provided for me, rofls. it’s always been the other way around.

sometimes i wonder what the point of collecting all this information and talking to all these people is. i’m not sure if it helps me really understand people better. people are damn mysterious. who can EVER understand them?

si.

to make it even worse, i have a giant pimple on my forehead and it hurts.

http://www.cnn.com/2007/US/06/12/cheese.heroin/index.html

and this is why we should not have programs like d.a.r.e. which tell kids to abstain from drugs, but programs that educate about drugs. just saying.

2:00am
music: inovader - shock to the future, dj krush - final home (piano version), incubus - echo, supreme beings of leisure - never the same.

so like today lenny and i went to this co-op to buy some chicks. “buff brama” chicks are super cute, check them out. they grow up to be brown chickens with brown eggs. of course, grown up chickens are way uglier than little chicks, but yeah. they are like PEEP PEEP! i was holding them in this cardboard box in my lap and there was a hole in the corner of the cardboard and they like, kept pecking at my finger through it. it didn’t hurt, though. anyway, we bought 6, to add to the 3 that were already at her house (there WERE 4, but one died, cause she hadn’t put up a heat lamp). now she wants him to go back and buy 4 more. jesus! 13 chicks! i don’t know!!! man!!

she’s going to eat them too. that’s fucked up, homie. i can’t imagine raising something as a pet just to eat it. seems so godamn cruel.

oh yeah, at the co-op there was this lionheaded rabbit too. so fucking cute man.