inside the wonderful world of vee

* song of the moment * - “diamond dust” bai himuro kyosuke… this song is pretty dang good. can’t say his voice is all that attractive, but it’s a good song. i’ve really been into japanese music and rock music lately! o.O they are both really good. but as for j-rock (a mixture of the two)… i haven’t really found anyone that i lyke other than luna sea. i lyke them. they’re good. =) but as for glay and l’arc~en~ciel and stuff… nope, not mai thang. ohhh i lyke shiina ringo a LOT. she’s hella good. in fact i jes bought her cd on http://www.yesasia.com today… along with kim johan 3 -_- i’m such a money waster… all mai $$ goes towards cds. =P btw, for those of yoo who lyke korean hip-hop, check out mc hansai… i think he’s really good. i thought he was japanese @ first but it turns out he’s korean - or @ least he raps in korean… who knows?
* mood * - sickly.

anyways, i didn’t go to skool today. i should go man… i’ve been missin a lotta skool lately and mai grades seriously are shiet. shieeeet. -_-; i currently have a d- in math. i’m kewl, huh?? i kno, i kno, yur jealous. try to tie down that green-eyed monster. why is jealousy a green-eyed monster anyway? heh ~ * oh speaking of jealousy… right now we’re reading “othello” in english class… what a crock of shiet. i hate reading plays and books and stuff with stupid characters. they’re jes so STUPID. lyke the crucible??? holy shiet that book pissed mee off so much because i could think of ways to counteract everything that happened so that it would help the lady accused of witchcraft. but nooo… doesn’t happen cuz it’s a play. which bothers mee. if it were mee, i would have won! o.O i don’t think this entire paragraph made any sense.

so i didn’t go to skool today cuz i’m sick. today i’m okay… but when i stand up mai head throbs. it’s okay when i’m sitting, tho. yesterday i left @ lunch cuz mai head hurt, i had a fever, and a sore throat. blech. that’s what everyone has. i swear, 99% of the world is sick right now. it’s kinda weird. everyone has the same symptoms too! claire, dahye, chris, jeanette <~ one of y'all got mee sick!! >_< !!! probably more than jes yoo four too. dorkus bajorkuses. but yeah i still had to go to skool afterskool for fucking journalism shit. i hate journalism. dun ever be an editor. -_- it’s a crock of shit and hard-work. and pointless if yoo forget to even write such a big honkin thing on yur mofo college application. i kno, i’m such a dumbass!!!!!!!! argh ~ * and those stOopid journalism guys wouldn’t even let mee go home!! they’re all fucking pricks man. they dun do shiet themselves and they’re so dorky they STALL so that they can stay afterskool til like 8 o’clock, i swear. so dorky. and all they talk about is politics. which is kewl, but everyday, all the tym, it’s lyke “GOD SHUT THE FUCK UP!” well… that’s what i wanna say, anyways. oh, and yesterday four of them went to get hamburgers and they didn’t even ask if anyone else wanted any… assholes. -_- i mean, it’s common courtesy to ask, especially when other people always bring them food. buttmunches.

“love @ first sight”… i think that is a retarded quote. cuz if yoo ask mee, it’s not possible. how can yoo LOVE someone when yoo first SEE him or her?? i dun think yoo can love, much less even LIKE, a person due to a glance. yoo can be ATTRACTED, but in this case, attraction is all about looks anyway. actually the majority of people don’t agree with this quote! so why is it so widely used??? weird ~ *

i’ve concluded that if what someone says or does causes yoo to be lyke “whoa!! i never knew he was lyke that!”, yoo dunno him well enough to lyke him. i’ve done it before too… claimed that i lyked people i didn’t even kno @ all, or barely knew, but that was a long tym ago. i think i’ve grown some brains since then. i think i jes wanted people to lyke, jes for the helluv it, but i dunno about everyone else. this was pointless. i jes had to say it =P

i heard that psychologists think everyone has at least six or seven people that they can marry and totally get along with. i think that’s hella interesting… and i guess i believe it? i dun think i believe in the one soulmate thing… it’s jes a nice idea, i guess. cuz then it seems lyke, “wow this guy is the only, perfect one for mee” when in actuality he can get along with hella people. heh ~ i dun think i’m making sense.

* song of the moment * - some song bai william so and lmf… i dunno the name, but it’s entertaining, minus the random puking sounds which are not too entertaining >.< they’re jes gross
* mood * - i dunno…

right now this forum is all fucked up because geocities is being cheap and wun let people link from them… so i’ll fix it later… cuz right now mai whole page is being a bitch and i could care less about this…

i need a new host or something cuz digitalrice is being a bitch… -_-;

anyways… i’m now grounded for lyfe (again) cuz i went to a dance yesterday instead of going to church. heh ~ i knew that was comin. lyke… afterskool i went home and then to claire’s house cuz she wanted to play mai hair… even tho we did nothing but put a whole shietload of gel in mai hair, then take it out and make mai hair all nasty… *sigh ~

then we went to red robin’s and then i had to go pick up dahye, jeanette, and elaine too… and then onto the dance… the stoopid dj got in a car crash (dammit! how could he get into a car crash?! jk) and then we had to wait outside for a friggin half hour… and then yeah, mai parents called mee and knew i wasn’t @ church cuz parents’re scarie lyke that and then now i’m grounded for lyfe. obviously more than that happened but i’m too lajee to type it all.

oh yeah @ the dance they had a dance contest and it was pretty kewl @ first yoo kno cuz all these people were breaking and popping (whoo, this girl actually popped… pretty kewl)… and the guys in front of mee were hella stoopid, they kept laughin @ everyone and didn’t do nothin themselves… stoopidasses. anyways, then these stoopid wannabe ravers busted out their lights and did those stoopid light sho things and it was boring as hell. stoopid! i dun find that stuff entertaining to watch @ all. o well. late.

yesterday i was watching this special on fox… about conspiracy theories. mainly to do with nasa’s apollo missions. along with the apollo missions comes… the landing on the moon.

it sounds kinda absurd @ first, but if yoo actually dig deeper, it’s hella possible… the points that the conspiracy theorists brought up were sooo… undeniable. here are some.

1) even tho it is proven that there is no air or wind in space (thus, no sound), in pictures of the american ‘landing on the moon’, yoo can see the american flag waving in the wind… which shouldn’t even be possible.

2) on the moon there should only be one source of light — the sun. but in many of nasa’s pictures, shadows are casted in numerous directions, indicating more than one source of light…

3) the video that nasa had showing the landing and walk on the moon was made so that it was very grainy and unclear, but pictures taken were completely clear.

4) there is a large nuclear field yoo must pass to go to the moon… to cross that nuclear field, yoo supposedly have to have thousands of pounds of metal… which would have been more than was on the astronauts and on the craft combined… so experts say that the astronauts definitely would have felt the effects of nuclear radioactivity.

5) the russians who were with the americans in the space race never went to the moon because of fear of the nuclear field.

6) since the apollo missions, the americans have made NO plans to return to the moon.

7) after the apollo missions, dozens of astronauts died mysteriously… and causes of death were never known or reported to family members of the astronauts. it is believed that these astronauts were killed because of their knowledge of the ‘landing on the moon’.

no one other than the americans have gone to the moon! o.O

so i dunno… i totally think that it’s possible… especially the fact that no one has gone to the moon other than the americans… and the waving flag even tho there should be absolutely no air or wind on the moon… it sounds hard to believe, but what do yoo guys think? if anyone is even reading… wahahah =P

(reader response:)
about the flag. wires were put on the back (kinda like a frame) so that the flag would be rigid and “stand up” and not just flop down.

* song of the moment * - “a little wait” bai ku:l… i dun understand why ku:l gets so famous offa all their cheezyass happyass songs when they’re other songs are sooo freeking good… -_-;
* mood * - refreshed, like a cool mountain stream (only tin-win would understand that) aka i jes took a shower.

wellz today we had skool… it was alrite i guess… skool can only get so fun? man… we were talking in physics and this girl like knows how smart she is… i hate that… when smart people kno how smart they are and brag about it. anyhoo, that girl is hella smart but she didn’t take p.e. (physical education) so she like can’t graduate or something… hahahaha… kinda evil, but i actually think that is pretty funnie… she’s valecdetorian (god, i can’t spell that) too… so i think she’s gonna independent study p.e. ~ yoo kno what yoo have to do for independent study p.e.? yoo have to go to a gym or something three tymz a week and jes write down whatchu did… thas it -_-

man… i really have to go talk to mai sophomore skater dood sometime… he’s hella hot.

anyhoo… in english we’re acting out othello… i have no idea what that’s about yet cuz our teacher kinda treats us like kindergarteners… when she was reading the play, she wanted us to say “yay” whenever othello’s name came up, “boo” whenever iago’s name came up, “ahh” whenever desdemona’s name came up, and so on… hey, i’m pretty impressed with maiself… i actually memorized all their names already =D that’s cuz i had to draw a pic of desdemona for the class… hahaha… i can’t draw anything… i can draw like similar-looking people… with small anime eyes cuz i can’t draw eyes… oh, how pathetic ~ * i really envy people who can draw… like really well… that is such an awesome talent to have.

right now i’m listening to “goodbye” bai lee jihoon… dOod i listen to way too much korean music for mai own good… i can’t help it tho… they have so much more hip-hop and i am definitely a hip-hop chik… -_- lately i’ve been really into rock tho. anyways, about this lee jihoon song… it sounds so good if yoo jes listen to the music, but then he starts singing, and his voice is annoying. yes, end of story.

afterskool i went to dahye’s house and we pretty much jes sat around and talked… and ate (aka, got fatter). yoo kno, it’s really something i’ve taken for granted, but it is really really a good thing to have frendz yoo can really talk to and jes have a good tym with… i mean i’m frendz with a lotta people i can barely have conversations with… so i’m guessing it’s not even tru frendship… jes surface level stuff i guess? but all those people will probably be weeded away after this year (onto college!). it’s actually kind of sad in a way, to think that so many people yoo kno now yul never talk to again… i mean, i’m only a senior in high skool and i already really really miss the people that i haven’t talked to since like middle skool… i still say hi to some of them as an acquaintance i guess, but it’s really not the same… yesh, yet another shitty part of life, i guess…

yeah so we had a revival night @ church tonite… and for some reason i thought it started @ 7:00 pm but it really started @ 8:00 pm, so when i got to church i was like “uhhh”… and so i called sherry and she told mee i was stOopid… well not really, but she told mee that it didn’t start til 8:00 so i waited for her ass to drive down to pleasanton from the boring land of danville. anyhOo i had to wait for like twenty minutes so i jes went to walgreen’s and safeway (which were across the street from our fine-dining place for dinner, aka jack-in-the-crack, aka jack-in-the-box)… @ walgreen’s i bought this blue shimmery lipstick stuff and white eyeliner / lipliner… only cuz i bought that stuff before, i liked it, i left it in fil’s car after homecoming, he gave it to mee a week later, and needless to say, it was majorly melted -_- bOo… i actually spent money on that shiet too. i used to steal that shiet like a fiend… hahaha. that was a longass tym ago tho… i’m a good kid now 0=) but yeah… i’m weird… when i was younger i used to always wear hella hella dark lipstick… like brown… and now i’m wearing hella white stuff (if i wear anything @ all i mean)… i like really extreme stuff, i guess. what pisses mee off is girls that think they can’t get a guy if they dun wear like eighty pounds of makeup… whuteva dood… if those guys really dun like yoo jes because yoo dun wear makeup, either they dun have personalities, or YOO dun… i mean… a lot of guys dun like girls with makeup anyways.

anyhoo, after i went to walgreens i went to safeway to withdraw twenty bucks from mai account because i’ve been wasting money like a fiend lately… oh and lately, fiend has been mai fave word >P @ safeway i was jes browsin for cheap old v-day candy (there was none) so i stumbled across the candy section for mai oh-so-lovely dark chocolates… and there… i saw the most amazing thing ever!!!!! twelve candy bars — yesh, that’s right, twelve — for only three dollars. well… with a safeway club card. i jes used jeanette’s phone number… that’s what we always do =D it’s kinda embarrassing buying so many candies, tho… dun try it unless yoo find a deal like mee! those kinda deals are insurpassable (is that a word?)!

jack-in-the-crack was nasty, as usual, but it was amusing, i guess. @ night the revival night was pretty good… our speaker tim leung is a hella hella funnie man. hella funnie. he’s so hilarious… speakers that are funnie are good because they actually appeal to teenagers who have attention spans of little monkeys or something… or @ least i do! heh ~ *

@ the end there was some weird thing… like everyone was praying and they said that people who wanted to go up to the altar to kneel and pray to god could… chris and i jes stayed in our seats… and the reason i did was because i think if yoo go to a church for a revival night, and yoo truly are in it jes for god (not that i am), yoo dun need to go up there, drop to yur knees, and pray fervently… i mean, if yoo stay in yur seat god would kno what yur thinking anyway, right?? i mean, he / she IS god -_-; chris totally agreed with mee… cuz he thought it should be a personal thing or whateva, but i am really surprised that more people didn’t agree with mee and more people didn’t stay in their seats… i looked around a couple of tymz and i was really impressed with those hardcore christians that stayed in their seats cuz i think a lotta them might really be in it for god. obviously, i dunno, and i shouldn’t be judging, but in a situation like that… actually, being in a church jes makes people quicker to judge, i think -_-; as bad as that sounds.

* song of the moment * - “foolish games” bai jewel… man… this song is so freeking good… haven’t heard it for the longest tym =(
* mood * - i dunno

i jes watched gen-x cops… that movie sucks but nic tse is so awesome… he’s jes cool, i dunno. i dun think he’s hot like a lotta people, but he is sure as hell talented… he can sing, rap, compose songs, write lyrics, and act hella well… so he’s awesome… oh, not to mention he has the MOST awesome hair… ^_^

anyways… today was such a stupid day… i did absolutely nothing… mee and sherry were gonna go watch traffic (i wanna see that so badly… the guy who wrote it used to be a drug addict, so everything is hella realistic)… i’ve been wanting to see that movie for the longest tym but then sherry had to go out to dinner with her family. psh… dinner… psh… family… psh!!!

so yesterday i was supposed to go to sadie’s with chris, but we didn’t end up going because only eighty people were going out of a skool of two thousand people… hahahaha that’s pretty damm funnie. =P i wonder if anyone went to our gay skool’s dance? so we ended up going to the mall (mee, chris, karen, and eugene)… and then eugene and chris wanted to go watch hannibal… so mee and chris went to milpitas and ate dinner and got nai cha and uh… i dunno. wasted gas, basically. =P afterwards we all went to danville bowl and went disco bowling for like an hour and a half… pretty fun… never done that before… but the lights are kinda disorienting o.O - i’ve gone bowling with chris and eugene sooooo many tymz this month… what a waste of money… well afterskool it is only $0.50 a game so that’s kewl… but i think i should get mai own shoes or something >P

today i downloaded mp3’s like a freeking mofo… mostly rock mp3’s but some chinese stuff too… download stuff bai “yu hungming (or yu hongming)”… his voice is soooo freeking good, but he’s not really famous… i dunno why, but his voice is oooo so sexy =P he’s probably ugly, tho… that’s probably why he’s not famous. which is why i’m so surprised that david tao is so famous (goes to show how awesome he is) =P

today our church was supposed to have a praise night too but it got cancelled. why? i don’t kno. i dun really care, tho >P

ps - i hate waiting for college acceptances or rejections
pps - i hate missing people even more…
ppss - i hate knowing some things and i hate not knowing other things >.< !

* song of the moment * - “i want” bai fly to the sky… offa their new album. they’ve actually improved, altho i hate to admit it. their voices are much better and the raps are better too. o-m-g. =P boa and kang ta are in this song. it’s pretty dang good.
* mood * - good.

guess what? i dunno if i wrote this yesterday, but i finally have met a REAL japanese person. all the other ones i’ve met weren’t like FAKE or anything, but they were like sixth generation and didn’t kno how to speak japanese or anything lyke that… can’t exactly blame them cuz it’s not their fault, but it’s nice to actually meet a japanese person that’s ‘real’. =P

i think today i’ll return to being back into korean music. i haven’t listened to any new korean music since boa’s debut, and that was one damm long tym ago. but now that i have working speakers, i guess i’ll download lots of mp3’s… =P

i dun like how brian jOo says nigga so much. but, if it makes him happy… -_- boa has a really good voice, actually. she’s kewl (aka, i’m jealous =P). i swear, i only get jealous of people i dunno. i bet if i knew them i wouldn’t be jealous of them… anyways, fany (hwanhee)’s voice is hella annoying. blech. oh now i’m listening to track five of the fly to the sky album “i want you, i need you”… it has kim johan (the guy from solid) in it. he’s soooo freeking awesome. his voice is hella good. i barely hear his voice in this song, tho. i’m kinda getting sick of how sm uses off-beats in their music soooooo much now… it was koo @ first… but now it’s jes getting annoying cuz so many of their songs sound similar. annoying.

mai mom doesn’t want mee to drive after the dance tomorrow… uhhh that’s kinda stOopid… and they wun let mee drive people altho i’m not under the six-month-no-driving-other-people law anymore… shiez… that’s why it pisses mee off when some of mai frendz complain about how anal their parents are when they KNO how mai parents are. it’s like i jes wanna be like “oh heeelll no! yoo dun EVEN kno unless yoo’ve been mee”. *grumble grumble. one of mai frendz gets to stay out til like 3:00 AM and then she complains when her mom wun let her go somewhere, and for good — no, terrific — reason also. shadap, shadap. ima!

ps - new layout will be up on valentine’s day. hopefully?

* song of the moment * - “sorry, i love you” bai fish leong… what a stupid name. i really like the lyriks to this song =T here’s a partial translation: “i don’t know how you’ll think or what you’ll say / but even so, it won’t change my decision / i want you to listen to my heart beat / i want you to know i don’t sleep well / when i drink water i think of you / when i ride a car i think of you / when i shut both eyes all that appears is you / i cannot guess what your expression means / i cannot wait for your response / i don’t want to face disaster because of you / but i don’t want to let you go / i’ve decided to tell you that i’m sorry… / i’m sorry but i love you…”
* mood * - i don’t kno? good, i guess… only cuz it’s not bad.

finally, i have senioritis… well, minor senioritis, anyways. i got to stay home most of the day today cuz i was butt tired… but then i ended up going to skool fifth period cuz i thought i’d need to do a lab in physics… turned out we didn’t do a lab and i went to skool for no freeking reason… dammit. i think i’ll have to make up a math lab this week or something… how gay. i hate math. i hate mai class… i have such crappy luck… the classes that we do the most group projects in (math and civics) are the classes that i dun really kno anyone *dammit… hecka not fair… i was thinking of reasons that i have bad luck. i came up with two. 1) maybe it’s cuz i’m not being faithful to god. heh… but then, i swear mai lyfe is that cursed even when i did believe in him; 2) maybe it’s cuz i don’t return chain letters. but then again, i would also be dead bai now.

so i guess i don’t kno what the reason is for my having such crappy luck. it’s a mystery. mystery men is a horribly stupid movie… i can’t believe i watched that… heh ~ * i really wanna watch “traffic” and “snatch (only cuzza brad pitt ^^;)”. eventually, eventually. man… i wish i were in college now (then again, who doesn’t?). i wanna kno what college i’m going to also. man… have to wait another torturous month…

i’m sick of guys… again =P i think imma go be a nun… again =P really, i wish it were that simple. they’re so much energy to think about and… blech… it just really sucks. =( anyways. i wanna meet david tao… i really really want to meet him (and i also really really want jeremy to give mee back mai david tao cd -_-). he is so freeking talented… i bet if he looked like nic tse or something he’d be a lot more famous, tho… but he doesn’t… so it’s kewl that people actually like him because of his singing (*drool) skillz, his rapping (?) skillz, and definitely his composing and producing skillz. he is jes soooo freeking awesome. oh well whatever.

this afternoon i was watching korean music videos again. i was watching a performance of “nuhmaneun chunsaga dwaeyo” bai voice… blech… i used to like them… and i guess i still like the song but it pissed mee off cuz they were lip-syncing but they tried to act like they were all into the song and stuff. and they were lipping to a BALLAD. why not jes sing it? i honestly don’t think if yoo can sing in a studio yoo wun be able to sing live. unless yoo were REALLY REALLY nervous, but then people would be able to tell anyways. stuppppid. and why is park jiyoon so damm famous. that bugs mee too =T

* song of the moment * - “save the best for last” bai vanessa williams… i love this song. i want it to be our senior ball theme song, but i doubt that’ll happen.
* mood * - i dun even kno.

today i went to church. it was alrite… it’s church… pretty much the same every week ^^; then i came home… got yesterday’s mail because mai mom forgot =P got mai report card which was pretty crappy (i got a 2.83) and i got accepted to san jo state too… that’s kewl i guess, but i dun wanna go there. i dun wanna go to rutgers either, cuz mai uncle and grandma want mee to stay with them if i go there, but hellll no… so i better get into a uc or i’ll be not-so-happy.

oh yeah i went snowboarding this weekend… imma tell yoo about it… friday, i skipped sixth period to go home early and shower and stuff, and then met fil and josh @ nor-ski to rent snowboards… cuz i was goin snowboarding with their family. yeah. mai snowboard was weird… it had this enlarged bacteria-looking design on the bottom. weird. wurrrd.

and then @ night we drove there… went to some hotel for $50 a night… it was pretty good even tho we thought it’d be hella ghetto… ended up buying mcflurries (yummie, but expensive), getting fat, and watching “indiana jones and the temple of doom”. i love the indiana jones movies. heard they were making a new one…? dunno if it’s tru, tho.

saturday, went boarding @ heavenly. it was koo… never been to heavenly before. i don’t kno if it was good or not… all ski places are the same to mee =P i’m glad, tho… it’s mai third tym snowboarding and i kinda got the hang of it now… altho like fil said, i can do the turns and stuff jes dandy but then i fall on flat areas randomly. haha. i fell into this powder bank once… it sucked… josh was trying to pull mee out but he couldn’t. estoy muy gordo >P hahaha and then the bindings on the nor-ski snowboards were hella ghetto, so when we were comin offa this one lift, josh’s board got caught under fil’s and his binding totally came off and the ski lift manager dOod had to screw it back on with a pocket knife… wahahah. it was so hilarious. coming off ski lifts is the worst, i swear… i fell every tym and i’m such a talented faller… i always slide like ten feet away from the lift area… hehe. this one tym i slid into these guyzes board and mai leg was twisted all funky but this guy SAT on mee!

this other tym i fell bai this hella old guy.

ha… ha. funnie people. there are hecka little kids that are hella hella hella good @ snowboarding and skiing… it’s so cute… but embarrassing too -_-

@ night we were going back home and passed bai sacramento (this was mai first tym there!) so we went to have lunch with their aunt… it was pretty good but kinda sucky cuz they knew i liked crab so they made mee eat it all… which i dun mind but i felt rude, and the crab had a lotta yukkie “huang” (the orange stuff). then afterwards we went to their aunt’s house to watch videos of china and to eat ice cream… yummie. they had a really kewl house… cuz they’re really rich. oh yeah, their uncle is black… hehehe (they’re chinese). hmmm well thas it… i jes really really wanna go snowboarding again. NOW! it’s so fun =P