inside the wonderful world of vee

i’m listening to… “i’m sorry” bai tyrese [r&b], “heaven” bai nu flavor [r&b], “outside” bai 311 [rock]… hehe what a happy song. i like. =)
i’m feeling… as though i can sleep forever.
i’m hella diggin… mad river’s lemon green tea. :d

8:33 pm — gah, seriously… i can sleep forever >__< ugh man. what is wrong with these people cheating on their boyfriends and girlfriends? if you’re going to do that, then be single… shieeet. -__- some people are really whatevers about that but i think it’s really really whack. oh well.

11:50 pm — ugh… there is a stupid predicament about going to laygoland… it’s be so much easier if everyone just got along! -__- everyone should just be less testosteroney and estrogeney i say! O_o; but yeah… got fat tests coming up in hangukuh so i guess i shalt be going to study to the udy udy. -__-

i’m listening to… nothing.
i’m feeling… eh… it’s whatevers.
i’m hella diggin… nothing…
don’t bring techno (and by this i don’t mean trance or drum’n'bass or house… i mean TECHNO… and if you don’t know, you don’t need to know) near me please.

oh so really quick… i really do not see how people find “requiem for a dream” a disturbing movie. honestly, i did not find it disturbing at all. the least bit. oh no, i was not disturbed. -__- i wish i had kept it long enough to burn it onto a cd, because now i’m wondering what it is that disturbs people so about it. but i don’t really feel like downloading it again (maybe i will), so we’ll see? -__-

so. we watched “lilo and stitch” during the daytime… it was alright. actually kind of cute even though all the characters the movie are ugly-looking. -__-

then we went to naf. and i must say… yesterday, i heard the worst music in my life. literally. it was bad. very bad. very bad even for naf. jesus christ. words cannot describe how BAD it was. you must have listened to it to it to fully understand the horrible monotonous melody-lacking bass-drumming of TECHNO. ughhhhhhh i say ughhhhhhhh. fucking disgusting. and techno doesn’t mean trance and house and yadda yaddeh apparently. it’s its own form of elektronika… AND IT IS BORING AS FUCK. seriously… the whole side room was drum’n'bass / jungle and i was in there the whole time (i’ve never spent that much time in the side room before). oh, and a little time we were outside because victor was spinning trance… but that’s about it… i went back to the main room a couple of times and was going to chill with people, but seriously, after sitting there for like ten minutes at a time i went berzerk because the music was soooooo freaking whack. so whack. SOOOOO WHACK. i don’t see how the people who stayed in that room the whole time survived dude. the music was so bad that a few people who hated drum’n'bass even went to the drum’n'bass room saying, “this is the best room there is right now.” sad. heh. oh well. aaron simpson was alright… i was too tired to dance around any so eh. *shrug. what’s more… i saw many a gay lovin’… >__< not just peck on the cheek lovin’ but *rawr, make-out kinda lovin’… huk huk huk. but yeah it was a really random rave-trip because we went with a really random group of people… me, chol, josh, janine, kevin, [baller-]steve, [viet-]tony <~ jesus christ, this boy is so weird!

afterwards went to eat at denny’s… blahblahbliddyblah. yadda yadda. okie. pz.

JESUS CHRIST!!!! JESUS CHRIIIIIIST. i was reading my freak night 5 listing of dj’s and J-MAJIK was at FREAK NIGHT 5 (my first party)!? you’ve got to be joking >__<
(xinlei’s response:)
i thought it was disturbing because ellen burstyn was frigging psycho and pitiful. and jared leto’s arm, don’t tell me that wasn’t disturbing, aiyoo that was just kind of the definitive nastiness because it was purple and slightly moldy or something. and well, jennifer connelly was rather ho-ish…ergo plenty of disturbingness. but perhaps not for your cuckooness of a mind for thou art vivian hua indeed! *wink* hehe. but then again oops, look who’s talking.

i’m listening to… “foolish games” bai jewel [??], “underground raver” bai trance control [trance], “hemmorrhage” bai fuel [rock], “my friends over you” bai a newfound glory [punk], “time to wonder” bai dj’s at work [trance]
i’m feeling… fine.
i’m hella diggin… “here is gone” bai googoo dolls. the lyriks…

6:17 pm — i’ve always been the kind of person who works better alone. i never really liked group projects much. anything i was interested in that was worth anything to me i figure(d) out on my own. so it really bothers me when people are overly dependent and cannot figure out ANYTHING for themselves. -__-; some things are just common sense? you don’t need to ask. huk. so i’ve been thinking. there must be something really wrong with me… because for me… i meet people… and often they try hard to get to know me better… but then after they know me better, it’s kind of whatevers… and no one really cares that much anymore. god, i have problems. i don’t understand -__- it’s weird, i think, how most people know what their problems are but it’s just so hard to change when you’re caught up in the moment. blah. oh yeah. i redid amykchung and john [pham]’s aa pages, so go check it out. i still have to make seungbum’s… blah… -__-; man, it’s really crazy. i’m really not that good… so i wonder what the really good people have to go through =X i’ve turned down many a people too… huk.

3:27 am — wahOo… no school tomorrow. just watched “ocean’s eleven” (with the hottie brad pitt >__<) and “billy madison”… mahaha… i love both of those shits. seriously, “ocean’s eleven” is such a good movie… i shalt add to my list of favorite movies (dude… brad pitt is in three of my top five movies heh!)… which are “fight club”, “12 monkeys”, “ocean’s eleven” ^__^ wahOo! ^__^ man we went to dick’s too… freaking it does not compare to in-n-out at all mannnng. soooo damn overrated. i cannot believe some people told me dick’s is better than in-n-out… jigga puhleeeeez. well i’m going to go. i think amykchung wants me to teach her how to play tennis tomorrow. heh.

JUNGLE and DRUM’N'BASS!

i’m listening to… “suicide” bai kosheen [jungle], “incarnate” bai andy c [drum’n'bass], “our story” bai tension [mandarin], “back to you” bai john mayer [rock], “wait and bleed” bai slipknot [rock], “so far away” bai stabbing westward [rock]
i’m feeling… fine now ^__^
i’m hella diggin… JUNGLE. DRUM’N'BASS! JUNGLE!

1:28 am — if jungle / drum’n'bass were my boyfriend, he could keep me happy forever. >__< seriously… i don’t know what it is… but something about those beats just makes me move. it’s really weird… normally i actually stop dancing because i realize i look like an idiot, but shieeet when that bass hits, i really do not give a fuck… no matter what song it is, something about it just makes me unable to stand still… literally. strange how something so dark can make me so incredibly happy. it’s something i really liked even when i didn’t know what it was… i’m telling you, there is just something about it. -__- tonight me and josh went to ballard firehouse… we just got back, actually… i am quite the sad because nervous breakdown is still spinning… we got there at around 10:15 and had to suffer through boring-ass dj’s until like 12:35 and then nervous breakdown started spinning… but i only really got in like a half hour of happiness because josh seemed like he was bored out of his mind. sigh. speaking of jungle… last time we went to mixed therapy, i discovered another new local fave… NITSUJ. he is soooo freaking tight… hella hella dark jungle. man… it’s weird… because when i’m at home i prefer not to listen to jungle and shiet… in fact, i can’t even really name my favorite jungle / drum’n'bass songs very well… but when it is being spun at any event (or even just played really loud in a car), it just all has such a fat impact on me. who knows why if i don’t know. -__- anyways, i feel like a cornball, but i think jungle is seriously one of the few things that makes me truly happy. fucking weird.

SO ANYWAY. went to korean class today… shim shim haessuh -__- huk. but it actually went by faster than usual, so it’s alright. lately i’ve been having a really weird sleeping schedule… i come home from school and sleep for hours and sleep late at night and wake up early to study… being that i pretty much almost have a quiz or test everyday and korean is actually getting fairly difficult. -__- but i tell you, i shalt do bomb this quarter. we have two sunsaengnim’s this quarter and the second one is being replaced second term of summer quarter… wahOo! we’re going to throw a mini-party for her tomorrow. yeppa. hopefully it will take up some class time. =) afterwards, i went home and freaking susan and josh were just chillin in my dorm… i opened the door and i thought i was in the wrong fucking room! but then we went and bought “massive 2oo2″ and “laygoland 3″ tickets at frequency-8… dude… that’s the first time i’ve ever been to broadway. i like. =) i cannot wait for both of these parties man… freaking drum’n'bass and jungle saavy. i dig. =) i don’t know why, but all of a sudden seattle parties are having all sorts of jungle headliners. it is really quite lovely.

ate with susan, josh, and sun at thai-ger room… finally ordered something other than pad thai (this bean sprout plate)… dude… it was so yum… YUUUUUM. =T afterwards, went to play tennis in the afternoon with a bunch of kids (too lazy to name them all). finally went to the IMA. =) man, i miss playing tennis so much. i got so much freaking darker. sad day. night. whatever. life? yeah.

and then yeah… loafed around and then josh came over and we went to blockbuster to rent some movies, 7-11 to get some slurpees, and then to ballard. i felt so sick when the crappy music was on… i was trying to dance but it felt like i was rolling… only i only felt the nauseous feeling i get when i roll and not any of the good feeling. felt so sick. >__< and then this amazing dancer guy was there (there’s something about good dancing that is really sexy). dennnng yo. good dancer, man. unfortunately… FUCK… i just thought of it… i freaking left my korean textbook in josh’s car and i have a godamn quiz tomorrow… UGH motherfucking fuck! damn me and my jungle giddiness… ugh… i’m so stupid. -__-; i don’t know where my brain is these days… oh wait, that’s everyday. shit. -__-

drug-free for a week and COUNTING! honestly, it really is nothing, but it’s probably the first time in a long time for me. >__<

i’m listening to… “warning” bai incubus [rock], “11 am” bai incubus [rock], “satellite” bai bt [rock], “hear you me” bai jimmy eat world [rock], “saranghae, eebalbaken” bai rich [korean].
i feel… excited.
i’m hella diggin… “hear you me” bai jimmy eat world (whatever hear you me means).

5:46 pm — korean is getting hard, dude. -__- god everything is so whack because it is all so open to any kind of interpretation… and results are always so vague… and it sucks so bad when something you thought was there really was nothing. applies to many a situation. being a person sucks. living sucks, i say. -__- it’s whack because people do things for reasons unknown and sometimes what their intentions seem like are not what they mean at all. applies for myself too. i do things all the time spontaneously and sometimes there’s no purpose behind it at all. sometimes my actions surprise myself. ugh. -__- damn the people.

12:13 am — wahOo! just got back from work which is REALLY not exciting, but we got out hella early today (@ 12:00 am on the dot!) and that’s just fucking exciting when you normally get out 45 minutes later. ^__^ so let me tell you what else is exciting… I SAW THE MOST BEAUTIFUL GUY TODAY. and i mean beautiful in a non-girly way. seriously, he is like the most beautiful guy i’ve ever seen face-to-face in my LIFE. >__< some honger guy (my co-workers friend)… lol… i told my co-worker his friend was so hot and he’s like, “yeah he was on tv before… how come you never tell me i’m hot?!” huk. haha. funnyo. but yeah… he was fucking gorgeous. ^__^; wow, i don’t think i’ve ever used that word on anyone before. FINALLY… a hot asian guy shows up at yunnie’s. tis a first, tis a first. too bad we were busy so i didn’t have time to marvel at his beauty, but he made me trip over a trash can when i first walked in. -__-; yes! twas that hot… hukalicious. haha. oh well. huk. =) eye candy is always good ^__~

oh! you know what else is exciting?! i thought tickets to massive 2oo2 would be $25 each but they were only $16! and on top of that, josh got me the new aaron simpson cd (with my money, but nevertheless)… haha… dope. dope doppity dope dope. =)

i’m listening to… “beautiful” bai mandalay [??], “spin spin sugar” bai sneaker pimps [house?]
i’m feeling… hot!!! my dormroom is like 1o degrees hotter than outside… you go next door and it’s fine. WHAT THE HELL!

11:09 am — i’ve very little to say at the moment, but a couple of things:
+ i’m working at a new layout. check it out here and give me some feedback, please… i also would like to know if it takes a long time to load. =T
+ naf is closing and its last party is the end of september. sad day. oh well.
+ no drugs for a while. school first. no more skipping class! the sunsaengnim scares me and things are actually getting quite hard. but i am doing quite well. ^__^
+ i’m hungry and i’ve no food. SAD DAY!

i’m listening to… — “reach for the sky” bai kuraki mai [japanese], “our days” bai ami suzuki [japanese], “here is gone” bai googoodolls [rock], “saranghae, eebal baken” bai rich [korean], “automatic flowers” bai our lady peace [rock], “thief” bai our lady peace [rock], “i’m okay, you’re okay” bai mxpx [punk], “cheek to cheek” bai the starting line [punk], “fushigi yuugi ending song” [japanese], “angellight 2001″ bai red sector [trance], “unfoolish” bai ashanti [r&b]
i’m feeling… sugary. how dost one feel like that? eating too much sugary stuff. -__-;
i’m hella diggin… SUGARCULT.

2:09 am — okay so… can you believe… yesterday (friday) i was working at yunnie’s and i saw these people outside the store… and they TOTALLY looked like a band and i wanted to ask them who they were since i figured they would be going to warped tour (they just looked like it)… but i didn’t because i was too embarrassed… and fucking turns out today that the guy who came into our store was a member of FINCH… which was the fucking band i wanted to see the most to begin with… and the people in the car were members from home-grown, allister, and the starting line (who was in my top 5 i-want-to-see-bands too)… aiya! should have gone with my intuition and said something yesterday… i got up and got out and everything but chickened out last minute. oh well. ugh… -__- well… to backtrack…

well basically jina drove me, lingo, her cousin suzie and suzie’s friend holly to the gorge… it’s three hours away in eastern washington. only took us a little more than two hours to get there though. on the way there these people in one of the cars had signs… and they said stuff like, “warped tour?” and after we nodded, they put one up that said, “show tits!” and holly made sign that said, “we want dick!” and the guys wrote back “tits first then dick” and she actually showed them, i think -__-;;; i am not quite sure. -__-;; suzie and holly are seriously like the most superficial people i’ve ever met… soooo boy-crazy… honestly, they were checking every single car for cute guys and said like every other fOol was hot. ridiculous! and they knew ZERO of the bands there and the only reason they went in the first place was because they wanted to check out boys! and when i asked if suzie had fun, she said, “well… i got a good tan, so i guess it was alright.” WTF! -__-;; no joke man… all they talk about is either what they look like, boys, or partying. O__o; scary. scary, i tell you.

so. THE GORGE IS FUCKING GORGEOUS I TELL YOU!!!!!! imo… so beautiful >__< all day… booteefull (although too hot huk). freaking… I SO WANT TO GO TO AREA 2 (or whatever)!! SOMEONE TAKE ME GODAMMIT. >__< i don’t care if retarded moby is going to be there! i want to go ahhhhhh the gorge is fucking bizzity bomb. so when i first got there i was like ahhhh what the fuck it’s so big… this is going to be crazy and / or suck… but seriously, i had a really good time. freaking a though… midtown was opening act and we got there a little late so i completely missed them. THAT FUCKING SUCKS! -__-; seemed like a lot of people were mad that they missed midtown, actually. anyways. here goes the summary of all the people i i saw:

- allister: ahhhh newfound like! they’re a goooood group yoooo. freaking “drive-thru records” has some bombass artists yooooo.
- anti-flag: didn’t really stick around for long, but i’m sorry… what i heard of them makes them seem retarded… they kept saying “fuck you” like eight times… it was retarded.
- bad religion: i do not dig their music but they got the crowd going like CRAZY… moshpit was freaking humongous. we were sitting on a hill above so got a really good view of the craziness down there. it was so crazy…
- death by stereo: system of a down wannabes!!!!
- finch: a FREAKING DISAPPOINTMENT!! i’m so mad… their lead singer screeches too godamm much… they were the #1 group i wanted to see and they were a freaking disappointment… ugh! well basically instruments were cool and they rock really hard but their freaking lead singer cannot sing worth beans. he’s fine on CD but live he just sucks incredible amounts of ass. oh well at least they played “without you here” ugh… even though his voice sucked once again.
- good charlotte: they were good i guess, but i don’t really like their music so ehhh. i think their CD-sound is better though.
- mighty mighty bosstones: dude! their lead singer has such a weird voice!
- mxpx: they were SO FREAKING GOOD man… i was so happy that they played “i’m ok, you’re ok”… ahh, bizzity bomb. they were probably second best in my book. they were GOOD. everyone agreed so. good music, good stage performance, goooood goooood goooooood, i say!! wahOo! i am now a fan. ^__^ and it’s majorly cool because i only know / knew like about seven of their songs and all of the songs they played were pretty much ones i knew. fucking tiziiite.
- newfound glory: i really should have seen them instead of seeing finch, since finch sucked, but oh well.
- nofx: last act of the night… the moshpit was SO freaking crazy!!! they were pretty good, i think…? we were far away though, so the sound was sort of distorted.
- reel big fish: i don’t like ska but since they’re the only reason lingo went, i checked them out… they’re actually really good. ^__^ liked a couple of their songs, surprisingly. they’re entertaining too. ^__^
- sugarcult: MY NEWFOUND LOVES hukkkk!! they’re so freaking great >__< their stage presence reminds me of zebrahead… they are freaking funny, yo. they made some guy lick someone else’s armpit for a free t-shirt (which i don’t think they even gave him hahaha) and told some girl to come up and sing their song and she sang it really bad so they like stopped the music and everything. HAHA. ^__^; they really were awesome mannnnn… they played my “hate every beautiful day” song too! wahOo! wOoha! i bought their cd too (ten bucks)… and seriously it is one of the best rock cd’s i have mahaha. fucking bomb… ALL OF THE SONGS. seriously. ahhhh very nice, very nice. *adding sugarcult to list of favorites.
- the eyeliners: it would have been nice to see these people since they were the only females. oh well. >__<
- the starting line: we only had time to see them perform one of their songs after reel big fish performed, but they were good. ^__^ i bought their new cd (for only 8 bucks!) and got it signed by a couple of the members. it was so funny because the lead singer and a guitarist were both at the booth but everyone knew the lead singer and not the guitarist… so everyone told the lead singer to sign but ignored the guitarist. twas quite funny >__<;
- thursday: i would have liked to see! oh well.
- wanted dead: ugh, if they’re who i think they are, they suck major ass.

so my top 5 people to watch (in order): sugarcult, mxpx, reel big fish, allister, and nofx. ^__^

anyways, i had a really bomb time and i am freaking glad i went despite the lack of hot guys. i have never seen so many mohawks in one place, though. man! i have this thing for guitarists with cool hair haha >__< there’s so many guitarists with cool hair for some reason O_o. it’s… cool! i saw the girl with the coolest hair… too bad all girls who i think have cool hair have really short hair and it’d never work on me. -__-; oh well. you know which band has the freaking coolest hair / clothing style? ORGY! man… their style is so tight. ^__^ anyhOo. got a whole shietload of free stuff… magazines… stickers… cd… wOoha! ^__^ wish i had gotten some free keychains though. oh welps! worth the thirty-seven bucks?! i think so!! i am quite upbeat from that right now. spifferOo kangarOo! rock on. heh. =)