inside the wonderful world of vee

* song of the moment * - “never” bai boyziimen… their best song eva… it’s hella good ^_^
* mood * - kinda like… “i dun give a fuck” mood. kinda like… “i’ll argue with anyone who argues with mee” kinda mood. not exactly a BAD one tho.

oh so yeah… i had skoo today and it was stupid. woohoo. i’m surprising maiself tho… i haven’t slept once this whole week… o.O i’m not even tired. but somehow i still manage to daydream every period. *sigh. i have a fucking D in math… piss mee off… i thought i did good on the last test too but NO ONE did good and our stupid teacher wun curve the scores… hella sucks… watch mee get into colleges but get kicked out cuz i have a D… i’ll cry. oh yeah. diana finally got her page up again. yay. check it out: http://existentialism.digitalrice.com!
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anyways, i have two major people pissing mee off today. first, we have this fOo named dticalman… i dunno who the hell it is, but our exchanges go as follows:

the prick - I hate korean fob groups that have crappy songs and ppl like “0-24″ and Han’s band and Click B, Baby VOX, Fly to the SKy and even Finkl and all other Fobby Korean Gay Groups..the only quality korean music truly comes from HOT… and tho they have a gay name and maybe some gay costumes and makeup..they still have WAY better QUALITY music that are actually good to listen to rather than groups like the ones listed above. I’m talking from a True Perspective with no favortism towards HOT of their current popularity but because of their honest, good music. ALL the other groups are all JUNK….J-U-N-K Sechskies is also another good songwriting group as well. and some other groups like 1TYM, SES, and Jinusean..everything else is complete JUNK. with the exception of maybe other groups i mite have missed. But all those other excess groups.. just need to leave the korean music industry cuz the cd’s aren’t even WORTH paying the $14.

mee - whut? yoo gettin ripped off fOo! hehe… i dunno what korean cds u are buyin but koeran cds are rarely even over ten bucks unless they’re like double cds or specials… hahahah… funnie shiet. so what r u buyin?! oh by the way… FOBBY KOREAN GAY GROUPS? even u said choti looked gay sometimes. i think choti has the best music too, but u r jes bein kinda stupid. half of the people dun even write their own songs… and choti didn’t start writing their own songs til like… pretty much the fourth album (even tho they wrote some in the third)… so dun complain aight… jes cuz certain groups are matched up with a different kind of music doesn’t mean they’re fobby korean gay groups… shiez.

the prick - i hate koreans that think their black. Koreans who think they’re black like the person who says cds are $10 or whatever are Idiots. with all ur lil slangs..go to AFrica…”shiez” puhah

mee - u freeking idiot… i’m not even korean! nice try tho… u say i’m a wannabe black because i say “SHIEZ”??? u say “LIL”… dun that make u a wannabe black too? gosh… if yur gonna try to debate something at least debate with logical, reasonable things… not somethin total disrepectful like that… it only makes u seem stupid and illogical anyways. oh btw, u say that i type ghetto or whatever… what about u?? what r u like? u don’t like korean FOBS yet u can’t even speak E-N-G-L-I-S-H. work on that grammar. it’s “i hate koreans who think THEY’RE black” not “i hate koreans who think THEIR black”. their is a possesive word, and they’re is a contraction that really stands for they are. learn it. it may help u some in life.

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the second thing regards korean singer baek jiyoung… supposedly there is a video out of her having sex with her previous manager and people are calling her a slut and stuff…

the second prick (mungmung) saw this picture of her crying and said the following:

the second prick - PUAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH THX FOR THE PIC. MADE MY DAY,. WHAT COMIC RELIEF!! PUAHAHAHAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHA

imajynxed1 - wut is so funny about a country/media ruining sum1 life cuz they had sex? grow up!

the second prick - not just having sex….having premarital sex.

mee - hey, why r u against premarital sex… not saying i am for it. but i’d like to kno what yur reason for being against it is. are yoo christian or something? catholic?? or r u jes against it?

mee (again) - o… so u r. mung mung, u are affiliated with some religion that believes in god apparently (i figured that from reading yur other posts). u kno what… i don’t care if yur against premarital sex. that is a good thing. but i hate how u… as a freeking christian or whuteva the hell u r… are SUCH an ass to other people with their opinions and LAUGH AT OTHER PEOPLE’S MISFORTUNES. it’s christians (or whatever) like u that have been turning mee off to church because u guys claim yur such straight, good-willed people, when really, u are pricks as well… u should KNO better if u are a christian. other people have an excuse. u guys shouldn’t since u believe in a divine creator. it’s horrible… u shouldn’t laugh at her because she made a video or whuteva. yes, that’s not right, but as a believer in god, u should be able to forgive people and not LAUGH at them because they are crying. do u really believe in god? yur probably gonna say that i shouldn’t judge you… but i KNO u kno it is not right to make fun of people. if u really believe in god, show it. don’t jes be another christian prick that talks the talk but does not walk the walk.

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so i’ll post what these dumbasses say later. god… people piss mee off (i piss maiself off too). what a pointless life we live? dOod this guy i kno sent mee a note on asianavenue today and he said he was gonna end his life or something… and it was like: “it has been a pleasure knowing all of you, and i just wish the best of luck for years to come. everybody on this list was singled out for a special reason, and that reason was because all of you are truly special people, and being special as you are, you have touched me. although i am not the special one here, and i must part. i hope most of you will feel a lot better without me. thank you. enjoy your life, while i’ll go end mine. peace on the other side.”

i’m not gonna write his name but i seriously hope he’s not gonna commit suicide or something… that scares mee… =( and i don’t even kno if i should ask our mutual frend about it… because he didn’t send a letter to her… i guess he wouldn’t be joking about something like that but i’m worried. this is what he wrote on his aa page…

AA SUCKS NOW. I BET MOST OF YOU HERE AGREE WITH ME. SO YOU KNOW WHAT I’M GONNA DO? I’M GONNA LEAVE THIS SHITHOLE AND GO OUTSIDE AND YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT ELSE I’M GONNA DO??

I’M GONNA KILL MYSELF. THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

NOBODY CARES ABOUT ME. NOBODY GIVES A FUCK ABOUT ME. NOBODY WILL EVEN NOTICE MY PASSING AWAY. NOBODY…

BECAUSE I AM A NOBODY.

I`M GONNA GIVE MYSELF 5 DAYS TO LIVE. ON THE FIFTH DAY, I WILL HAVE FINALLY LEFT THIS FUCKED UP WORLD AND HOPEFULLY BE IN A BETTER PLACE. SO WHAT DO YOU SAY? YOU LIKE THAT IDEA? YOU LIKE NOT HAVING ME AROUND? IT`S GREAT, ISN`T IT?? REALLY FUCKING GREAT! YOU DON`T HAVE TO PUT UP WITH ME IMING YOU ALL THE TIME LIKE SOME DESPERATE LIL FUCK THAT I AM, SO I`LL JUST DO ALL OF YOU A VERY BIG FAVOR! GOODBYE AND SEE YOU ALL ON THE OTHER SIDE.

4 DAYS UNTIL I LEAVE THIS GOD-AWFUL PLACE.

i don’t kno what to do!!! sorry for depressing yoo… i sort of depressed maiself now too.

after thinking about it for a while now… i don’t think i believe in the christian god.

now i have like ten thousand bajillion christian frendz, so i’ll hear some shit… but i refuse to believe that there is a god that LOVES yoo but still allows yoo to suffer as much as he does. people say that things couldn’t have popped out of nowhere… and that our galaxy would not have been created by itself. but then… where did god come from? i don’t even kno what to think now, but i do kno i don’t believe in the god most people think i believe in. this is not a easy thing for mee to conclude because the whole topic of christianity depresses mee. say i AM wrong… then what? but now i don’t think i can believe in something i honestly cannot believe. there are too many contradicting things in the bible, and the number one turnoff is christians (read mai previous post). they pretty much drive mee insane. i do think that christians are usually nicer than other people, but i think that is jes a coincidence because so many people are christians and they jes seem like a greater majority of nice people. i don’t think that made sense.

anyway. in my eyes, if there IS a god, it is not the god that most people believe in. not one that interferes with our everyday activites… not one that really really gives a fuck. perhaps it is a god that is jes like us humans… maybe he created us for his own enjoyment but does not interfere with every activity in our lives. hey, it’s possible, right? or maybe there is nothing… and i kinda believe that if there is a heaven and a hell, hell is on earth. i don’t kno… maybe we get reincarnated or something, but earth is pretty hellish as it is. and after the supposed rapture, earth is hell. so it makes sense to mee. oh, and if the dayam rapture and tribulation (whutever iss called) is tru… god should jes return now… because if i had solid proof that god existed… if i saw him with mai own two eyes, i would be able to endure any kind of pain to get into heaven. it’s jes not fair.

one more for today. this ain’t really nothin but jes a part of http://www.2tongues.com that has some good poetry. 2tongues is really interesting… check them out sometime if yoo have the tym. oh, along with the pacifics (http://www.propagandamovement.com) cuz the pacifics are the bomb too.

http://www.2tongues.com/yellowfist/ <~ the good poetry. and rap lyrics. yeah. check it out. it’s protesting the lyrics to the bloodhound gang songs. some get pretty vulgar.

i really like two of them. imma post them here. hopefully i ain’t violating no copyright laws. if so… oops. i was jes promotin the shit.

Untitled
by Quincy Tran

In this land, they wield words like weapons
Lobbing grenades behind my back
Pin in my mouth, words in my fist, I toss it back,
My words explode in your lap,

Smack
Boom
Crack-

Somewhere somehow something got lost along the way
In this land where
Da shit only sells when da shit is white
Like da shit we call Vanilla Ice

Somewhere somehow something got lost along the way
In this land where
Boys who don’t know and have nothing to say
Teen angst record selling glitz
Suffer this media culture of shit

I
M
No Oriental massage therapy
Not Oliver Stone’s bad memories
No Rambo target practice enemy
But an enemy of this white boy potion
Turning my sisters into lifeless notions
Of what you think
We are:
“Chinks”?

U
R
Mindless limp dick pornography,
“Art” as economic tv pop
kiddie rap, teeny bop, bigotry,
Formulated chord change mediocrity,
Poseur rap rocker wannabe.

We
Slit your lyrics in the middle night
Rip out your vocal chords while you sleep
This is our people’s plight

Your
Music is shit just like your
Sense of wit.
Just like your

Suburban sickness.
Boring, spineless
Columbine-less
Perverted white angst.

For once in your life do something beautiful with that guitar string
Hang yourself with it.

Brain dead, fuckhead
Sub-par
Dipshit.

When U Got the Fever for the Flava of a Geisha
by Nadia Young-na Kim

When u got the fever for the flava of a geisha
In Asia or america,
Well, one lies atop the other.
Mine and my colonizers’ eyes meet, through black and blue/slit and circle
asymmetry.
Supposedly the globes in his eyes that don’t fit in mine let him envision my
vision FOR me
Now I know best, he sneers. Now - I know the truth, I say.
For no pictoral vision can be detected on see-through, icy blue film.

Yet I see thru you and your gang;
‘Cuz haven’t you heard that only those in darkness can see the light?
Only my sparkling, squinty black seas can see; my bloodhound sense can smell,the
buried stench of him,
quelling my movements of resistance and those of my descendents,
exploring/uprooting my mystical mountains and valleys which he calls Orient.

To orient me to what?:
His dah dah dah dah! Imperial! brand of masculinity
But into his blue globes that blind him but spin me, I spit,
“No, my name is not Suzy, not Ms. Wong, but Ms. Kim if you’re worthy, Ms. Geem
if you can pronounce it, and Ms. Goddess if you’re nasty!”

You want to be wrapped in my Oriental rug so you can feel like the owner of
concubines? Dream on, for empty souls don’t get wrapped, only filled.
So you fill yourself with your desperate need for me to be yellow, to be chic/k,
to be geisha, to be Suzy? well, SORRY!!
My satisfaction’s NOT guaranteed so I’m here to cash in on this injustice—-
check, honey, and *I’LL* take care of my dignity.

Huh, too bad you can’t take care of your own.
So, you say you want me to bang you? Then let me bang this over both of your
heads:
Quit trying to own my S(e)oul,
just cuz yours’s at the lost-n-found,
but nobody came along to claim it.

n a d i a young-na k i m

those are only two out of ten, so go to the site, aight? later.

I jes read this poem today, and I’m sorry, but I did not find it the least bit ROMANTIC. And obviously it was to be romantic, showing the guys’ deeeep love for the girl, cuz it shows no other purpose than that. Well, read it, and yoo tell mee.

“Friends forever,” she said.
“Friends forever,” he said.
Eight years old and they made the vow to remain friends forever.

“I need some room,” she said.
“I’ll back away,” he said.
Ten years old and they made the vow to give each other space.

“Does Tommy like me?” she asked.
“I’ll find out,” he said.
Twelve years old and he made the vow to find out if Tommy liked her.

“He doesn’t love me anymore,” she said.
“He doesn’t deserve you,” he said.
Fourteen years old and he made the vow to love her forever.

“Nobody loves me,” she said.
“I know someone who does,” he said.
Sixteen years old and he made the vow to love her forever.

“I’m getting married,” she said.
“I’ll be there,” he said.
Eighteen years old and he made the vow to forever hold his peace.

“I got divorced yesterday,” she said.
“I’m here for you,” he said.
Twenty years old and he made the vow to be there for her forever.

“Why doesn’t anyone love me?” she asked.
“I have always loved you,” he said.
Twenty-two years old and he made the vow to keep on loving her.

“I could never love you,” she said.
“I could never stop,” he said.
Twenty-four years old and he made the vow to never love again.

“I can never see you again,” she said.
“I can never live again,” he said.
Twenty-six years old and he made the vow to never live again.

“I’m sorry,” she said.
Twenty-eight years old and he made the vow as he lay in an open casket.

I think a situation like this is not the least bit romantic… it jes shows how stupid and wussy he is. Maybe I’m jes really really pessimistic, but who in their right mind would think, “Oh wow, he’s so romantic that he killed himself because of that girl”… uhhhh I’d say he was jes stupid. And I also don’t think things like “Romeo And Juliet” are romantic @ all! They’re jes hella twisted. I’d say it’d prove they DIDN’T love each other that much if they couldn’t even try to be with each other in life… and ended up jes killing each other. Who knows, maybe never being together again?? It’s jes stupid. Ugh. Stupid.

I went to Berkeley today. I have now concluded I WANT TO GO TO UC BERKELEY SOOOOOOOO BAD.

I hope I freekishly get into Berkeley somehow! I hope, I hope, I hope!!!!!!

People in Berkeley are sOoOoOo freeking nice. I had to go waste film today… for a photo project. It was a portrait project; I basically had to take pictures of random people. Anyways, they’re nice cuz I asked eight people and none of them said no… and every single person who saw mee taking a picture waited until I was done with the picture to walk past… also, one guy even OFFERED to be a model for mee… hahaha. Cuz he saw mee asking random people. It was kewl. He did a handstand for mee… and I felt kinda bad cuz I made him do it three times since mai camera was being whack. -_-

About three other people. The first two were these kyOot guys… and I was mad cuz I couldn’t get a pic of them!!!!! Mai camera was once again whack and I felt bad making them stand in the middle of the street for so long and so I jes told them “sorry” and “nevermind”. Waaaah… they were kyOot SKATER guys too!! Waaaaah!!! >.< Cept they both had really high voices. For guys I mean. ^^; It was kyOot tho.

Third guy… it was this guy handing out flyers. And after I took a pic of him, he was like “send mee a copy!” At first, I thought he was joking, and I was like, “Yeah, like I know your address!” And we started crossing the street. But he actually crossed the street with us, got a business card from this guy, wrote down his name, address, number, and cell number (like I would call him?!!!!). But it was interesting. Hehe.

Man, do I love Berkeley.

I have concluded that next tym I am jes gonna bring film, say it’s for a photo project, and take random pics of foineass guys… after all, Berkeley is the land of hot boiz… =D If yoo ever come over mai house and see a photo album full of foineass guys with random names like Mark, John, Steve, etc. - yul kno where they came from.

* SONG OF THE MOMENT * - ‘relections’ bai mulan… hahahahah.
* MOOD * - good

well, tym to tell yoo about mai day!

in the morning, i had to wake up @ 7:30 to go to claire’s house where she drove mee to a senior center where we would be volunteering. we were volunteering with a rotary club (odd name, but it is a club that does charity work in certain communites). from like 10:00 to 1:00, we were cleaning old people’s houses… i washed windows, raked, and vacuumed. god, i’m such the dork. i find all those things fun. what a nerd i am huh??? i find fun in raking leaves. yes, so anyone who marries mee can like make mee do all the work and i probably wouldn’t even care -_- but anyways, i was in a group with these two other (old) guys… they were pretty koo tho. they found it sooooo amazing that i could speak mandarin, english, spanish, and some japanese… they were soooo amazed… it was funnie. haha. oh yeah! one of the houses had this eighty-seven year old lady but she was sooooooo with it and soooooo un-old seeming. it was so amazing. i really hope that i am that healthy when i’m that old…

anyways, @ like 1:10 i went to claire’s house and she called her frend eugene… and while i was waiting for claire to shower and for eugene to drive down (from alamo), i went to play pump it up… it was exciting. whoahoooo! actually, it wasn’t all that fun. i don’t like pump. i like ddr. but i am getting the novasonic 2 cd now because i liked it from playing pump it up. i also wanna find out something about BANYA, which is a group / person that only does instrumental music… it is soooo good tho. most of it is techno, but they have other stuff too. if anyone knows about banya, hit mee up.

well when eugene got there we sat around for a while (while he marveled at the fact that claire’s brother has every video game system imagineable, even the nu playstation 2’s) and then decided to go bowling… bai the tym we got to the bowling alley it was about 3, and this lady @ the counter was totally ignoring us for like… a while. and we were jes like… doing all this goofy stuff to try to hint at her… we even said like “god, are we invisible or something?” and she still kept yakkin away. talk about service. after one game (in which i lost, as usual) - we went to eat ice cream… we were gonna play another game, but the line was huuuuuge. dood, yoo can easily jack bowling shoes. not that yoo would want to, but if yoo went bowling a lot, yoo’d save a couple bucks.

so yea… then i went home and found out mai parents bought mee one of the nu nokia 8260 cuz mai other phone broke (someone dropped it and it no longer rings ^^;)… it was okay but it is such a pain to change the faceplate… yoo have to take out the battery and unscrew stuff. maybe i’ll jes stay with the case i have… i do want a different colored interior light tho (instead of green… cuz mai case is red) and i also want a green case, but the red is pretty kewl, and the interior light is like two hundred bucks. ugh. that sentence was horrible.

fil and his family came over for dinner… it was “ma-la huo guo”… translation? “really spicy hot pot”. dood, it was sooooo spicy. mai grandma made these spicy ass niu ro mian (beef noodles), and this ma-la stuff was hotter… PLUS i already don’t like hot pot, so i barely ate anything, and well… let’s jes say i dun feel so good… and after i eat really spicy and take a shower, like… mai mouth BURNS cuz i’m hot… o.O it’s weird. and today mai left eyelid burned too. i dunno wassup with that.

oh. yeah. and i have concluded mai biggest fears in the world:
1) getting poked really hard in the eye. don’t ask mee why. i think it is because i have poked so many people in the eye in mai lifetime.
2) TAILGATING!!!!!!!! and rear-ending people too. haha. anyways, eugene drove mee CRAZY today cuz he stopped like a centimeter away from the car in front of us… and it would be such a shame to see a lurvely subaru crashed!!! anyways, i think he thought i was pretty koo @ first, but on the way home from the bowling alley i was being hella spastic about him stopping so close to the car in front of us that i think i sort of scared him… hahahah.
3) heights, but that’s no big deal cuz that’s conquerable.

This year’s election is hella funnie! But first… I think that: 1) Nader should be Prez and 2) Florida’s votes should be recounted.

But the funniest thing of all is that every newspaper everywhere in the world is laughing at the United States… only cuz the United States claims that it is such a sophisticated and great nation when they can’t even get this right.

And I think the electoral college should be gotten rid of. I have half a mind to start a petition (since there are two ways you can make amendments to the Constitution… one, to talk to your Congresspeople, but they don’t want that cuz they’re in charge of the electoral votes and two, a Constitutional Convention which is achieved by a petition). I think that most people wouuld agree the electoral college is stupid and pointless… they should just

*SONG OF THE MOMENT * - “time will tell” bai h.o.t.! while i still dun think they are all that talented, i’m sorry, but i freeking love their songs. they should be songwriters instead of kasoos (with the exception of kang ta and woohyuk cuz they both actually have talent. actually, woohyuk is OKAY. i jes like him cuz he has a really nice voice and he seems nice ^^;). anyways, the way kang ta says “oh yea yea” in this song is soooooooo lovely… i pretty much listen to this song jes to hear him say it. actually no, the whole song is good, but the “oh yea yea” makes it like a trillion tymz better…
* MOOD * - i’m okay right NOW

woooo i finally wrote chinese lyrics to a song. check it out and tell mee what yoo think??? big 5 chinese. i translated it too but translated stuff usually jes sucks. i would write pinyin out too, but pinyin is butt ugly. it’s called “addiction”. if this ever freekishly turns into a song, i want it to be some morbid techno song ^^;

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[translation]

why am i addicted to this stage?
that i don’t even quite believe it myself
you’re not even that perfect
but this addiction is forcing me not to pull away

like a tornado is our happiness
in one second it passes by
in your eyes i can see the wrongs you have committed
i can see who you’re going out with every night
although you treat me pretty well sometimes
i never thought that things would change into this

how could i have let myself
turn into someone who only trusts you?
i’m really too weak
i don’t know what i’m supposed to do
i’m really too weak…

i want to see this love turn into something real
but you have already moved onto your next victim
i want to remain by your side
but so many people are loving you
if i just change my thinking a little
everything will turn out okay
but i can’t do it…

if i beg
will you still leave?
if i scream loudly
will you still go?
i need you
i must have you…

watcha think? ^^ i was bored one day. oh wait, i’m always bored.

* SONG OF THE MOMENT * - “nuhreul neukyuhbwa” bai j… she’s koolio…
* MOOD * - shitty. oh gee. surprise.

yoo know, i jes realized no one is even reading this shit because i killed one of the links that gets here, but yoo kno what, i dun give a shit, because i am too lajee to fix it. i’ll fix it when i next update on the 22nd.

anyways, i’m in a bad mood because of… three things. the first one being college, of course. god, i wish i worked hard in school. so all yoo little freshmen, sophomores, and juniors… work hard and don’t end up like mee…

second… christianity is damm scarie. last friday we were watching a movie on revelations and i dun like that shit. i’m thinkin iss jes to scare the shit out of people so they’ll be christians. who knows tho? personally, if revelations is tru, i’d rather want god to come back now. because if i actually did see him and i actually did knew… even as a non-christian, i would endure the pain and suffering if i could actually SEE a god. it’s not fair that we can’t see him if he is supposed to be out there. which is why i’m not sure if i believe it.

third… i’m sick of being mee man. i’m never good at anything. i’m always just okay @ EVERYTHING. so no one pays attention to mee cuz i jes blend in… nothing i do sticks out. i write okay. i sing okay. i rap okay. i listen okay. i draw okay. i design shit okay. i take pictures okay. i play sports okay. my grades are okay. my testing scores are okay. my webpaging is okay. every single thing that interests mee i am only OKAY @, and it pisses the shit out of mee. for once, i’d jes like to be GOOD at something. i guess being okay at everything is better than being bad @ everything, but there isn’t a person out there who is not good at ANYTHING, with an exception of mee. it just sucks. i’m not wanting to be good @ EVERYTHING, but being okay at everything just sucks. because people notice yur not bad, but so what? plenty of people are “not bad”. there’s nothing special about being not bad. it’s when yoo do good that yoo actually get noticed. i don’t kno if this makes any sense, but oh well…

Most people dun like the SAT’s but I freeking LOVE them. After all, mai GPA is crap and even tho I don’t do that good on the SAT’s, compared to a lot of people, I do pretty well.

Anyways, I’m listening to this tape I got from the ETS (Evil Testing Service?) for the Chinese SAT 2’s. Dood it is RIDICULOUS how easy this shit is. I seriously think that people are just scared about it because they don’t think they’ll do well, but it is SO easy. SOOOOO EASY. It’s really a joke how easy it is. And I’m not even bragging because mai Chinese isn’t even that good. I’ve only taken up to third grade Chinese school… all mai Chinese I learn from translating songs. So I really don’t kno that much but according to this test I took, I got a 750! Which is good, cuz I’m an ABC. I only wanted to take Chinese since I got a 710 on English and so if I do well on Chinese, it’ll look really good for college apps… ^_^

It makes mee really mad when Korean people do bad on SAT 2’s. Seriously, yoo Korean people have NO excuse. Korean isn’t hard to read… it’s just like any other language to understand… so yoo guys are jes sorry. =P And the thing is, most of these people who do bad have hella KP and think they’re hella good @ Korean… uhhhh roiiight. @ least Chinese people have an excuse cuz Chinese is hard to read and shiet. Japanese too… cuz they use kanji as well. But Korean people who do badly are jes sorry.