inside the wonderful world of vee

* song of the moment * - “tough at the top” bai ezrollers [drum n bass]
* mood * - fine, but kinda sickly… mai throat really hurts.

1:17 am — i’m gonna type this ish really quick and then off to bed i go. i’m still hella sick dood… i really don’t know what is going on here. oh well. today was pretty fucking boring. i was going to wake up at like 7:30 in the morning but then i hit snooze and then i kinda stared at my phone for a while debating whether or not i should go to class and then next thing i knew it was 8:40… and by the time i got ready to go to class, well, i’d be super late. so i skipped CSE… again. and then i went to chinese class, archaeology class, and came home and took a ‘nap’ for a good almost five hours. hahaha. that’s not even a nap anymore -__-; that’s some shit though, because i am / was STILL tired. what the fuck, right? -__-;

anyways after sleeping, i went to go study with richard for a little bit and then just got picked up by hyun and andrew to go to the lambda house. they’re starting winter rush now… whee… some of the same people who got rejected from the first rush went. but a couple of newbies. i don’t know how man rushees total. i have like forty fliers left. sam [yoon] gave me a whole shietload and i said i only wanted like five but he gave me the whole frickin stack. and i didn’t pass out a single one! puhaha. oh well. lalala. bunch of drunken and high people. i stayed sober technically because i have chinese test tomorrow and because i didn’t really want to do either. since i can’t drink smirnoff ice -__- but i can drink mike’s hard lemonade! does that make SENSE? fuck weed. weed is nasty. -__-; anyways. throat hurts like a biotch. i got a ride back from veasna early… only stayed at the house for like two hours and then i’ve been studying chinese for an hour or two. going to do some more studying tomorrow morning. why? because i need to fucking ace chinese and archaeology this quarter… i dropped CSE when i came back from the lambda house. so i need to get like a 4.0 or something in other class. won’t happen… but i should at least get some decent grades -__-; i got a 64% on my first archaeology test. good lord. next one better be better. it’s next week *dun dun dun! chinese… yeah, i’m doing shitty in that too. good lord, what on earth am i doing? -__-;

i really want to go to this thing at nucleus on friday, february 15th… dieselboy is going to be there… and only thirteen bucks! but… very few drum n bass appreciaters around here, so i don’t know. oh well. soooo many concerts this month. mostly hip-hop though! oh! and craig david is coming. but it’s like a forty dollar ticket so i don’t think i’m going to go. oh well. peace outside.

* song of the moment * - “sway” bai bic runga [english]
* mood * - blah

i’m too lazy to write in here… much less to update my webpage. i really do not feel like doing anything these days. it’s quite horrible. anyways, over the weekend i finally tried weed (AND got high). it sucks. i don’t recommend, nor do i really like it. -__-; oh well. whatever. don’t feel like elaborating more. damn, my journal entries must be boring these days… -__-;; i need to get crackalakin and update this webpage. i have so much time these days but so little motivation to do anything. i’m not just talking about homework… which is the main one… i don’t want to do ANYTHING. it’s quite sad, really.

oh yes. i’m going to a 311 and hoobastank concert. whee ~ hopefully it’s good ^__^ dude… i’ll be more entertaining another day. hopefully. i’m… stupid.

* song of the moment * - none
* mood * - iono

it’s snowing! it’s snowing! omg! finally! it’s snowing a lot too kakaka ^__^ anyways, yesterday… at night i went to watch “blackhawk down” with a whole bunch of people. it’s not a bad movie, but i’m never going to watch it again. fucking depressing it is!! -___-; aigo, i need to go to the backdoor and get some cough drops or something. i’m hella fucking sick. fucking sucks. fucking shit. hahaha. anyways after the movie, me, carolynn, sun, charles, tk, richard [lee], and erika went to koryo to eat dinner and guess who we saw? hana and jinie! whee ~ party party. hehe. it was weird though because taejin was working there too -__-; he worked at the nohrehbang place we went to last time too. ehh… wtf. haha. oh well. that’s cool ^__^;

afterwards we all went to johnny, gene, and chun’s house and hmmm… had drinking party. i started drinking a mike’s hard lemonade but then i felt like shiaaaat so i stopped after about two sips of that ish. -__-; too sick to drink. afterwards, i got a ride back with edwin’s girlfriend and went to visit sebastian, eva, lewis, jun, joe, jon, shawna and phil at their little strip poker event… annnnd i was a prude and refused to play anything ^__^ kakaka. prudish art i. oh well. pzzzz.

* song of the moment * - “yuhja yinika” bai kiss [korean]
* mood * - fine

11:25 pm — today was pretty typikal day… went to all my classes then came back, ate, and took a two hour nap =) seriously, i can’t stop eating. aiya. i just came back from our little on-campus store and bought a whole buncha junk… corn, turkey, pringles, marshmellows, string cheese, chocolate. sigh. what am i doing? =( time to go on a diet again. haha. anyways, later tonight i went to odegaard library to study with amykchung and actually got MOST of my archaeology studying done. we have an archaeology midterm tomorrow! blah! i got free cigarettes too… because amy said she is going to quit so she gave hers to me. what i am going to do with them, i don’t know. smoke all twelve… wahahah. right. haha oh yeah and she borrowed a laptop computer from the library and this one guy left his aim screename WITH password on the computer so we just went on and chatted… and haha, the guy knows hyun so i talked to hyun for a little bit as well as some other people. twas interesting. =) bored children art us!

* song of the moment * - “buddy holly” bai weezer [english]
* mood * - fine

hmmm yesterday i woke up hella early (got four hours of sleep) and went to work… i was a bitter kid during work. haha. oh well. after that, came home and napped, and then had this horrible urge to get drunk. aish. so… at night i went over to eat with brian, chol, and andrea at denny’s and then went to go drink with sebastian, eva, jun, jon, joe, blah, etc. whee ~ hehehe… i actually like getting drunk now cuz i get really happy. in fact, i think i get happier when i’m drunk than when i’m rolling… is that not odd or what? O.o; anyways… drank two bottles of mike’s hard lemonade… like half shot of malibu, and a lil vodka… ehhh i think i was a lil drunk ^^ but then again i didn’t stand up so had i done that, i might have discovered i was more drunken than i thought? i dunno. anyways, fun fun, and no hangover, so… yay! =)

(richard’s response:)
and who calls me an Alki. HA! eat them apples.

* song of the moment * — “lipstick on a coffee cup” bai s#arp [korean], “children” bai robert miles [trance], “sleep together” bai garbage [rock]
* mood * — tre gute.

fuk yea. lyfe is goin gooood. hyuk hyuk hyuk. tym to tell yoo about mai past… bajillion daze ^__^

saturday, february 9th — hmmm slept all morning. i was planning to wake up at 11:30 am for some funkee ass reason but then i got up, and basically kept resetting mai alarm clock at half hour and fifteen minute intervals. haha. retarded. ended up getting up at 1:00 pm and then andy [lee], suejung, and josh came over to mai dorm and we went to the bank, then went to the hub so i could watch them eat. and finally, we drove up to alpental in snoqualmie and went snowboarding. wOopwOop! ^__^ i finally got to use mai new board. so nice. i like. at first the back plate kept digging into mai leg because the binding was too big… but then andy changed it when we had a break and now it’s so fucking good. i love mai board *sniff. i fell a couple times really badly tho… >.<;; mai neck hurts so much right now.. can’t turn it all the way… pOoperscOoper. i need to go again soon before the season is over! get use of mai frickin board. ^__^ i improved a lot since last time. last time was just FUCKED up… huk… i don’t kno why last tym was so bad but it was. bad bad bad bad. this tym was okay. but i need to go again before i forget. after snowboarding we went to mcdonald’s and they ate some stuff… i jes ate a frozen yogurt cone… yum… and then we went to krispie kreme. man, those people are retarded. they wait outside in line for the drive-thru for hella daze when the line inside is sooo much shorter AND if yoo go inside yoo get a free sample. they bought a dozen but i jes ate the sample, and was quite content with just that. it’s a lil overrated. it’s good, but not THAT good. but it’s really cool cause they have this big giant plexiglass yoo can look thru and see how the doughnuts are made… really interesting ^__^ i like, i like!

sunday, february 10th — worked all morning… pOo! frickin went to work at twelve and don didn’t show up to open the store until one -__- that bastard. so i was waiting outside for like 45 minutes and then i decided to call chan… and soon don came… but i went to do some window-shopping at retro viva… they have cool shit man. kinda expensive for mai tastes, tho. anyway, i left mai check card at home so i just didn’t buy anything. then i went to work. it went bai fast cuz i only worked 1 pm - 4 pm ^__^ whee. afterwards i was walkin home and i saw sun and he asked if i wanted to go to the mall with him, gene, jacob, and carolynn so i said sure, why not, and then i went to bellevue square with him. now sun owes mee 55 bucks cuz i bought his girlfriend’s birthday present for him… since he forgot to bring his check card. that loser. and eva owes mee 60 bucks… hyuk hyuk hyuk. imma rich fOo right now! O.o; i bought a black dickies bag and a limelight sweatshirt (only 15 bucks!) @ zumiez… good thing i didn’t buy that limelight sweatshirt before… i was gonna buy it before but i didn’t… and now it was on sale! whoopwhoop! ^__^ and then i just stayed up til 3 am doing laundry. that was fun. not. i need to fold mai clothes… soon. hyuk.

monday, february 11th — k forced maiself to get out of bed this morning because i really didn’t want to go to class >.<; took mee like ten painstaking minutes to get outta bed cuz i was so sore… hoohoohoo. went to both mai classes and then sam and [kimchi-]john picked mee up and we (and chol too) went to world wrapps and ate lunch… lalala… afterwards met up with hana briefly and everyone went to cellophane square to buy their dynamo tickets… i went to retro viva and bought a new pair of rave pants… hyuk. it was only 26 bucks tho dood! and they’re cute. fuqin large size tho… makes mee feel hella fat. oh well. maybe cuz i am getting there -_____-;; afterwards chol went home and mee, john, sam, and mike went to play pool at the hub… whoop whoop… i did pretty good today. O.o;; made in the eight ball into the wrong hole once tho. doh. oh well. at night okay i was going to KILL eva. she told mee to go meet her at odegaard for some stupid kdphi / lil sis mixer thing… and i said okay, and then she calls and is like “come to lander” (which is farther). and i got to lander and then she’s like “come inside lander”. and her and sebastian are EATING!!!! and then i just sat around watching them eat… fukin sebastian bought mee ice cream since he knows if i have food in front of mee i’ll eat it, regardless of whether or not i want it >.< and then we were gonna go to the kdphi thing but there was like FIVE minutes left… i frickin went there an hour early for no reason!!!! i had clothes that needed to be folded! >.<; but yeah me, eva, nikki, kathy, and liz went to yunnie’s and they bought bubble tea… and then we went back for the lambda bone marrow registry meeting… how exciting. not. but i really think giving blood and bone marrow and shit is good shit. it’s good. everyone should do it. screw all yoo people who i asked and jes straight out said no! yoo bastards -___-

tuesday, february 12th — went to classes… class? i don’t remember. then hana came to u-dubb as well as some other new people… meeting a lotta new people… and we just hung out for a while… blahblah. and then… yes… i went to odegaard to study until 4 am for chinese midterm and then got four hours of sleep, woke up, studied more, and STILL did bad. godammit. o yea today in chinese class we were giving presentations and we had a chinese new year party… so everyone (but mee) brought stuff from home (i brought paper towels hahahah) and we had a fucking feast. like three different kinds of nian gao and other good shit. it was fucking good. =) i met this guy named max today… i swear to god he is one of the funniest fuckers in the world. he’s even funnier than phil [nho]! =O oh yeah! and after chinese class today the lambda phi epsilon are doing a bone marrow registry drive… and i entered it… so okay the stupid nurse lady couldn’t find mai vein so that took forever… and then she took blood from mee but didn’t check that it stopped bleeding and just put a band-aid over it… and then i folded mai arm and soon blood was fukin gushing everywhere… -__-; then she had to put like a tourquinet thing over it to stop the bleeding. hahaha… the same thing happened to eva. hyun was saying it is how us san francisco kids have problems… wahahha. they’d better watch out for aids too =P

wednesday, february 13th — went to chinese class and took a midterm. did pretty bad. skipped archaeology because i didn’t feel like going. two days in a row -__-; eepers… jeepers creepers. yeah and then afterschool i went to work until seven… bought a tank top for dynamo… and then went to visit people at ian’s domain… left early… then went to bubble tea with josh, chol, suejung, esther, seungbum, anna [lee], richard [lee], carolynn, and kimchi-john at night and made seungbum mad @ mee cuz i dissed him twice -__-;; tis all, tis all.

everyone is so happy lately… it’s fucking uncanny… i feel like i’m living in a dream world these days… getting to know so many new people… it’s a strange strange feeling o.O i cannot fucking WAIT until dynamo. it’s been a while (since droppity drop drop) and i swear to god everyone but kimchi-john is going to dynamo… and he might O.o so it will be fun fun fun!

* song of the moment * — “i don’t wanna go on” bai innerlude [r&b]
* mood * — huk… again

11:01 pm — i was awoken this morning bai richard, who needed to use mee for carpool again. that mofo… mee and mai spine of jelly… huk… i went back to sleep for an hour, and then woke up in time for class but then just sat around and decided not to go to class. god, what the fuck am i doing with mai life? i have no idea… -__-;; anyways at around 1:30-ish jina picked mee up and we drove two hours to steven’s pass to go snowboarding… which was good. hella good snow… altho mai left butt cheek hella hurts now. i swear to god i ONLY fall on mai left butt cheek. fucking sucks. oh and fuck caitlin jes told mee i missed a quiz in chinese today. fucking sucks. i’m fucking retarde. -__-; anyways. mee and jina forgot to bring goggles and it was snowing hella hard so our faces are all red and wind-burned from the friggin snow. -__-; but i improved a lot. i guess that was good. but it wasn’t really stress-relieving like i had hoped. it would have been but then i got reminded of things and so yeah… not stress-relieving any longer… hOohOo. ahpoo… i need to go dancing… -__-;

i don’t kno how people can deal with mee… i have major problems… -__-; these couple of days it seems like nothing or no one really makes mee happy. i laugh, and stuff, but when it comes down to it i still feel like shit. there isn’t a real reason, really… i just don’t feel in place anywhere or with anyone. i miss mai cali people… i honestly do. at least in cali i kno who to trust and i kno who actually gives a fuk. here… i have a bajillion acquaintances but so what… i don’t really feel like i fit in anywhere. huk… i dunno… life sucks. forrealz. i dun tell people this shit because i don’t want them to invite mee along because they feel sorry for mee. despite good intentions, i still don’t feel right… man… i’m fucked up. i make too many mistakes… and i think i need to take more risks for things… but i am actually worried about what people think of mee. i don’t care if they don’t like how i dress or whatevers… but i do care if they think i’m annoying or psycho or something… i dunno. it’s hard for mee to make the effort to get to kno people better, i guess. sometimes i try but it usually doesn’t work unless they are the type to invite mee along to do stuff… man… i dunno what to think, really. peace outside.

* song of the moment * - “when you say nothing” bai allison krauss [english]
* mood * - bleh

okay so yesterday i just slept til like 2:30 pm and then woke up, got ready, and hung around for a while and then we (me, chol, josh, minsoo, abe, and michelle) crammed into josh’s tiny 91′ civic and went to alderwood mall to buy [kimchi-]john a birthday present and then we went to him and sam [poulton]’s apartment and hung out for a while… ehh then we went to equality… ohmigod it was gay. i had no fun whatsoever. the music was good but only for a while… they played like crystal method elektronika type stuff the whole time… which is cool but my dear god i got so bored… it was so not freaking fun arggggh >.<; oh well… whatever. ugh…

* song of the moment * - “wasting my time” bai default [english]
* mood * - fine

11:39 am — aish, i’m bad. this morning i went to my first class and that’s it… -__-;; compsci lecture… whee ~ so fun. not. oh well, though. i should have gone to my other classes… i was going to come home and nap instead but of course i didn’t. instead i played online. go to my AA page people (ShortyVi). i made it beautiful! ^__^ fauk… i just spent like 100-something dollars online buying shiet. bought four cd’s from yesasia.com (jtl 1, brown eyes 1, grace 1, and a naying cd) and boots, a backpack, and a sweatshirt from pacsun.com ~ aish. yesasia.com has expensive ass shipping and handling. pacsun’s is okay though - especially since what they’re mailing is so big and heavy ^__^; whee ~ hehe. hopefully everything fits. i’m excitededed! =)

anyways, yesterday… i went to all my classes (omigod!) and that was exciting. hmmm then afterwards i just went home, vegged around, and then josh visited and i treated him to dinner (technically). i paid with my card which is pre-paid money, so it’s not really money… hehe. yeah… chol went to dinner too and he was hella making fun of me in a perverted way because i said “you know what i like to touch when i’m rolling?” and i paused a second and yeah… it all went downhill from there. what i WAS going to say was “frosty plastic paper” but… -__-;; hmm then i went home briefly to pick up money to give to josh so that him and chol can go buy equality tickets today and went to get some groceries.

then i went home again for like two seconds and then went over to richard and tony’s because richard and tk were watching pearl harbor… man, i’m at their dorm too much. i should find somewhere new to go. -__-; watched like forty-five minutes of the movie… WHAT THE FUK… that movie is fukin retarded. ben affleck and nurse meet for like ten seconds and they’re in love? WTF?! -__-;; sooo retarded. oh well. i kept making comments while they were just trying to watch the movie… oOpsies… it just slightly irritated mee, tho! -__-; but it was kinda funnie… i think that’s cool that they show the funnie parts of life and not that everything was all serious. did that make sense? i had to leave early to go to a lil sis meeting… so i walked there with eva… WhOoPiE… it was okay… turned out better than i thought it would be. ^__^; guess i can’t say much more than that. psh. frickin down-lowness. hehe. mmm and then i went back to tony and richard’s because i left mai keys there… yeah, i’m retarded -__-; ended up staying like a frickin hour playing video games with (mainly) tony… again. frickin a (frickin c!) mee bringing video games to college is going to be the cause of mai delinquency… -__-; good thing it’s not in mai room, or it’d never end. oh well. we were thoroughly amazed because richard beat tony in puzzlefighter and he plays it soooo slow… too much dropping makes retarded kids… -__-;; kakaka.

oh… yes… if yoo guys like drum n’ bass, download “hybrid” bai konflict ^^ it’s faukin good.

* song of the moment * - “the weather” bai built to spill
* mood * - good

mmmm last night i went over to richard’s dorm because he was dyeing (dying… har har) carolynn’s hair there… so i just went a chilled for a little while and the we went over to the lambda house and kicked it for a while… and then went to chinatown to eat at fort st. george… an americanized japanese food place… it’s not that good. it’s okay. i think overrated. honey court is much better… mmm honey court. haha. but yeah after that carolynn dropped mee and richard off at his house so that he could get his car and we went to nohrehbang and met up with paul [nadal], hana, jini, and anna… hahaha we ended up staying for like three hours. it came out to be $120 total but we ended up only having to pay like $40… so iss koo… ^^ nrb’s in washington are good… but then again straight nrb’s in cali are good too… it’s just the ones that have every language that are ghetto -___-; anyhoo, then i went back, played some more video games (aish), and that’s about all.