inside the wonderful world of vee

* SONG OF THE MOMENT * - “ai shuo bu chu ko (unable to say i love you)” bai wallace chung. only because i am listening to it now… cept i was stupid and i didn’t feel like waiting for the cd to stop spinning so i stopped it with mai hand… and now i believe i scratched the bottom -_-

* MOOD * - lazy. i don’t want to do homework but being online isn’t proving to be much fun either (notice that is why i am actually writing an entry???)

wassaaaaap fOolios. long tym no… write.

i’m so happy i finally got the new layout up!! it only took four miffin months. not long @ all, i swear.

well school started three daze ago for mee. it is already getting boring! i hate pre-calc man. i don’t know a thing because mai teacher last year was REALLY bad and didn’t teach us anything =*(

but anyways. this guy is in mai english class and i haven’t had a class with him since 7th grade. it is quite embarrassing because i used to like him… and i did the stupidest thing. i’m not going to elaborate because i think it is mai most embarrassing (and stupid) moment ever. i shudder thinking about it.

on the other hand, mai physics teacher is the bomb diggy! he’s so cool. but anyways.

journalism sucks. at least NEWSPAPER journalism. wah. sucks.

i get teppanyaki tonight!!! it’s surprising because i’ve been wanting to eat teppanyaki this whole week and i actually get it!! i didn’t even ASK… it just HAPPENED. scarie huh??? i’m excited. teppanyaki be the shiet. if yoo dunno what it is, it is… some japanese thing where yoo go there and there is a long metal sheet thing that gets heated up… and then they cook meat and scallops and stuff for you. hella good. well… in hong kong at least. i dunno bout here.

speaking of hong kong, we are / were gonna go there for christmas (along with taiwan) but mai mom wants to go to thailand!!!!! >_< i don’t WANT to go to thailand!!! man… first we were going to korea, but that got switched… then japan, but that got switched… and now hong kong but they wanna go to thailand *sniff sniff… can things never go mai way??

oh wellz. guess it is better than nothing!! speaking of traveling, remember i said mai frend wanted mee to go to korea with her next summer??? mai parents were also thinking about sending mee and mai frend to taiwan to learn chinese for two months… i really want to do BOTH!! *sigh!! what to do what to do?!!!!

I’ve concluded that yoo only remember dreams if yoo wake yourself up and not if something (ie: a ringing telephone) or someone else wakes yoo up. I wonder if that is tru? Seems tru to mee… so I’ve had dreams many a day this week…

I wonder if they really mean anything. Once I borrowed a couple of books on dream interpretation (btw, some Christians think this is bad?!!! why the heck is it bad?!!!) and I was gonna look up stuff but it was so boring if yoo look through a book… -_- I think I need someone that I could just tell mai dreams to and he or she would interpret it, but if I actually DID find someone, it would all be a bunch of crap… because everyone has different thought processes and I don’t agree that yoo can hold the same standards for everyone. Which is also why I don’t agree with many points of psychology although it fascinates mee…

Besides, I think I’d really SCARE someone if I told someone the kind of dreams that I have. Hell, I’ve scared maiself. I’ve nearly killed two people in mai dreams. Scarie, huh???? O_O I scare maiself… =*(

Everyone knows that in America people can sue for the STUPIDEST things. Like that lady who sued McDonald’s for her own stupidity (she poured coffee on her lap)… geez any idiot would have known that it was HOT…

Yesterday I was watching the news which told about this lady who was sueing Publisher’s Clearing House because she bought hecka stuff from them because she thought it would increase her chances of winning a million dollars. The news report also said that every year 5,000 CALIFORNIANS spend at LEAST $2,500 on stuff from Publisher’s Clearing House, hoping that they can win a million dollars. AND they’re gonna get money back for that from Publisher’s Clearing House too! That is such bullcrap. They were stupid… Publisher’s Clearing House should not have to give them back any money. >_<

See, that is what happens when people want money too much but don’t work for it.

Yo!!!!

Okay well a couple of things to say here:

1) I HATE English-dubbed Chinese movies. Dood! Just use subtitles! >_< The dubbing is SO horrible… no emotions whatsoever ~ might as well just turn them all into comedies with those gOofy-ass voices. Sorry if yur reading this and yoo dub Chinese movies into English or something O_O

2) Well I was flipping through the TV channels (and pretty much stopping at EVERY SINGLE CHANNEl ~ man I am TOO easily amused) and I came across the movie “Red Corner”. At first I didn’t know WHAT movie it was but it just interested mee because Richard Gere was in this building with a whole buncha Chinese people who were speaking Chinese (no dubbing OR subtitles mind yoo… hahaha), so I just watched it. Later I found out what movie it was… and immediately I was like “OH!” I read somewhere in some Asian-American magazine or on some Asian-American website that this movie was highly racist ~ and so I searched for ANY indication that it was racist… and to those of yoo who think it is an extremely racist movie ~ sorry, but I did not find any indications. Yes, it portrayed China as a place of great injustice ~ with a government that was corrupt and messed up dirty ass jails. First, who is to say that the United States doesn’t have a messed up corrupt government???? And dirty ass jails isn’t really bad ~ for godsakes, they’re CRIMINALS. The United States treats the criminals TOO good ~ they should spend that money on other stuff. OH! And the movie DID say bad things about the United States as well. It just irks mee that so many ignorant Asian-Americans get mad because an AMERICAN (WHITE American) portrays China as a place that isn’t perfect, it is racism ~ yet it is OKAY when CHINESE people from China put out similar movies illegally… suddenly it is okay just because they are Chinese too. That bugs.

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* song of the moment * - “forever’s first day” by wang leehom… this song is okay… it takes some getting used to, though.

* mood * - i don’t know…

oh dear… i think i hate someone O_O

i always prided maiself as a person who never hated anyone… but right now the realization just struck mee and i’m just unable to believe it i guess?

sure i say i hate people but i never really do. i think this is the one person i have truly hated… except the problem is i am not SUPPOSED to hate him (long story). i can’t stand being by him, but it is unavoidable… and i just now when he got in trouble, i could not help but smile.

i feel evil…

but if yoo knew mai situation yoo would know i have good reason… yes yes, yur supposed to forgive everyone, but this reason is one of the best there could be.

still, i feel bad… i wonder if that is really hate? it seems like it but i don’t really know… i’ve never really hated anyone before. i feel like a frootcake… most people would be saying this about LOVE (ie: is this what love is really like?) but i am talking about hate. i feel weird.

am i making any sense? i don’t know…

* song of the moment * - uhm… “delicious way” bai kuraki mai. this song is okay… she has a funnie english accent… that’s all i can say.
* mood * - uhm… bored.

today was such a waste of gas! i wasted half a tank of gas driving around O_O must be because virginia is so fat that she bogged down mai car (hahahah… jk… she’s soooo skinny -_-)

anyways. what did we do what did we do… first we were gonna go play tennis… in fact, that was actually the whole point of the day. so we could play tennis. so i went over her house and we ended up watching scenes from the movie “fight club” (btw, i LOVE that movie… watch it if yoo liked movies like 6th sense and 12 monkeys and stuff… ^^) that were edited out. yepyep… they weren’t as cool as i thought they would have been, but oh well. brad pitt is hot. =P**

after that we went to eat @ taco bell. yoo know, i never even knew taco bell had quesadillas. they’re not so bad… but how come no one ever gets them??? O_O people ALWAYS get quesadillas everywhere else, but never @ taco bell… hrmmmmm… that makes mee scared. =P

then… we drove to fil’s house cuz we were gonna get ddr (duh duhr) so we could play it, i guess, but he wasn’t home (doh!)

so then we went to the movie theatre because we had this sudden urge to watch “what lies beneath”… but when we got there, the movie wasn’t starting for two hours (which is EXTREMELY stupid… that movie was showing on two screens but they played the movies @ almost the exact same times… BR’s!!!!), so we went to the mall… to basically just visit people… i guess that was entertaining… it’s surprising how many people yoo can visit @ the mall… we wasted an hour visiting people O_o

finally, we saw “what lies beneath”… it was okay, sort of predictable, but it had jumpy parts none-the-less. iss hella nasty in the end when they make the corpse move though… O_o too weird. but i guess it was pretty good. i GUESS. i like watching those movies, but then afterwards they always seem to let mee down. maybe i should just stick to movies like fight club?

how come all the postmen and women seem to be asian? or @ LEAST minorities. but most of them are asian.

postmen (2) at mai old work = asian.
postman (1) at mai house = asian.
postmen (1) and women (2) at the post office bai mai house = asian.
postman (2) at the post office in danville = asian.
postwoman (1) bai fil’s house = asian.

iss scarie i tell yoo. scarie.

Yesterday I went to watch a movie at this old movie theatre, which is only a dollar a movie. However, the reason for this is because there is a newer, better movie theatre that opened up, so this old one lowered their price to a dollar a movie and played old movies because they really could not compare if their ticket prices were still the same.

First of all, I’ve been at that movie theatre a million times and mai mom knows it. Except when I was talking to her on the car on the way to dinner that night, she was like “Oh… you shouldn’t go to that kind of place because it is so cheap… it must mean it has a bad environment.”

WTF IS THAT ABOUT??? There are virtually NO freeking poor, “ghetto” people in Dublin, and mai mom knows it! Suddenly she gets all psycho just because this place offers cheap movie tickets? What kinda shit is that? That pissed mee off so much… I hate when rich people think that they are better than other people. I never even knew mai mom was like that. I’m dissappointed.

And then mai brother… holy… he bugs mee even more! He’s one of those people that wants to be a millionaire, and that’s one of the MOST important things to him (probably second most important… seriously) and he wants to be rich so he can flaunt it. So he can bust out his billz and get a limo to drive him everywhere… to get nice clothes… he even likes pretending that he is rich now. Even if he doesn’t have all that much money, he likes to treat people out to dinner (for no reason), he likes to waste $$ on hella stupid shiet, he likes to dress in suits for NO REASON for godsakes!! That pisses mee off too!

Yes, money is important, but no way should it be the MOST important. As everyone knows, money doesn’t bring TRUE happiness, love, or friendship.

And I don’t like when people show off that they have money. So what? Yoo have money. That doesn’t mean yoo are BETTER than other people. Seriously, so what?? Yoo have a good business… maybe some homeless guy had a good business but things were f’d up beyond his control… say he had family members’ hospital bills to take care of or something. Does that make yoo a better person than him? Hell no! Just because yoo drive a Benz doesn’t mean yoo’re better than a person who drives a Civic! Maybe he or she doesn’t want one.

It’s hella stupid how people think that if yoo’re rich, yoo have to have nice EXPENSIVE cars, yoo have to have a nice EXPENSIVE house, yoo have to have nice EXPENSIVE clothes. Being rich is just a whole buncha crock… yoo have to pretend to be all distinguished and stuff or other people will look down on yoo.

Honestly, I don’t want to be rich (I don’t want to be poor either though ~ probably somewhere in the middle). Of course, buying whatever I wanted would be great… that’s a given. But no way is it something that I yearn for. To be rich yoo have to go to EXPENSIVE restaurants and mingle with other rich, “distinguished” people, all the while pretending to be something yur not. That just doesn’t work for mee.

I really believe in that term “keepin it real” as ghetto as it sounds. No reason to pretend to be something else to please SOMEONE else. I can add this to a whole lotta different scenarios - people who drink and smoke just because their friends do it, people who waste hella money on the latest fashions just because their friends do it, etc. etc.

Personally, I don’t give a damm what they think about how I look. I DO care about how I think I look maiself, and I DO care how other people rate mai personality. But as far as looks go… of yoo don’t like mai clothes or mai hair or hell… mai nail color, then screw yoo… I don’t give a damm. =)

I always rant about stupid people. I dunno what it is, but I think people in general are just idiots -_- Yes, maiself included.

Anyways. These are three things that stick out in mai mind right now:

1) Korean people who hate black people but love Korean music. WTF is up with that? 99% of Korean songs (almost literally) have rapping in them. Gee, it’s not like black people didn’t make up rap people. Plus hella Korean people like to dress ghetto and try to act like they’re black, yet they hate black people? I’m sure there are other Asians who are like this too, but it seems the most evident in Korean people.

2) Okie… yesterday I was @ this birthday party, and OMG, I didn’t even know this chick but she was seriously pissing mee off! She was talking about her step-sister who did stuff to “shock” her family… like dyeing her hair and going out with a jacked up guy. Well, obviously this girl needs some attention ~ some kinda HELP. But this girl that was talking says now whenever her step-sister comes home with a new style or a new thing to shock them, they don’t even care and EXPECT it. What kind of attitude is that? Of course if yoo expect it from her, she’s going to do it. And once this chick said that her step-sister dressed up hella neat and not like the normally did to “shock” them, but they didn’t even care. Maybe they shoulda been like… “Oh, I think that style looks good on yoo” instead of not giving a F about her. And they wonder why she is screwed up.

3) People that hate other people for no good reason. Okay, sometimes I may say I HATE someone, but in actuality, I don’t hate anyone. There are some people though, that can just hate people so easily and throw around the word hate so easily… just because someone may not have the same opinions as them, they can say that they HATE that person. That bugs mee. Just like love shouldn’t be used lightly, hate shouldn’t either. -_-

Freeking PB’s (Pabos)… or BR’s (Ben Ren)… take your pick. Oh… since we don’t have one for Japanese… how about BK’s (Bakas?) Just doesn’t sound AS good. Oh well.

Okay. Well. I’ll go entertain maiself some other way now…

I was listening to the radio this morning and it was talking about a kid who is 9 years old… and he is enrolled in both 4th grade AND the local community college (taking computer science, webpage design, algebra, etc.) ~ but anyways…

The radio people (the Doghouse) were asking the kid, “what do you do for fun?” and he was like “go on the computer…” So they asked, “When yoo’re NOT on the computer, what do you do? Or do you have no time for anything else?” He’s like, “Well, I don’t really have time to do anything else…” How sad if yoo’re a nine-year-old kid and yoo don’t even have tym to do anything but sit on the computer all day… >_< I mean it is sad when yur older, but being a kid is the greatest tym of your life… and if yoo waste it like that… it’s just a shame. I dun like those parents. They allow that kid to be a 9-year-old enrolled in college. And he has a sister who is 13, who is also enrolled in college.

I think the parents must have really pushed them for them to be that way. They shouldn’t do that… the parents said that their kids were BORED so they made them learn more… they made them math flashcards when they were five… -_- I mean… hello… yes, yoo have a smart kid, but yoo shouldn’t allow them to sit there and be a vegetable. Being smart isn’t everything.

Which comes to mai conclusion ~ even if I had the choice to trade lives, brains, whatevers, with that nine-year-old kid, I wouldn’t. He obviously doesn’t KNOW that he should be like other kids out playing, because he isn’t like other kids, but later, when he grows up, he’ll know how much stuff he missed when he was younger… and the knowledge of THAT would suck.

* SONG OF THE MOMENT * - “a love before tym” bai coco lee… i think this song is for a soundtrack. anyways, iss pretty good. i like the way her voice sounds in this one. good variation =P
* MOOD * - juss kinda like… whateva…

i got mai liscense today! finally! after two times of failing! (that just shows how great of a driver i am eh?) the first tym i stopped @ a red light and then forgot to look for cars coming when i was making a right turn… and that was bad… the second tym i sped in a residential area (stupid mee eh… well, it was only five over O_O) and this tym i finally passed… hehehehe…! ^_^ but they changed the point system, so now instead of getting 70 or whatever, yoo have to miss less than 16 things. don’t ask mee, i dunno, and i dun give a damm =)

anyways… i like songs in minor keys… ^_^ i think all people do, eh?

violins and acoustic guitars also sound soooo good in songs… O_o pretty much any song with either of those is pleasing to my ears… ^_^

* SONG OF THE MOMENT * ~ “ta een” bai young turks… man, i freeking love this song… i heard it about two and a half years ago, and i never could find it anywhere again, because i didn’t know the title. now that i do… shiet man, this song is soooo freeking good… too bad young turks dun have any guys anymore… oh well…
* MOOD * ~ okay

i’m happy cuz i got so many good mp3’s today… i found a lotta good chinese artists’ mp3’s which i’ve been looking for a longass tym and i’m glad to have found them… some of the people were lee hom, liang jin ru, landy, and of course this young turks song ^_^ i’m mad though, that liang jin ru is such a good singer but she’s not famous in taiwan! >_< and yet yuki hsu *queen biter* is! oh well… anyways… mai hand hurts and iss tym to go home. guess what? i’m taking japanese @ a local college next semester! yay!

oh yeah… and yoo know what sucks? some people i know moved to another city nearby *literally, one city over* and our stupid school won’t let them go to mai school! and they have hella good gpa’s and stuff too! tsk tsk… hopefully they’ll complain and win and still be able to go to our ghetto school *i told them to go complain! =)*

wellz… home tym. bai!