i’m listening to… — “aurora” bai foo fighters [rock], “pressure roll” bai ak1200 [drum’n'bass], “all cried out” bai allure & 112 [r&b], “sorry” bai tension [mandarin], “zero gravity” bai ethereal 77 [drum’n'bass]
i’m feeling… alright.
i’m hella diggin… pretzel flipz… ^__^ yummieeeee.
august 16th — so… i started reading the first chapter of “running with scissors” by augusten burroughs… not bad, but not as funny as i thought it would be since they compared him to sedaris… not funny enough for me to spend nearly $25 on so i am returning it. wOo! so i guess i really am very capable of reading a book a day (i used to do that so much when i was little). read fight club in a day. blah. novels are great. =T being rekindled with my first love, eh? ^__^ well anyways, i worked tonight… well, this afternoon and this night. and then afterwards josh picked me up and me, him, janine, and [baller-]steve went to the airport to pick up margaret, steve’s girlfriend. my first time meeting her. last time she came i was in cali. >__< ehh… quite miserable i was because here i was, stuck between two couples… josh and janine because constantly like *rawr, all over each other, and margaret and steve being ones that don’t see each other that much, so… yeah. just got me thinking… missing things, wondering why i did certain things before. weird how when i think i only remember good stuff and then i’m like… what the hell! reason it did not work out is because __________ and then i decide hmmm whatever, i’ll just be doomed to a life of singledom and / or bad relationship skills. or something. i bet half the people who read my last two or three sentences doesn’t understand what the hell i am writing. i am not surprised, for i barely know what the heck i am writing. anyway. afterwards, we went to steve’s and chilled for a bit and then went home. wasn’t anything big. but played some grand theft auto. wee! ^__^ what he needs is capcom vs. snk… haha. i actually get urges to play that game… cause i used to get urges to play street fighter you know but that’s better cause it’s like the good street fighter characters plus more. so… yeah. ^__^ has anyone noticed morrigan looks really weird in that game? like pixelated. anyways.
august 17th — woke up at 10 to go to work… blah… i’m working a lot this week compared to usual because my boss wishes to exploit me before i go leave for cali (and this is because i told him that i am leaving this coming saturday… muhaha… i am so clever >__<;). the only reason for this is because he needs people to work insane shifts for him in september and basically no… i don’t want to be working for him everyday. literally. what he needs is to hire some new fucking workers. only me and this guy damon actually work. and maybe this girl jennifer… i am not sure. the other people never clean anything, never stock up anything, ugh… they’re so gay… and this girl tells me she’ll be late AN HOUR AND A HALF before she has to come in! and she says she is in edmonds so she might be late. jesus christ it’s not like edmonds is that far. fucking gay bitch. -__-; but it’s whatevers. just a pain in the ass because they ALWAYS don’t show up for work and so my boss calls me asking me to come in. fuck that shit. hmmm so after work i sat around for a while and then chol comes over… and we sit around bored for hours… literally. well i wasn’t that bored but just a little… disturbed. or something. i don’t know why. things just really bother me these days because so many things that annoy me are out of my control… and hard to get people to change. or something. -__-; man, i don’t know. and i feel bad about some things… but eh. blah. wonder if i am really a nice person. anyways. so me and chol go to frequency 8 to buy tickets for dynamo 4, right? that went to hell. they STILL don’t have tickets. tha heck? maybe we’ll end up having to go to platinum or something. but someone remind me, i have out-of-state id, so it is possibly cheaper? eh. whatever. and then we were bored and we drove around looking for somewhere to eat but chol was being picky (right?) so we drove up north by aurora and shit and completely drove in a circle and came back to u-dubb to eat at SUBWAY which was probably like, our first suggestion in the first place. we are so gay. oh well. it’s been a long time since i’ve eaten at subway? i think we were there for a good two hours… and godammit, i think i fucked up my nails… cause i started biting one (first time in a long time) and basically i screwed myself over and yeah. blah. -___-; dumb, dumb, dumb. then we were bored and decided to go check out naf. god we are so sad. but then when we got there, we saw that it ended at two and then we were asking if we got a discount cause it ended so early and it was already almost 12:30 and they said no in a bitchy way. and then i asked about out-of-state id and they ignored us. it was like talking to a motherfucking brick wall man. they all seemed really frustrated but nevertheless. off in the corner some guy was screaming, “FUCK YOU! WHAT DID HE SAY? DO I NEED TO SHUT DOWN ANOTHER STAGE?” and people were saying, “no.” wonder who this dictator totalitarianist guy was. haha. -__-; the rave ended at two because they couldn’t get cops to take care of it from 2 to 6. seems like the rave scene is just going down. parties getting cancelled and what the not (haha, what the not). but i guess party throwers are talking about moving it underground (after me and chol left we talked to victor some about what not). and whatever… i guess there are these things called “renegade raves” where people just break into wherehouses, set up shit, and throw parties. interesting, i must say. whatever mannn. sad day. time to lotion my skin. >P
oh, right, and… the hot guy who lives on my floor and works at the hub is fucking GAY! boy i sure know how to pick em -__-;<